Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts. If I did, well, it's not exactly appropriate enough to discuss.
A/N: Yeah, I know, I know. I still haven't updated my other fic, but I wanted to post this otherwise it would rot and never surface. I have big plans for this fic. BIG plans. I dream about this at night. I breathe this. It's my very being! Lol Not really, but I really like my idea for this fic and couldn't wait to post this chapter. [12/30/2005]
Fade to Black
Chapter One: Something More
Nothing. That's all I saw and all that I felt. Nothing. It hurt so much. How could nothing feel as though it were tearing at your heart, mind, your very being? I wanted it to end. Everything was collapsing in on me and I can't stop it. I can't do a thing but beg, cry, rip at the skin that was holding me in—holding me prisoner within myself. I ripped at my hair, wishing only to tear it all from my head and find something within myself. It hurt so much. I wanted something more than this darkness left within me that I can't find my way through. I wanted more, but I couldn't have more. This was it. Nothing. That's all I could have.
I fell to the floor. My knees slammed onto the hard stone floor and sent a wave of pain through my body and I reveled at the shock. It was something more. It wasn't the simple nothingness that I couldn't break through. I wanted to cry, to scream out in fury and breakdown, but I couldn't. Nothing. I could do nothing but sit there on the icy floor with pieces of my hair in my hands and stare blankly at everything around me. Pain. I could feel pain. Frustration. I could feel it, but I couldn't release it. I wanted so badly to be more than nothing. I was nothing. I wanted so much, but could have so little. I wanted back what had been stolen from me. I wanted my life, my body, and my memories. I wanted my heart.