Max
Song: Save the Hero by Beyonce
Category: Hurt/Comfort/Angst
~~~~I HIGHLY suggest you listen to the song while reading this Song-Fic.~~~~
I lay alone awake at night
Sorrow fills my eyes
I can't sleep. Jeb had died to prove to me that he loved me and was always on my side. To save my life. And to help save the world.
But I'm not strong enough to cry
Despite of my disguise
Tears are starting to form, but I can't cry. Not now. Everyone thinks I am The Strong, Invincible Maximum Ride. I'm not. I'm not strong- not invincible. I'm just a normal teenage girl. Well, as normal as I can be.
I'm left with no shoulder
But everybody wants to lean on me.
Everyone is dealing with the death of Jeb in different ways. All of them having to do with me helping them. I don't want them to be guilty, so I go out of my way to make sure they don't see me when my sadness gets out of control. I even put mind blocks up so Angel doesn't have to feel my pain. She can't even tell. They all are in their own worlds, not paying attention to the one that probably needs help the most.
I guess I'm their soldier.
Well, who's gonna be mine
They aren't the only ones dealing with this though. I am too. And I have it even worse because he was my dad. I will always remember his last words: 'I love you Max and I would do anything for you. I hope you forgive me for all the bad things I have done.'
**
Who's there to save the hero
Who's going to save me in my time of need?
When she's left all alone
And she's crying out for help.
You might not be able to tell when you take a quick glance at me, but I am suffering. Majorly. If you take a second look, you might be able to tell how I am feeling though my stiff movements. Or maybe how I can't seem to eat. Or the way I talk a maximum of ten words a day...
Who's there to save the hero
Who's there to save the girl…
After she saves the world
After she saves the world.
Yeah, I saved the world after Jeb died. Yippee for me. It seems that my anger over Jeb's death gave me that extra push I needed. I shouldn't have needed it. I should have been able to save the world without someone dying. It's all my fault. I should have been strong. But, I wasn't. And I'm not. I need someone to save me.
**
I bottle all my hurt inside,
I guess I'm living a lie.
The Flock seems to believe in my fake smiles and fake reassurances that I am okay. I have to keep it hidden. They can't see my hurt, my pain. It would only bring them down more. They don't need that.
Inside my mind each day I die
I am dying. Nobody knows because it isn't in a physical sense. And since it isn't physical, they can't see the pain even though it's there. Oh, boy- is it there.
What can bring me back to life?
A simple word, a gesture
Someone to say you're beautiful
I need to be told that I am not a murderer. I need someone to comfort me for a change. I need someone to say I am beautiful on the inside, not full of evil. I didn't want to kill my own father, but- somehow- I did. Jeb, why did you have to through yourself at the bomb as it was about to explode?
Why?
Come find this buried treasure
Rainbows lead to a pot of gold.
I am a good person. At least, that's what Jeb had told me awhile back. Oh, Jeb… If only you knew the monster- the murderer- that killed you and lives inside me.
**
Who's there to save the hero
Jeb, why did you have to go? If you hadn't gone and sacrificed yourself, you would have been alive!
You idiot!
When she's left all alone
And she's crying out for help
I am alone. Nobody knows the level of pain, hurt, anger, and sadness I am holding inside. Nobody knows…
Who's there to save the hero
Who's there to save the girl
After she saves the world…
After she saves the world.
Even The Maximum Ride needs a hero to come around once in a while. Usually the Flock helps me in their own unique ways, but they aren't this time. This time when I need them the most.
**
I've given too much of myself
And now it's driving me crazy
I can't take it anymore! Each time the Flock cried, I die a little more inside. I listen to their problems. I assure them that everything is going to be all right. I am lying. Everything's not all right. It won't ever be. And it's all because my dad had to sacrifice himself for me. Why did I have to be the Savior of the World?! Why me? This job has driven me insane! I can't take it anymore!
(I'm crying out for help?)
Sometimes I wish someone would
Just come here and save me…
Save me from myself
Whenever I blamed myself for something, someone would comfort me and tell me I am wrong- that I didn't do anything. Nobody's here now. I did do something. I killed my dad. I am so sorry Jeb!
**
Who's there to save the hero
When she's left all alone
And she's crying out for help
I can not take it! I screamed out in frustration, anger, and sadness, my screams echoing throughout the empty woods. Some would say that's a call for help. I don't. I don't need any help. Right?
I don't know. I just don't damn know anymore.
Who's there to save the hero
Who's there to save the girl
I heard wings beating somewhere near. I don't care anymore. I just stayed where I was: underneath tree branches while staring at the ground, but not really seeing anything. And definitely not crying. No- I am not strong enough for that.
After she saves the world…
After she saves the world.
I felt warm arms wrap around me and lift me up and fold me into their owner's warm chest. I looked up, finally snapping out of my reverie and looked into deep, dark, caring, and worried eyes. With eleven words, I buried my head into the crook of his neck and bawled my eyes out.
"It's okay, Max. I am here. I will always be here."
I can survive this. Fang is my hero. He has come to save me. He will always come to save me.
Okay, so I know that was extremely sad and everything, but this song has always reminded me of the MR books. So, I finally decided to write about it.
Did you find the hidden message? (I'll give you a hint: It's underlined)
Review to let me know if you think I should do this Song-Fic in Fang's POV. I want to, but… I need to know if you reviewers want it written or not!
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~Mo~