Author's Notes: σ(≧ε≦ｏ) I just suddenly started writing this story a few hours ago when I was having insomnia because, I was too scared to go to sleep. I'm still wide awake and scared to go to sleep but anyways... Explanations! Esplanations!
Gaara and Rasa (Fifth Kazekage) are not Father/Son on this AU story. They're brothers.
What else? Oh yeah, I was actually doing such a good job at keeping Gaara in character at first but then...
(๑´╹‸╹`๑) It all went down the hill at some point. But well, he does kinda went from an evil schizophrenic/psychopath/bi-polar to a pacifist/goody two-shoes. So yeah, please don't mind his sudden OOC.
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Hmm, anything else? I guess not. Oh yeah... No one is under age. Here are the Age charts.
~ヾ(＾∇＾) ᴀɢᴇ ᴄʜᴀʀᴛ
ɢᴀᴀʀᴀ - 21
ᴍɪɴᴀᴛᴏ - 24
ᴋᴀʀᴜʀᴀ - 27
ʀᴀsᴀ - 29
"But Rasa..."
"Quit talking nonsense Minato!" Yelled an annoyed auburn haired man.
"I already told you that I'm being serious!"
"You expect me to believe that after so many years of being friends. It turns out that you've been in love with me!?" He shook his head. "I think reading Tales of a Gutsy Ninja has had a bad influence on you."
"Don't say things like that... Please... I'm... not kidding around." He said as he tried to make his friend understand that he was being serious.
"Fine." The other man said while sighing with irritation. "Alright, lets pretend that this was the case. That for one reason or another, you'd be in love with me like you said... now answer this for me... What would you want me to do about it?" He asked him in a tired voice.
"Love me back?" The blond answered with a happy smile on his face.
Rasa stayed frozen. It really looked like his friend didn't know what love meant. He felt a bit of pity for him. "Minato..." He walked closer to him and put both hands on his shoulders. "I'm sorry Minato. You know that I'm going to marry Karura in a few weeks. What you're asking of me is impossible." He told him in a serious voice.
"IT'S NOT!" He hated knowing the fact that he was soon going to lose his first love forever. He couldn't just give up without at least trying. "Just forget about that woman!"
"You don't get it, do you?" He let go of him and turned his back to him. "I can't leave her."
"But why!?" He hugged him tightly from behind. "I love you Rasa." He rested his chin on his friend's neck.
"Don't say anything else Minato." He hated what he was about to say because, he hated hurting his best friend. "The love that you say you feel towards me... That desperation of wanting to be right next to the person you love... That's the same way I feel about Karura..."
These last few words left him cold. He released his hold on him little by little.
"I'm really sorry about this. I'm sorry for not being able to reciprocate your feelings but, I don't want to lie to you or to myself either... You understand that, right?"
Minato was silent. The entire room was left in an uncomfortable silence.
"Well, I think it's better for me to... just go ahead... and leave." He said with an uncomfortable look on his usually stern looking face and headed for the door. "I really am sorry Minato." He closed the door and disappeared behind it.
The blond's eyes turned sad. Tears started falling down his face. He was completely crushed. He had waited for such a long time to tell Rasa all this and he had treated him this way. Never in his life had he felt so humiliated and ashamed.
Several months later...
A young man with green eyes was seated right in front of him.
"So you're Rasa's younger brother and the boy who I'll be tutoring?"
"Yes." The boy answered coldly. "My name is Sabaku no Gaara."
"I'm sure that we'll become friends right away, don't you?" He asked with a nervous laugh.
"I wouldn't count on it." He listlessly answered.
"How is your brother?" He hated knowing the answer but he just had to ask.
"Rasa?" He made a pause. "He's doing well. He says hi and he told me to send his apologies." The redhead scowled. "Did something bad happen between him and you?"
"I'd rather not talk about it." He answered with a sad look on his face.
"I was only trying to keep the conversation going... I honestly couldn't care any less about you or him. But ever since Rasa found out that my sister-in-law was pregnant he..."
"What did you just say!?" The older man interrupted him.
"I guess I forgot to give you the big news: I'll be an uncle very soon. Although, I'm still too young and..." He kept on complaining and scowling, while the blond was left astounded and lost in his own thoughts.
"Karura is pregnant..." A few tears threatened to escape from his eyes and the younger male took quick notice of this.
"Why the hell are you making that kind of face, Namikaze?" The man wasn't answering. So he got up and snapped his fingers right in front of his face but, didn't receive any response. He then switched to slapping him. Finally the older male turned his eyes on him.
"You're so irritating. I hate it when people suddenly start ignoring me. I don't care if you're the same age as my big brother. You look like a stupid prepubescent to me."
"But Gaara... I'm already 24 years old... Anyways, that's not the point here. You can't just slap your seniors like that! I'm older than you and you need to treat me with respect and another thing is that mmmh..." The younger boy interrupted him with a forceful kiss. Minato was scared and tried to get him off of him but, the redhead was stronger than he looked. He stopped fighting and let go. Gaara couldn't get enough of Minato's lips. Those pink lips were delicious. He breathed in that small pleasure that his soon to be tutor offered him.
He stopped short, leaving the older man panting and blushing. He looked at him in surprise.
"I just had to shut you up somehow." He went back to his spot. "I really don't even know why I did that." He turned his face the other way to hide the pink tinge in his cheeks.
Minato stared at him strangely. Instead of feeling annoyed he became sad because, he always wanted his first kiss to be special. The redhead asked him the same question again.
"Why'd you make that pathetic face earlier, Namikaze?"
"Aww, Gaara. Are you actually worried about me?" He smiled at him.
"So what if I am?" He yelled at a surprised blond. Minato's eyes widened and he stared at him.
"I... I've known you for a very long time now. Since you started hanging out with Rasa and you've always been nice to me... Even when everyone is afraid of me. That's why, ever since back then... I've always admired you, but I was still too young... Now I've come of age and that's why I suggested to Rasa into making you my tutor and helping me get into the university I want... I... I... love you Minato-sensei."
"What!? What did you just say!?" The blond was more than taken by surprise.
"I'm not trying to force you into liking me right now. I only want you to give me a chance to show you that..."
"I'm sorry but I don't want to hear this!" He didn't let him finish talking and ran to his room.
"But Minato..."
"I don't want to hear it!" Gaara was forcefully pulling on him but, Minato managed to escape his grip and locked himself in his room.
"Open up!" The younger boy yelled as he loudly banged on the door. "Everything I've said is true!"
"Please stop!" The older man screamed. "Don't say that... don't... don't do it..." He said in a whisper. Remembering the moment when he had confessed his love to Rasa, but, after such a long time since then... The tears still kept on falling down like if it was happening now. He sobbed devastated; his love was gone forever the minute he had procreated a child with his wife. There was no hope left. He was tired, tired of feeling so much love for one person that would never fall for him. For someone who was already starting to form a family far away from him. He wiped his tears and walked to his bed. He felt miserable and only wanted to rest a bit..
He finally ended up falling into a deep sleep. After spending the entire night crying. The next morning he woke up a bit more calmed down but, not resigned. He went to the kitchen and served himself a little bit of strawberry juice. He made his way to the couch on the living room and sat down right next to a giant stuffed fox.
'I love you Minato-sensei...' Those words came floating right back into his head. "That little boy, I wonder what's gotten into that poor kid to make him suddenly blurt out something like that?" He took a sip from his strawberry juice filled glass. "But then again..." He remembered that passionate kiss he received. He remembered that he made him suffer with the ungrateful news his brother had sent him. Right now he wanted to get revenge on him so bad that he would even be willing enough to tear off his clothes and ride him like a wild bronco without giving him a breather. He simply wanted the man that shared the same blood as the love of his life to feel the same pain he was feeling at this exact moment; He felt guilty, because even if he hadn't listened to him. Gaara still confessed to him and even told him that he loved him. But his dumb self basically threw Gaara out of his house. "Oh man, Kurama-san what should I do now?" He said as he looked at his orange fox plushie. "I don't know why I'm worrying. Maybe it was just a little crush that he probably already forgot about. That's for the best. Lets hope he understands that I'm not interested in him." He put the glass of juice on the small table right in front of him and pulled out his favorite book. Reading will take his mind off things for a little while.
A few minutes later...
"I'd better go and make sure that he's alright." He grabbed his car keys and went outside.
As he drove without a set direction because, he honestly had no idea where the redhead could be. He ran into him by pure luck. Gaara was in a local Starbucks. He was seated on a table with another boy, who was around his age. They looked to be in the middle of a friendly chat.
"What a relief! He looks to be in perfect shape." He said while he let out a sigh in relief. "I don't know why I even panicked like that. He's a reliable little guy that can take care of himself."
When Gaara spotted the blond man stepping out of the car he decided to play with him a bit.
"Well, well. Look who's back." He said while sending Minato a smirk. The blond became surprised when he heard him talk to him. "What a strange coincidence bumping into each other, blondie."
"Gaara..." He walked up to him and shook his hand. He couldn't stop the blush that was forming in his face. "Oh... umm... don't mind me. You can keep on having a nice chat with your friend. I'm just here because... I'm... umm, waiting for someone."
This caused the younger boy to become jealous.
"Waiting for someone?"
"Ye...yes. I agreed to meet a nice friend of mine. I'm planning on having a lot of fun with her. We're going to go back to my house and play some games. Maybe watch a couple of movies. Just have a nice time with he..." A hard punch sent him falling to the ground. He blinked in confusion at the younger boy. Never in his life had someone put a hand on him.
"Why would you do that!?" He asked in astonishment. His cheek was beet red after the punch. The redhead's eyes were wide opened. He had acted from instinct. He didn't know what to say. He ran out of the place.
"Wait Gaara!" He got in the car and started chasing after him. The redhead finally went to a back alley that appeared to have no exit. The older man took advantage of this and stepped out of the car quickly.
"I finally caught up to you." He walked up to him.
"No... Get away." He walked backwards until his back hit the wall.
"Relax, I just want to talk."
Minato was right in front of him and only ruffled his hair. When Gaara realized that he wasn't going to hit him he opened his closed eyes and looked at him.
"Can you please tell me what you were thinking when you punched me like that?" He asked him.
"I didn't think before I acted." He looked at the floor. "Those things you said really pissed me off. Like I already told you yesterday I... love you."
"Are you sure you're not confusing love and admiration?" Minato said as he started blushing.
"What I'm saying is true! I have never told anyone this... don't take it too lightly!"
"You really..." He sighed. "Oh well... we'll start your classes today." He walked to this car.
Gaara was feeling a bit happier now. He hadn't told him what he felt but, the fact that he had agreed to help him was a huge step for him. Even if seducing Minato Namikaze would be almost impossible, because he still thought of him as a 'little boy' and 'my best friend's little brother'.
"You're really going to help me?" He asked with an eager voice.
"Don't start imagining things, please. I'm only doing it for Rasa." That much was true. He felt like it was an obligation, doing good deeds for his unattainable love. Even if it was just to feel a bit close to him. To at least make the other man feel gratitude instead of love. To him that was more than sufficient.
"You sure like my big brother, don't you? I've noticed that..."
Minato gulped.
"Listen kid." He came closer to him and frowned. "If you want me to teach you then please don't interfere in my personal life. Okay?"
The younger male became doubtful. "Fine." He said after a few seconds.
The ride to Minato's apartment was dead silent. Neither of them talked. They were both too submerged in their own thoughts.
Several weeks later...
"I can't believe you did it! You're incredible! You understand everything... I feel like a proud parent. Hahaha!"
"It's not like you had to teach me that many things. I've always been highly intelligent. So I don't see how you can be this surprised. I mean, I'm sure that any other tutor would've been able to teach me."
"Do you always have to be such a big meanie Gaara-kun?"
"I'm only telling the truth." He answered while taking a sip from his black coffee. "But... thank you for your praises." He got off his seat. "You did a good job as a tutor."
Gaara felt a warm hand stroking his hair. He was happy, he had managed to get accepted to the university that he's always wanted to go to and he was next to the owner of his heart. Even if, of course, their relationship hadn't progressed much. But oh well, no one would be able to take away the joy he felt deep inside at this moment.
"We should celebrate, don't you think so?" The blond said enthusiastically following Gaara into the living room.
"Celebrate?" He was left pondering deep in thought. "I'm not really into parties but, it's been such a long time since I relaxed and enjoyed myself. I was studying non-stop for weeks. So I guess it wouldn't be all that bad."
"It's settled then. Yay! It'll be so much fun." Minato cheerfully commented.
Gaara picked up the phone. "I'll let Rasa know." He dialed the numbers to his brother's cellphone. "I know he will be proud."
Minato found himself feeling ecstatic in the middle of the living room. He couldn't do anything about it. It was obvious that his brother had to know about it and it was about time he confronted him. He still didn't know what he would feel when he would see him but, surely he couldn't keep on loving him anymore.
Gaara hung up the phone.
"Rasa is okay on us meeting but, he told me that it's not necessary for us to go out. His wife would love to cook dinner for us. Sounds perfect, huh?" The younger man appeared to not notice the sad look on Minato's face.
"I think I'll pass this time." He didn't want to face the reality.
"But only a moment ago you were all in favor of the idea." The redhead was stunned at the way the other man immediately changed his opinion.
"I just remembered that I have some errands I need to do."
"But... but I really want you to be there."
"I really am sorry but, I just can't. Please forgive me."
"Forget about it." He suddenly glared at him. "I'll just have to go alone."
Minato saw him leave with a very angry look on his face. It annoyed him just thinking about the scene. "A friendly dinner with Rasa's happy family... Ha!" He mocked. "Not even if Gaara threatened to beat me up would I go to that house." He walked up the stairs towards his bedroom. He laid down on his bed and closed his eyes. He wanted to think for a bit... That's strange. Why didn't he feel that lump in his throat while thinking about Rasa like before? Honestly, he was surprised at being invited to his house but... he didn't feel as afflicted as he should. Could his love for him have decreased? "That'll never happen..." Gaara's glaring face suddenly popped into his mind. He felt a bit bad about having soured the redhead's mood. He felt how his heart was in pain. "I must be losing my mind." 'But I really want you to be there' He opened his eyes suddenly. "I really don't know how he was able to make me change my mind just like that. What am I getting myself into?" He got out of bed and got dressed to go to Rasa's house.