Chapter 1
Holdin' Her
Andy's POV
It was just another typical Saturday night for me. I have been coming into this hole-in-the-wall bar for a long time and drinking myself into oblivion. I usually find myself leaving with some young woman I have picked up. I've waken up in places I couldn't remember who's lying next to me or even how I got there. That's hard to believe but that's how I used to roll, but once I met Sharon all of that changed.
I had first laid eyes on her when she walked into the bar looking for her jackass of a husband usually by the time she would come in he would usually be gone. From the first time I saw her she stole my heart, a few years later she had came in and taken over Major Crimes. At first she wasn't well received but after sometime and her proving herself everyone began to trust and respect her. We started out as friends but both of us couldn't fight the fact that we were falling for each other. Every day I spent around her or with her it just felt natural. For the first time since my ex-wife, I was finding myself falling head-over-heels in love with someone.
Back in the early days it wasn't uncommon for me to be found in a bar with a drink in my hand or walking out drunk with someone I had just met. After a while the booze and young women weren't really working for me anymore. I came to that realization one night when the alcohol wasn't dulling the pain. It used to help me feel numb, like I wasn't a complete failure. Drinking had always been something I was good at. Everyone liked a drunk Andy Flynn, I realized I was even lousy at that now. It was then I began to notice the toll it was taking on my job but mostly the toll my drinking was taking on my kids and their mother, who by that point was my ex-wife. I didn't want to lose my job and I damn sure didn't want to lose my kids, I barely saw them as it is. I had already lost my wife, there was no fixing that. With my ex it was much different, we didn't have the connection that I have with Sharon.
When I'm holdin' her it's like peace on earth a place time stands still where love's the only thing. Yes, that's what I feel when she's in my arms, no matter where we are well I am right at home when I'm holdin' her. Even as I sit here she is curled up on the couch with her head on my shoulder watching a movie. Sharon is the most amazing woman I have ever met she makes me want to be a better man. She believes in me when I don't believe in myself. I still think back on my conversation with Rusty earlier today. He seemed so surprised when I told him I'm still an alcoholic but I have found with Sharon that doesn't matter. She knows all about my past but yet, I am so blessed that I have this beautiful lady in my life and that she loves me.