LEAVING

I left you out there in the woods

Because my conscience told me it was for your own good.

My still heart tears when I see the look in your eyes

The look of sadness, which I so strongly despise.

You sit there on the ground staring in shock

So strong, you can't even talk.

But I know this is only for the best

To let you live life like all the rest.

I'm a demon, a monster, I deserve to go to hell

The better side of me demands not to cast you with this spell.

You're my angel from heaven, the light of my life

To leave you like this cuts me like a knife.

I want to run back and hold you tight

Never letting you out of my sight.

Your nice warm skin, your beating heart

The dead one in me is tearing apart.

You're my lover, my angel, my soul mate

To bite you would fill me with unimaginable personal hate.

You are my princess, I your knight

I give you support when you are clumsy.

Walking away I give my soul

Without you I will never be whole.

I love you enough to let you go

I shake with dry sobs but I won't let it show.

You deserve someone better someone who isn't a devil like me.

Someone who won't damn you to live for an eternity.

I'm running far, far away

Begging you not to follow but stay.

My conscience is slowly pulling me back

I beg of you, don't fall for Black.

Alice said you jumped off the cliff

And running through my head are a million "what ifs".

You lost your life because of me

I cannot live without you so I run to the Volturi.

I demand them to kill but they will not fulfill.

So I run to the village and sparkle in the sun rays

Now I have nothing else to say.

They have no choice but to let me die

For life is over in my mind's eye

Without you I am hopelessly lost

I will join you at any cost.

I'm almost there. I'm almost free

Away from living an eternity.

Then I hear a faint scream and cry

They turn to sobs and I don't know why.

These people don't know me. They don't know who I am

So why would they even give a damn?

Reluctantly I turn around

They owner of the voice is no where to be found.

Then I feel the faintest grip

Someone slipping and then they trip.

I look down and I see brown

The face is more than a frown.

I lift them up to face me

To see who would give such a desperate plea.

I see your eyes swimming with tears

And in them I see a million fears.

I hold you tight against my chest

Having you there is a feeling so much better than the rest.

How could I be so stupid and believe such a lie

I never wanted you to die.

I have no choice but to believe that it's true

That the person in my arms is really you.

Why did I not just listen to my heart?

Why did I think to do this in the start?

All I wanted was to protect

But the after math of what I did is even worse than I expect.

I promise you with all of me

That now my mistake I clearly see.

I solemnly swear to leave you never

Have you be mine, for ever and ever.