Title: My Goddess
Author: Gaia
Pairing: NOT TELLING! See if you can guess... before you start reading! Just by the name!
Rating: R (violence and language)
Warnings: yaoi, Duo abuse, evil monkey!Relena, slightly OOC, coughs angst
Disclaimers: I, unfortunately, don't own the Gundam Boys… but I wish I did! I also don't own the song My Goddess. That belongs to The Exies.
Notes: I'm sorry? This came out of having heard this song for the first time in a long while. It just popped in my head. I would like to apologize to anyone who has been waiting for new installments in anything else I've written. I am working on them! I promise. The only thing that isn't working is that these little fics keep popping in my head and I need to get them out before I can work on anything else. So again, I'm sorry!
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My Goddess
Heero sighed, his head resting on his knees, sitting on his bed. He was tired, so damn tired.
After the second war, he had left everyone, including Duo, to work for Relena as her Chief Officer of Security.
/I was knee deep in a sick love
I was cross-eyed under your drug
Schizo savior, mad messiah
Fated worship you inspire/
Tears shimmered in Heero's eyes as he thought of Duo. He loved him. He thought that their relationship could withstand the distance, but Relena took up too much of his time. She always kept him after hours, so that, by the time he got home, Duo would already be asleep out on L2.
Three years ago, Duo had called and left him a message because Heero had still been at work.
Flashback
Heero stumbled in the door of his apartment. Relena had finally let him leave at midnight after making him check and see if every single security system (of which there were twelve) was in working order.
The red light on his answering machine blinked incessantly at him and bothered his dry eyes.
He hit the button and heard a sweet tenor, belonging to Duo, fill the room.
"Heero, hi… Um, I don't know how to say this, but it has to be said, so here goes nothing," Duo chuckled nervously, "I love you, but this isn't working. You're always with Relena and I can't stand always worrying that you might leave me for her one day. I just… I don't know what to do anymore. You know I love you and if you ever think of me, you know where to find me. I'm so sorry. I didn't want this to happen. You don't know how much this hurts me. I… I just can't do it anymore, Heero. Goodbye." The dial tone blared until the message clicked off as Heero sat in stunned silence.
Flashback Ends
Heero had tried to get Relena to let him quit, but she had maintained her strangle-hold on him, even when he purposefully sabotaged all the security measures on the mansion and didn't do anything when someone had robbed it.
/Gone, I don't believe in you now
I've seen too much
I don't believe in you now
My Goddess/
Heero had heard from Duo less and less over the past years. They rarely reached each other and Duo seemed to think it was useless because they could never see each other anyway. The few conversations that they had managed to have were weak and forced.
Heero was sick of this. He needed Duo. Relena could go screw herself. He stood, pulling himself together.
He was quitting tomorrow, no matter what. Relena couldn't control him anymore.
/You were counting on a freefall
You laid your bet I would lose all
Chalk up one less crucifixion
I kicked that sick, old addiction/
Heero walked into his office in Relena's mansion. He was early, for the first time in all the years he had worked for Relena.
He blinked. She was usually waiting for him whenever he arrived.
He shrugged and walked to the kitchen, intent on a cup of coffee.
At the door of the kitchen, Heero froze at the sound of familiar voices.
"Why do you keep him here? He's obviously unhappy. He would be much more useful working for the Preventers." Lady Une's voice echoed through the large kitchen.
"I like watching him. He's a gorgeous man. Plus, someday, we'll be married." Relena sighed happily.
"You do know that he is gay, right? And that he's in love with Duo?"
"Not anymore… I fixed that myself. Do you remember when Duo broke it off with him?"
Lady Une grunted slightly in acknowledgement.
"I called Duo that day when Heero was busy working with my bodyguards. I told him that Heero would never love him and that he was close to proposing… to me. You should have heard him. He says he never cries," At this, Relena snorted, "He bawled like a baby!" Relena giggled delicately.
"Why? Jesus, Relena… You do know that Duo tried to commit suicide after he left Heero, right? The only reason he doesn't keep trying is because Wufei watches him like a hawk. He moved in right after he found out about the attempt. If Duo had succeeded… you would have caused his death!" Lady Une sounded horrified.
"So? What's your point? Heero would have screwed up their relationship anyway. I'm the only one he is capable of loving. He had already started the process by coming here and working for me. He always chooses me over Duo."
Lady Une's voice was muffled, but Heero could almost hear the disbelief in her tone.
Heero's fists clenched as he stood in front of the door. He was waiting for Relena to walk out.
/Down, I don't believe in you now
I've seen too much
I don't believe in you now
My Goddess/
Relena pushed the door open, grinning widely, but the grin fell off her face as she slammed into Heero's rock solid form.
"Why, Heero? Coming for some coffee? It's the brand you…" Relena shut her mouth as Heero whipped out his gun from his shoulder holster and held it to her temple.
"You called him… made him believe I didn't love him… You…" Heero's body trembled, but his gun stayed steady were it pressed painfully into Relena's skin.
Lady Une walked out and saw what was happening. She quickly pushed Relena out of the way.
"Heero, think of what you're doing. While you may hate her, she is important to the peace of the universe. Don't act on impulse."
Heero blinked at her voice and glared at her.
"She is the reason my life is ruined. She is the reason Duo's life is ruined. She deserves this." Heero growled.
"Don't kill her, Heero. I have a better plan for you than prison. You no longer work for Relena. You are now an active member of the Preventers. Go pack. You're leaving tomorrow morning for your new post on L2. If Relena follows you, she will find out what the entire world thinks of what she has done to you and Duo." Lady Une pushed him away.
Heero gave Relena one last lingering glare and walked away to clear out his office. It's not like he had much to pack, either here or at his apartment. Any comfort or luxury had been removed when Duo had left him.
Lady Une's words filled him with joy and he felt like a weight had been lifted from his shoulders. He was going to see Duo and beg him, on his knees with everything he had, for Duo to take him back.
/Now you see what you get when you lose yourself
What you get when you don't know who you are
When you don't know you are
My Goddess./
End Part 1
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