"You're fucking him."

It was quite a statement. Words uttered with such disdain, Caroline felt her whole body recoil. She looked away from Elena and for a minute concentrated on the movement of the trees outside their dorm window. The reddened leaves danced with the wind, some breaking free pirouetting in the air before letting it take them until their inevitable free fall into the ground. It was beautiful to watch to watch. Fall at Whitmore had been giving her new perspectives and she was starting to appreciate the beauty in things others took for granted.

She smiled thinking of the first moment it had all become so beautiful for her. Fresh from her disillusion, thanks to Tyler's asshole self, she had lied on the ground naked with her legs around the hard body that pounded unmercifully into her and fucked the sadness away from her. The cool win had washed over her body and the leaves had fallen like a red and rust rain that covered them. From that day, her eyes had been opened. Now she turned and looked at the best friend she had left, since Bonnie was gone, and tried to figure out how to explain. He heart wanted to expound on every reason and was even foolish enough to want to apologize, but words failed her and her brain held reason captive leaving only the truth flow through her lips.

"Yes." She responded as if it were the most natural of things.

"Yes?" Elena asked incredulously.

"Yes." Caroline reiterated. She was sitting on her bed. She felt like she was having an out of body experience as she watched her legs cross and her hands fold in front of her while the indignant brunette was standing in front of her.

"Is that all you have to say? You're just going to admit it like it's nothing?" Elena asked her tensely.

"You asked me if I'm fucking him. I told you the truth. Yes, I am." She replied calmly.

"Caroline."

"Elena" She says mimicking her friend's tone.

Elena was at a loss. She expected many things but this nonchalance coming from Caroline left her unsure of what to think. She is pretty sure her friend must be going insane so she opts to try and rationalize. "Why?"

"Why what? Why did I start? Or why am I still doing it?"

Elena can't help but gape at her. This seems to have been happening for a while. "Why to all the questions."

"Well, the first time was out of anger. I found out Jesse is working for him and he had told him about Tyler and I breaking up. So he came to make sure I was ok. I was pissed because I figured he was secretly happy about this and also because he was spying on me. So we argued on the far side of campus and an hour later, I was on the floor under him being fucked like never in my life."

Elena gasped at her crude language and even more at the smile that played on Caroline's lips.

"Every time after has been because I've been so hungry for him I can't help myself. He seems to everywhere at once and he knows… just want to do to make me scream. I'm sure you understand what I'm talking about. Even when he's not here, I feel his lips gliding all over my body." She sighs and her smile deepens.

"What happened to you Caroline?" Elena asked, her beautiful face in wrinkled confusion.

"Nothing. Everything. I decided to stop playing supporting actress to your life and got my own show." She smiled "But since you can't function without a supporting cast, by all means, lay on your latest drama on me."

"What is your problem?" Elena says scrunching her face. "I was the one telling you to get over Tyler and go out with other guys. I just didn't expect it to be the guy that killed my aunt Jenna and caused me so much much misery."

"You You You. Your family, your problems, your everything." She sighs. "I don't have a problem Elena. I just don't want to justify myself to you or anyone. I just decided to follow your advice."

"What's that?" Elena asked confused.

"I'm letting him a bad boy ruffle my feathers. But you know me. I'm all about fabulous. It can't be just ANY bad boy. It has to be the devil incarnate." She smirked.

"Caroline, this isn't you…" Elena said disgusted.

"You were right, you know?" Caroline interrupted. "I was having dirty thoughts about him" She pauses. "I still do... Of course now they're not thoughts…just memories."