Disclaimer: Gravitation isn't mine.

Story: Shuichi asks Tohma to play Moonlight Sonata for him.

Set after the TV series (not manga).

Spoilers: Maybe.

Warnings: If any other than Yaoi.

Pairings: Tohma/Shuichi, mentions of Eiri/Shuichi

A/n: Part 2 will be up as soon as I finish translating some things. It is a bit more cheery than this one. Don't forget to read and review!

Moonlight Sonata

Chapter One: To Your Satisfaction

Tohma had decided to stay in a little longer and holed himself in his office. He sat and thought about the new lyrics that they had to produce and remembered he was the only one working on it that night. Ryuichi was out with Tatsuha at the festival and Noriko was with her husband spending a rare rendezvous. He recalled his own marriage and how it was falling into shambles. It wasn't that he and Mika were fighting; it was just that he was in love with someone else. Not Eiri. But someone currently with Eiri.

It was bizarre at first. All those times he thought Eiri was the one and then a humanoid pink kitten had ruined his happily ever after plans. It probably built from that to make him realize how…precious that pink kitten was. Tohma smiled and began to think of his melody for the new song.

"Seguchi-san?"

How wonderful. "Yes, Shuichi?" His eyes widened and he almost lost it. He hadn't remembered to say Shuichi's last name. It had always been something he had done in the past and now he was calling Shuichi with such familiarity. He could see Shuichi's wide eyes as he turned to look at the singer better from his spot at the piano. He saw the younger boy snap out of it and what he said next had him blink twice. Slowly. "I came to check up on you. I overheard you were staying late."

Tohma could see the blush on Shuichi's face. "I'm fine. But what are you doing here this late? Everyone's been gone for an hour." Tohma also saw the blush intensify. "Ah, well, you see…I had a quick brainstorm. So before I forgot I went into silent mode and ignored everyone in the studio while working on the lyrics I had just thought of."

Tohma smiled. "Well now, you've certainly worked very hard. What was this inspiration that had you ready to take on more work? I dare say I have never seen you work so hard as of that one time where you were determined to prove Eiri-san wrong." And then his smile became more forced.

"Well…"

"Yes?"

"I guess you can see it. It'll be so cool! A Grasper would be checking out my lyrics!"

Tohma's smile became real once more and he grabbed the paper with those sacred words. "This is good, Shindou-san –"

"It's Shuichi." Tohma was surprised for a moment before he continued. "Well done, Shuichi. But you still haven't answered my question."

Shuichi looked a little sad when he answered. "Yuki and I had another fight. I got to really think about things. I don't know where we stand any more. I don't think I've ever known where we we've stood."

Tohma nodded and was going to say something until –

"Play Moonlight Sonata for me." Once more, Seguchi Tohma was surprised. "What? Why?" He watched as Shuichi walked over to his window and looked up, where ironically, the moon shined. "If there was any music I've ever appreciated that wasn't from Nittle Grasper, it was that. It was so sad and it was played so beautifully. It captured me the same way your own works did. I even hate to say it but perhaps a bit more.

"And if it did captivate me a bit more, it would be even better if it was played by someone who I know is a genius at playing excellent works of musical art."

Who was Tohma to refuse?

And he played. He put his soul into it and his emotions so that the already sad melody was made even more heartrending. While he played he thought of Shuichi and how not only was Tohma playing for him but the emotions being made into song was because of him. His fingers danced across the keys and his eyes kept close throughout the whole song and Tohma could hear nothing else.

If only he had fallen more quickly. If only he had acted faster. If only he had the courage.

But then again, he was only human.

He finished and he heard nothing. Perhaps it had all been his imagination and Shuichi hadn't really been there. It was all probably some sick joke his mind created and he was just acting with it.

"Beautiful." He heard it. No doubt about it. Tohma whirled around and saw Shuichi still by the window, now facing him, with his eyes wide open and tears leaking. He looked so sad…

Tohma walked over to there and held him as he cried silently. "Shuichi-kun, don't cry. You should know, even if I will never admit this ever again, that I hate to see you cry. It makes me sad when you are depress." Even as Tohma could feel Shuichi in his arms he still thought himself dreaming. How else had the boy of his dreams be in his arms, so intimately?

"Tohma."

Tohma wondered how many more times must he be surprised. Shuichi had stopped calling him Seguchi-san and was being informal. He looked down and saw such a lovely picture.

Shuichi still had that sad look but the tears was only at his eyes and had not fallen yet. But he had this blush that helped made him look…heavenly.

"Tohma? Do you have something in your pocket? I…I feel something hard poking at me." It was Tohma's turn to blush and he knew what Shuichi had been thinking. It turned out it was his sunglasses holder but that didn't mean he wasn't getting hard from that image Shuichi made earlier.

But maybe this was his turn to make Shuichi see. Everything looked like it was the right time and he became confident that it would go over smoothly for both of them if it did not go as he had wished it would. There was a bunch of sake in his mini bar…

"Shuichi." He had looked down the whole time he had been thinking and he knew that his face was probably shadowed by his bangs. He clenched his right hand and took a deep breath. "Aishiteru."

"What? I think you said I love you. Speak up, Tohma-san." Tohma just had to whisper it.

Okay, he hadn't really been ready. And he wasn't really all that confident…but if he wanted Shuichi to stop with the formalities and be his then he had to make sure that he wasn't going to chicken out. And he knew actions were done quickly and brashly. Plus, didn't the old saying go, 'Actions speak louder than words…'?

So Tohma went ahead and kissed Shuichi. At first there was nothing but then Tohma felt arms circling his waist. He felt wonderful and wished it could last forever but he knew that they would need to get air. Unfortunately, that was soon.

"Tohma…" He heard Shuichi say breathily. No words were needed to explain but Tohma was afraid of the rejection.

"If only you had come sooner."

Then he was left alone in his dark office with only the moonlight providing what little light he had.

Even if he had held those little moments with Shuichi his heart ached. So he wept bitterly on the floor, wondering where had things gone out of his control. When had he stopped loving Eiri and fallen in love with his lover instead? When was he going to stop falling in love with the impossible?

Suddenly, he had a hit of inspiration himself. He knew what lyrics he should write so he wrote them down quickly. And the melody was all set as well.

This time, he had his heart to go on and to help with his music. The solo performances that they had to do for the concert next week were going to be a bit easier for him. It would only be hard because of the person he most wanted to hear it would know what he was singing about.

But it was all worth it.

And he smiled sadly once more before he lay on his couch, not intending to go home. He fell asleep quickly, thinking of his special night and dreaming of many more he wished would come.