Disclaimer: This is an English translation to the fanfiction one-shot entitled Medicine, written by J. . This story does not belong to me; I simply attempted to translate it so that more people could read it. The characters belong to the amazing Takanaga Hinako-sensei.
I can't remember exactly when the hallucinations began to torture me. The furthest I can remember is about the time when, engulfed in flames, I was hugging myself on the floor, trying by all means to silence the screams I heard around me. I was in the middle of a fire, but only I could see it. These cries deafened me. Desperate, I also began to shout, to cry, pleading them to stop.
It was over in an instant, mentally reduced to ashes, because of senpai. He found me, came in by force into my department, hugged me and said everything would be fine, I would be fine. He wiped my tears and let me hug his chest like a child. I did not let go until sleep overcame me.
I did not need more than the sound of his voice for all that hell to vanish completely. But he insisted. He said I should see a professional, someone capable of helping me get rid of those horrible images that gradually took over my mind. I did not see the necessity, and it was my choice. Whenever he was with me, nothing bad could happen. No nightmare could catch me. No damage to my psyche would manifest itself. I just needed to take his hand. I just needed to hear his voice, even in the form of an insult.
But the hallucinations became worse with every passing day, and senpai continued to urge me. Surely I was trapped in some sort of trauma and any doctor would be able to fix me in an instant, he said. Finally I gave in, just because he asked; because it was senpai who asked. I went to talk to a doctor.
He said that what happened to me was something known as PTSD, something I experienced due to the terrible accident where senpai had died when I was still studying in college.
He gave me some pills and the hallucinations disappeared. Before I knew it, senpai was gone along with them.
A/N: *tears* Such a short yet powerful story. It's so sad! I couldn't stop crying when I first read it. My heart goes out to you, Morinaga.
Thanks for reading! Hope you enjoyed it as much as I did.