Okay, so here's where this story comes from. My friend, someone I"m not going to name was going through some problems, and I couldn't always reach out to him to help him, and when he wasn't home for about a week, I felt, well let's say like I almost lost a brother, and a really close brother, so this story is called, I'm Only Me Around You, from Taylor Swift's song, I'm Only Me When I'm With You. So, this is a really short story dedicated to him, just to tell him exactly what I was thinking. Now the song doesn't fit perfectly, but it's close enough.
This is just a one-shot, and if you've read my story, Life's Meaning, this is a story dedicated to Tom and Krissy, but in reality what I was thinking about him, hope you guys enjoy! This one's for you Tom!
All names are changed, so don't think you'll know the person I"m talking about. Now, one more thing, the thoughts are true, but not the actions.
TaylorSwiftTwilightFan75
I'm Only Me Around You
Krissy's POV
I'm walking down the sidewalk from the tennis court, and suddenly a gust of wind blows. I look up into the sky, and see the tree leaves swaying to the wind. I stop walking for a while, and pause to think about him.
It's been a week since he was gone. A week since I've talked to him. I really try to get him out of my head, but it's bothering me when I've got no one to "run" to and spill my heart out to. This sucks, it really does, being like this. What's worse? Well, I have this "friend" named Ashley, and all it seems that she does is complain, whine, or just blabber, and me just being the nice person I am, I don't tell her how much she annoyed me when I'm facing this much trouble.
That's the problem. NO ONE really understands what I've been through. Everyone always say they know what I"m going through and how I'll get over it, but do they really? I'm really questioning that. I don't really think anyone knows what I"m going through. In all reality, no one can know what anyone is going through, but you can try to understand, and just listen. That's what Tom does.
I've said his name now. Never really been saying Tom that enough anymore, I just think "him".That's all, I guess it's painful thinking his name. See, there I go again. I wish I could just get his mind off of my mind. I really do, but it's really hard. Well, actually, I've managed not to think about him almost for this whole day. However, it wasn't the whole day, but I still didn't think about him at school. THANK GOD!
I hate it that I can't really hide my feelings at school, but then againg I still can, seeing I seem to always pretend at school about how happy I am, when I'm actually hurt on the inside, but this one was too much of a shocker for me, and it really worried me when I didn't talk to him for a while. It's kind of like a routine, talking to him everyday. I don't see him often enough to really talk to him face to face, so we're always talking online, and it's better, in my opinion.
It's hard for me to open up when I'm actually facing the person face to face.
I resum walking, but I continue to think about him, and while thoughts rush through my head, wind keeps blowing in my face, and I can't help but look up at the sky, with my hair blowing in the air, and I see two birds fly past as well. As I saw those birds, I realized my life related to a song, I'm Only Me When I'm With You, by Taylor Swift. It's always so funny how I relate my life to her songs, that's the only reason I probably like her music, the lyrics, they fit with me a lot of times.
Lunchtime, at school, still Krissy's POV
It's Friday, and I can't stop but be happy about that. Friday lunch is by far my favorite time of the week. Why? Well, my friend, Heather plays the guitar every Friday, and is always open to requests for songs, and today I couldn't help but ask her to play the song on my head for so long, Taylor Swift's I'm Only Me When I'm With You, and she, not knowing anything why I wanted it, started to play, and I quietly sand along with her, thoughts racing through my mind.
Friday night beneath the stars, Today is Friday, but not at nighttime.
in a field behind your yard, I sometimes wonder if I'll ever see you backyard, for it'd be nice to see you some time.
you and I are paintin` pictures in the sky.
And sometimes we don`t say a thing; I don't have to tell you anything, and I"m sure you probably know what I"m thinking, I assume.
just listen to the crickets sing.
Everything I need is right here by my side. Talking to you, getting your comfort, I actually think I don't need anythign else even if my life is soo bad.
And I know everything about you No, I don't, but you do trust me loads more than most people.
I don`t wanna live without you. Living without you for that past week was really torture.
I`m only up when you`re not down. You were down, and I can't be too happy either,
Don`t wanna fly if you`re still on the ground. From the birds, I don't wanna leave you behind, I hate doing that to people
It`s like no matter what I do. I can't seem to help you.
Well you drive me crazy half the time; Crazy as in laughing all the time.
the other half I`m only trying to let you know that what I feel is true., Trying to, trying.
And I`m only me when I`m with you. Besides my brother, it's true.
Just a small town boy and girl
livin` in a crazy world. This world is really crazy, well my life is, and I'm sure yours is too.
Tryin` to figure out what is and isn`t true. It's hard to know when you've got problems yourself.
And I don`t try to hide my tears. I would probably cry openingly only to you, and my brother, that's it.
The secrets or my deepest fears. I tell you almost everything, my secrets, fears, feelings, everything.
Through it all nobody gets me like you do. I feel like you're the only one I can spill it onto, making me sometimes feel a bit guilty when you already have a hard life.
And you know everything about me. Not everything, but a lot.
You say you can`t live without me. You said it, not me, but then again I probably couldn't either.
When I`m with anybody else it`s so hard to be myself. It is, I can't say things about myself, and all I do is listen
Only you can tell., probably, you'll see a difference of how I act.
That I`m only up when you`re not down.
Don`t wanna fly if you`re still on the ground.
It`s like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I`m only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I`m only me
Who I wanna be
Well, I`m only me when I`m with you Actually, now that I think about it, you're not really with me at all, just seems like it.
With you
Uh huh
Yeah
That's really what I was feeling. I smiled right at Heather and thanked her, and she smiled back. That really made me happier, a lot, actually. I think I'll get through this, waiting isn't actually all that bad, really. Just got to be patient, that's all I need to be, patient.
Back home
I"m sitting at my computer, finishing up my homework, and I'm finally finished, so I go on and check my emails, and realized, he's sent me a message, saying,
"OMFG! I am SOOOOOOO freakin sorry! I was at a wellness camp that would help me stop my problems. I swear it! I was not allowed to go on any electronics...But I'm fine now!", and it wasn't even that he was fine and had his problem fixed that made me soo happy, it was the actual relief in a chest that knew he was truly okay.
Thank you God. Thank you soo much, but please, don't make me wait soo long the next time something like this happens, it really is painful.
Thank you though for making me feel so special.
This is the first time I've written a one chapter one-shot, so please if there is anything I could imporve on, just please tell me. I'd love it.
Thanks! Oh yeah, just to clear one thing up, this song is just the feelings KRissy has for a brother, or like in LM, a cousin, no others. I now it's kind of confusing seeing almost all of Taylor Swift's songs are a bit more of love related, so please don't get that confused.
Okay then, review, I want to know your opinion!
I"m out,
TaylorSwiftTwilightFan75