Summary: He's gone. He tripped. Just like that. And now, I'm stuck here. Wondering. I'm all alone, here. And I don't know what to do. Very angsty, one-shot, Tonks-centric
Disclaimer: …not mine.
A/N: Okay, so this didn't turn out exactly how I thought… It took me five minutes to write; keep that in mind. Warning: very angsty.
Neglected.
Alone.
Pained.
That's me…
He was my cousin.
Nobody thought about me.
Nobody has remembered long enough about me or my feelings.
Nobody cared enough to comfort me.
He was my blood relative.
He's gone.
Just like that.
He tripped.
Killed by my aunt; his cousin.
Nobody cared enough to realise that I was hurting as well.
…Because I am.
He was my family. I talked to him. He talked to me. We got along great together, me and him. We were only five years apart, you know, and were family outcasts together, in a way.
He was my friend. My confidant. I loved him like a brother.
But now, he's gone.
Just like that.
He tripped.
Killed. Instantly.
He was always challenging my Aunt Bella, always determined to up the stakes as life got more dangerous.
But this time… this time, he went too far.
Because now… now, he's gone.
And he's not coming back.
Ever.
He fell past the veil.
For life.
And nobody realises that I, too, hurt.
Everyone is hurting, but I am as well.
I'm not as tough as everyone thinks.
…Really, I'm not.
I just want to go home, and cuddle up in his arms, have him tell me it's all okay.
But it's not.
It won't ever be.
Because Sirius isn't here anymore.
He's dead.
He can't comfort me when he's the one who left me.
I sigh. Life's so complicated, now.
Nobody cares about me, now that he's gone.
Nobody notices me, now that he's gone.
Nobody realises I loved him, too, now that he's gone.
But he is.
And I have to realise, nobody ever even notices I'm here, any more. Not when I make a mess in the kitchen. Not when I trip in the entry hall and set off my great-aunt's portrait. Not when I scream into my pillow as hard as I possibly can as the pain and guilt washes over me once more.
Because nobody notices.
Nobody cares.
And now… now he's gone.
He tripped.
Just like that.
And now, I'm stuck here.
Wondering.
Wondering what's going to happen to me.
What's going on in the real world?
I'm living in an alternate reality, now.
I'm all alone, here.
And I don't know what to do.
Whatever you thought… you thought wrong.
And look who's laughing now.
Nobody, that's who.
I'm invisible. …Yes, even with purple hair, I'm invisible.
And nobody cares anymore.
Because I'm not noticed, anymore.
I'm hurting inside, too, you know. And since he's not there to save me, I'm left as I am. I'm hurting inside, too. And gosh, does it hurt so bad…
I'm hurting inside.
I always will.
Forever.
I'll always be hurting, inside… always.
A/N: Okay, so this didn't turn out exactly how I thought… This is dedicated to Ali, who helped me with some comments and title.