A poem I wrote a while ago and just discovered last night. Told by Lulu.

You

Choking back tears

Choking back emotion

Releasing all my fears

Screaming out from devotion

All is quiet, still and silent

I hope that it will cleanse me

My body mind and spirit

Have all been tainted

I need solace

To be able to survive

When I look at you

I try to make you smile

To make you laugh and joke a bit

But it never lasts a while

Hurt, anguish pain and angst

Is this all I will know?

When memories are all that's left

What will they show?

Will they show rare the rare times, happy memories?

Or will they cease to provide the comfort that I may need?

Will they be bold, will they be bright?

Will they be dark, and black and gaunt?

To lay in the murky depths and haunt…

Me…you…us…

Insomnia runs rampant

In the mind of the troubled

In my mind it's persistent

That's why my eyes hurt so much

That's why I can't stand anybody's touch

And that's why I died a long time ago

Maybe not physically

But in my soul

No matter how dark the night

Morning always comes

But I have no been able to see the rising sun

The burning ball of gas

That sets in the west

Has only came back once

But never again

My world crashed around me

And I have nowhere to go

The only things I have are my mind, body and soul

So now I will tell you

Why I wrote this down

I did it to teach you

To keep what you have

Keep who you have

Treasure existence

And your guardian angels above

For if you care my friend

They will treat you with love

Hope it was ok. I tried to write what Lulu may be feeling, her emotions and feelings and what she was thinking when she lost Chappu. Review and tell me what you think.