I watched intently as Duke Jr. Petrolia, the Moroi spirit user I guard, walk in with the mail. It's my duty to watch him as a guardian to watch him, but not only that, but as his servant.
2 years ago we saved Dimitri from being a monster, or worse, a Strigoi. He didn't want me, instead, all my work went under Lissa's name. So I practically did nothing, and then the best part was that he now serves her as her loyal dog.
After I tried to talk to him at the church, she yelled at me to stay away from him, that I was making him worse and I should leave him alone. So that's exactly what I did. I left. And I'll forever live with that decision that lead me right into Duke's hands, the pain I suffered. 1 whole year of it, and I wake up screaming and bawling my head off cause of it.
My name Rosemarie Hathaway, I have died twice, and been brought to life 3 times. I am shadow kissed to 2 people, one of which I wish was not there, and the other that gives me a not so pretty life. I live in constant pain and live with the decision that made me and undead Strigoi.
My stomach turned inside out as I awaited my master's usual jibber jabber about the mail and how he just wanted to be left alone and his stupid joke of 'can you feel me'. Stupid puns.
"Rose, oh Rose, it seems the queen would like me to meet 2 people who are also spirit wielders at court, I may bring 3 personal guards. Doesn't that sound divine?" He laughs sarcastically. My master was one for show, and this was all for show.
"Master, I do not have any say, I go where you go, no exceptions, no personal reasons. At your command." I say in my blank guardian voice. He laughs.
"That's' the enthusiasm I want, we will leave tomorrow, I'll be taking you, Ben, and Nate, be a darling and go tell them." He chuckles and I cannot help but think of Adrian, to my master I have to keep him well kept, and the mental part takes it's toll on me since I also have to take care of Lissa. It was all overwhelming, I felt sick to my stomach as I nodded.
I haven't seen any of them since I left court, of course I could see Lissa, but that was the worst part. Whenever my name popped up she flinched and missed me, but I couldn't leave my master, it hurt, my bond was some how strong with him than with Lissa, so it hurt to be away from him for too long, that was of course because we worked the darkness.
Since the darkness was too strong for me when I have to take I from 2 people, he has to heal me to get rid of it, so I need to be touched by him at least once every couple of hours, but I don't push it.
The darkness doesn't hurt if I don't touch him, it just allows my shadow kissed thing to go out of whack. Like the ghosts around me get stronger and that's all I can see, or if I'm in the wards, a killer headache that leads me to thinking Strigoi.
I woke up screaming from my nightmare, I curled into a ball and began crying before drifting into a dreamless sleep.
When I woke up again it was 6p.m I got up and got ready, taking a steaming hot shower that burnt but felt oh so good. I got my black personalized guard suit on, basically black jeans, black shirt, black leather coat, and black boots.
The other 2 guards weren't far behind me, I went into Duke's room and he was sitting in his rocking chair, we already loaded the truck last night, it was a 6 hour drive to court. He was dressed formal, he was staring at me.
"Rose, you are to stay at my side the entire time we are at court, you are on 24 hour duty, you are not to tell your friends anything about you being a Strigoi, or you being shadow kissed to me. I know they are your friends, Queen Tatiana is our soul purpose, the other's aren't important, you are not to talk unless invited to talk." He stated coldly.
I nodded knowing this was wrong, but I wouldn't disobey him, it hurt too much, it added a pit to my stomach and made me feel sick.
"Good, you are my guard doing your duty to your master, not your friends, you know Lissa's emotions are not as strong as mine, so please, keep to your word and don't say a word." He sighed like he was tired of me.
"Yes master, the truck is ready if you are?" I say vaguely. He nods, we leave the other guards to watch the house, and I open up his side then get in my own side. I let out a heavy sigh.
But I knew what this really meant, if Lissa and Adrian wanted to meet him, then this meant they wanted to know as much as he knew, and since our bond was stronger, he really was going to show off. I missed them so much, but Lissa really would be angry when she found out I served another Moroi other than her.
I knew already what Adrian was going to see, he would see my aurora, pitch black, red circles around it, my master could also see Aurora's, he could walk my dreams, he could heal me, and then there were the shadow kissed things we discovered.
My mom was going to be at court for this, I knew it, she never knew what happened to me, I was dealing with a dangerous Moroi, that is why only 3, I knew 4 or 5, but they wanted to be on the safe side and only be 3.
The worst part of this whole deal, was I couldn't talk to any of them, not Eddie, or Mia, Adrian, Lissa, Dimitri, or even Christian. None of them, I knew Dimitri wouldn't want to speak to me anyway, but it hurt that I would be the one leaving them in the dark.
Dimitri, the name put a lump in my throat, my lover, my life, gone and I wasn't allowed to touch him, I wouldn't want to either, he was a Strigoi for half a year, I was one for a whole year, I had so much death on my hand it hurt to sleep, I wronged so many people, I hurt many more, I disliked myself. Dimitri had a hard time being brought back to life, but I had an even harder, I was wronged so much it hurt, and worse than all that, they wouldn't be able to know what I went through.
I was alone in this through and through.