And I know it's wrong, and I know it's right.
Even if I try to win the fight,
My heart would overrule my mind,
And I'm not strong enough to stay away
(Apocalyptica - Not strong enough)
No pain. Only this endless weariness crawls up my veigns and with half-closed eyes I watch the life leaving my fainting body. The last hours. The last minutes. My mind's completely empty.
I don't know how I imagined this moment.
As a shinobi you know that death can approach you any time. Every day can be your last. I ever knew this and life never meant too much to me.
For revenge I lived. There was no 'happily ever after'. There was no idea of a future.
Everyone who ever was important to me burned to ashes. Everyone except for you.
And you're laying here beneath myself and I listen to you breathing. A fainiting sound. It'll be your end as well. For us.
What's the reason for this life? What'll remain once we're gone?
The sky's bright blue and it'll be the same for tomorrow. The world revolves and it won't stop once we're gone. We're meaningless and even once engraved in stone nothing will change about this fact. Being part of the never-ending history.
My head moves slowly so I can see you. It's so exhausting.
You look at me, smiling brightly. Your eye's swollen, the blood has dried and your skin's so pale. No sound leaves your moving lips, not even a whisper, but I know it anyway.
I want to reply, but my voice's already gone.
One last smile, you deserve it. A last tear for you. For us.
Your smile's so dazzling when you close your eyes. As if it's one great last moment. Spent together.
"I'm so glad", your lips shouted, "I'm so happy to be here with you."
Did you understand me? I hope so, I wish for that.
Out of the corner of my eye I'm able to see the blood. Is it yours? Is it mine? I can't tell anymore.
So tired. My consciousness's fading away. I can sense it. The cold. I'm freezing.
There are voices calling out to me in the distance.
"You're not alone", they tell and I gain all my courage -
and close my eyes one last time.
Everything was over.