Best Friends with Benefits Author: Bunnie Rated: G Page: 1 I sit here in study hall thinking about the past seven months. I'm completely heart broken over the only person I've ever, truly loved. No. I still love her. I always have, and always will. She, however, does not reciprocate my feelings. You're probably wondering why, so I need to go back to the day it started. October eleventh, at approximately 5:54 in the morning. You're now thinking I'm obsessed. Well, I'm not. The reason I know this date and time so well, is because it was when I got my first kiss. My first real kiss. With someone outside of my family. With another girl. My best friend, even. Now that I think about it, I should probably go back to when we first met. We met in the fifth grade. We were in an advanced placement class that you had to test to be in. It was a fourth-fifth split, and I had been in the class in fourth grade as well. I had no friends until the end of October, and knew what it meant to be lonely. We became friends, and she attached to me and only one other person. We ended up going to rival schools, but stayed close. We were constantly on the phone with each other. She's come to my concerts, and I'd go her track meets. We were good friends, and things were great. In middle school, I'd be depressed a lot and I'd do things to relieve some stress and tension. It's cut myself. At least, try to. My worst fear is being in any kind, mental, physical, or emotional. That's why I didn't get really far with that. The last time I did that, I got about a nine- centimeter long paper cut. I guess it's good that I have a low pain tolerance. Then I started over-dosing. I don't know why. It slowly took effect, and didn't really do anything, though. Probably the fact that I knew it was doing something, and I wasn't feeling the pain of it is what did it. The summer after eighth grade is when I started over-dosing. That's the same summer that the two of us got close over the computer. We'd always talk in chats because I was away, visiting relatives, and it was long distance. This is also the same summer that we became best friends. In our freshman year of high school, we had one class together. That didn't stop us from being with each other constantly, though. The week of October 11th, she spent that entire week with me, except Monday night and Tuesday morning. She came over the previous Sunday and stayed with me. We went to school together in the morning, and came home together in the evening. Then, on Thursday, October 11th, at approximately 5:54 in the morning, our relationship changed.