TITLE- Only Human

AUTHOR- MonikaLou

AUTHORS NOTES- Well, I was bored. It was a lazy Sunday Arvo, and I had nothing to do. And I was kinda upset about stuff. So this little thing popped into my head. I have no idea where it came from, and why I just wrote how I felt. And so this thing became a little thing!!! I have no idea what it is!!! Please, if you have time, review. Don't feel any pressure, but I would like to know if it was any good!

I knew that you hated it,

Hated every conversation that you didn't have an answer to.

Those conversations that left me confused,

Because there was nothing that you could say to make me better.

To make me happy.

Those were the conversations where you had nothing to say,

And let's face it,

That just isn't right,

You always had something to say back to me to make me whole again,

Always.

I know that you shunned all those moments that made you feel human,

You had it drilled into your brain since you were four.

You weren't allowed to show emotion,

Because real men don't cry.

It's just the way it had always been.

I'm sorry that you never got to enjoy being young.

And sometimes I'm sorry that I even exist.

I can't believe that you don't hate me,

When my very existence denied you of everything.

I was the reason that your mum died.

You always told me to enjoy myself,

That I would only be young once.

And now as I remember those times,

All I see is your eyes screaming that pain that you harbored,

But back then I was to young too understand.

Those times that you cleaned me up or comforted me,

When I was distraught or hurt,

I'm sorry for them too,

Because you shouldn't of had too,

You were only 4 years older than me.

Those jobs were supposed to be for our father,

The very father that you idolized.

I don't know why you did,

He treated us like soldiers,

And we were soldiers too young for battle.

That time we were only five and nine,

When you gave up the last lucky charms for me,

You didn't have to,

But you did.

You always did.

And these hunts we went on,

All those times you got hurt when you were protecting me,

Those were the reasons I left,

Not to hurt you,

But to stop you from getting hurt.

I'm sorry if you hated me,

But I'm glad that you came back.

Even if I did not welcome you as I should have,

I was missing you more each day.

Your presence made me whole again.

So I just want you to know,

That please do not tell yourself to die for me,

Because you think that is supposed to be your job.

Because it's not.
If you die for me,

Who would look after me, to pick up the pieces?

If you died because of me,

You pretty much killed me.

How am I supposed to go on,

To survive,

If I have to go on without you?

If you died protecting me,

You will have failed your only job.

You job was to help me,

To guide me,

And how could you possibly do it if you're dead?

Please forgive me.

I should not have treated you so badly through all these times.

Sometimes I forget all the things that you gave for me.
Sacrificed for me.

Remember I am only human.

So don't heap all these things on yourself,

Don't blame yourself,

Don't risk yourself for me,

Because you bleed as easily as me.

You are only human.

We are both human.

The only humans in the world,

Fighting the forces of evil,

That nobody knows exists.

We are the only human soldiers in the war against hell.

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