A/N: Forgive me!! I know i said I'd write another one forever ago...I've just been...deliberating. I couldn't choose a song!!
Anyway, this is inspired by Midnight Sun and a song from the amazing SM's Midnight Sun playlist.
Enjoy!!
Edward - Glycerine
Must be your skin that I'm sinking in
From the moment I smelt your delicious scent, there was always a part of my mind that was fantasising about sinking my own teeth into your soft flesh. To feel the warmth trickle down my chin, taste that unreasonably appealing blood...but I was trying very hard to smother that part of me.
Must be for real because now I can feel
I already had a perfect explanation to not kill you; I could never let down my family. No matter how appealing you smelt, I had fought for this way of life for too long. But there was something else - a new feeling that I hadn't experienced, even in my human life. I finally realised what the feeling was. It was love. For almost 90 years I've walked among my kind and yours...all the time thinking I was complete in myself, not realizing what I was seeking. And not finding anything, because you weren't alive yet.
Not my time to wonder why
everything's gone white
and everything's grey
The world was different from the day you had walked into the biology classroom. I was having a conflict within myself – whether I could or could not control myself to ever be close to you. And if I was strong enough to leave you; because I was sure that I did not have the self-control to ever be close to you.
I don't want this, remember that
From the little time I had spent with you, I wanted to know even more about you. At first, it was because of my curiosity; I couldn't hear your mind and it drove me crazy not knowing what you were thinking. Never before had I asked someone "What are you thinking?" But when I realised how I felt about you, I couldn't get enough of you; you were fast becoming the centre of my universe. Knowing my feelings towards you made this conflict within me even harder – because now I definitely could not slip. The thought of you dead in my arms, drained of your blood, was worse than horrifying.
I'm never alone –I'm alone all the time
I had become your stalker – I followed you everywhere. Not always physically, but mentally I was with you as much as possible. When you were at home, I would sit outside your house. I even sat in your room while you were sleeping. Hearing you talk in your unconscious state was the only way I could ever hear what you were thinking, without your editing. Yet I felt so alone – because more than anything I wanted to be able to stroke your hair, caress your cheek, be the reason for the smile upon your face. But I couldn't. And you could never know just how much I loved you.
Couldn't love you more
Nobody could love more passionately or stronger than a vampire could. Once a vampire found that certain someone, that was it; forever. Forever was a long time by yourself – something I had experienced firsthand.
You got a beautiful taste
I imagined how you would taste. Sometimes, if I took a breath through my mouth and you were close, I could actually taste you. It was enough to drive me insane. But the realisation of my love for you had awakened a part of me that I didn't even know existed. Because I had never experienced it, even when I was human, these feelings were so new and fresh. There was a part of me that wanted to taste you – but it had absolutely nothing to do with the want to taste your blood.
I couldn't change though I wanted to
I would do anything, absolutely anything, to be human again. If it meant that you and I could be together, there was nothing keeping me as a vampire.
Could have been easier by three
our old friend fear and you and me
I might have been able to leave you and never turn back if you had been afraid of me. If that glare I had given you in Biology on that very first day had stuck in your mind and you had run away, screaming, I would never have figured out that I loved you. I wouldn't be having this conflict and you would be safe. Never to be harmed or...bitten.
I could not kiss just regress
If we did have a relationship, I didn't know if I could kiss you. You were so delicate, so breakable. If I, for less than a second, let my concentration slip I could break you or even worse – attack you. I would always have to pull away and I didn't know if our relationship would be able to resist rising to that level.
Don't let the days go by
could've been easier on you.
Please don't let time continue the way it is – I can't bear being so close to you, yet so far. Either send me away or...no. Send me away. I'm no good for you. Please?
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