Well, i want to know what you think. it is my first story and I'm a little nervous. i don't have a beta so please excuse the grammar errors or the spelling ones. i hope that you are still able to read it despite the mistakes.

Leah is a little bitchy in this and it sort of jumps ahead after certain events or conversations the whole story won't be like that but a beginning has to start somewhere right?

Disclaimer: All Rights belong to Stephanie Meyer, and in case you haven't noticed. I'm NOT her...so please enjoy. :)

Sam was gone; he had been gone for about two weeks. I wasn't sure what to make of it I didn't really know how to handle it. I didn't even want to, Sam and I had been dating for three years so it was a bit surprising that he would just up and leave for any amount of time without telling me at all. At first I was furious and part of me still was but I knew that Sam was just like that, if he needed to blow off steam then he had a right to do so without me pestering him. It didn't help that we had been fighting the day that he left. It was a surprisingly warm day at la push when he finally came back. My first instinct was to run to him. Considering the way things were left between us I didn't think it was a good idea. I knew that he would come to me when he was ready. He had gotten taller and his muscles became more defined his hair which had once been as long as Billy's was now cut close to his head. I wasn't so sure I was okay with the new look but it would grow on me as I knew that it would. That was three weeks ago though, our relationship was a little strained to say the least but we were making it work.

"Leah!" I heard her scream before I saw her face. It was Emily, my best friend and cousin. She was like a breath of fresh air with all the testosterone pumping in la push all the time.

"Emily!" I grabbed her in a huge hug after she turned the corner from the kitchen to the living room. "What are you doing here?" it wasn't that I was upset about her arrival it was more the fact that she normally called before she came for a visit. It wasn't a really long trip but it was long enough to warrant a heads up.

"I wanted to surprise you, your mom told me that Sam left and that your relationship hadn't been what it used to be. I thought I could come up and we could have a girl's night." she wore a huge smile on her Bronzed face. The thought was sweet but…

"I have plans, with Sam actually. We were going to watch movies and hang out tonight." it had taken a while to get him to want to spend alone time with me. He had always been so distant but still loving, at least for the most part.

"Oh, well I can go hang with the blacks I hear that Rachel came home last week. And you can enjoy your date." her tone was light despite the mock frown on her face. She would have been very convincing if the frown wasn't twitching as bad as it was.

"Well, the date isn't until tonight. I'm sure Sam would like to see you, it's been what 5 months since your last visit and if I recall correctly we have a game to finish." I was of course referring to capture the flag that sam, Jacob, Emily and I had started last time she was here. It was out of sheer boredom at first but then the Jacob accused Sam and me of cheating so they demanded a rematch.

"Well call them up, if they aren't to busy. I would love the chance to prove that you only won because you cheated."

"Alright give me a minute." I ran to the back of the house into my bedroom to get my cell phone. It had been a present from mom for 'good' grades. More like a bribery to stay out of any sort of trouble. Fine with me though, any reason to 'earn' a phone is a good reason. "Hey Sam?"

"What's up lee-lee?" there was a sigh on his end. I was worried for a minute that he had better things to do but I let that notion go seeing as he told me he had the day off from the shop today.

"Well, Emily came to town and she is still insisting that we cheated so I figured you would want to come prove her wrong."

"Oh? And she is convinced that we won't win again?" he asked, I was glad to hear a teasing tone in his voice. It had been a while since he joked around.

"Well that is what she said. I'm inclined to believe that she and Jacob are just sore losers."

"Call Jake and I'll meet you all on the beach." there was a playful growl in his voice and it sent tingles up my spine.

"Emily?" I shouted poking my head out the door. "Can you give me a ride to Jake's?"

"Yeah."

"Oh and Sam said your on." shrugging my jacket on I made my way to the living room where Emily stood with a pensive look on her face. "What's wrong?"

"I'm just deciding how we should gloat when we win. Do you think this is to much?" she began dancing around in my face. "We won we rock you lost you suck"

"Hmm. Come up with that on your own did you? I suppose it has a nice ring to it if your goal was to channel your inner 8 year old." I smiled.

"Bet an 8 year old could beat you." she said walking out the door. "Cheating doesn't take a lot of skill."

"And apparently loosing does." I watched her grumble as she got in her car, Emily was my older cousin but when it came to a battle of wits I always won. I was sarcastic by nature she was to straight and narrow to bend the meaning of her words but just because she couldn't do it doesn't mean she was clueless because she could read the meaning behind every double meaning phrase I throw at her. That also meant that I had the last word most of the time.

On the way to the black house I called Jacob to let him know, I was to excited to have to wait for him to get ready. Even though it only took him a minute to throw on a pair of shorts and a t-shirt I mean I have never seen that boy shower. He claims he does so before bed but I guess being a girl I don't see how he can settle for one shower a day.

"Sup Leah." Jacob said pounding my fist as I got out of the car. "super nanny." he addressed Emily, when he was little Rachel would have to watch Jacob but not really having the nurturing touch she always called on Emily hence the title that sort of stuck with her. She hated it of course because it had been years since she had to baby-sit Jacob but she let it slide like so much else. "So you're ready to grant us a rematch?"

"Of course we are nothing if not fair." I rolled my eyes at the fact that even he insisted that Sam and I cheated. It wasn't a long walk from Jake's to the beach so we decided to walk.

"Good I'm your going down."

"Eh." I shrugged my shoulders giving of the vibe that it was no big deal. "You would know the feeling right? I mean you have lost every game of capture the flag to Sam and me."

"Oh right a whole 5 games."

"Five games more than you have won."

"You cheat."

"And you loose so you should stop pouting and think of a better hiding spot than under a rock." I said as we finally came to the bottom of the hill. I sat on the ground and tightened my shoe laces, Jake stretched and Emily Pulled up her hair. We only had to wait 10 minutes before Sam appeared on the top of the rocks looking down on us.

"So I hear that you want a rematch?" he was full out smiling something that he only did every so often as of late.

"Can you believe it?" I chimed.

"Well, since we are being nice enough to grant you a rematch we should get a favor in return."

"What like a bet?" came Jake's oh so astute assumption.

"No no, your parent would kill me if they found out I had you gambling but let's just say a favor. What should we ask for Lee Lee?"

"Looser has to say 'they are awesome' every time they hear the other's name."

"That's a good one but you can't tell anyone why your doing it and you have to do it for the weekend." Sam smiled as he walked toward us. "It's good to see you again Emily." he said when he reached us. Emily being a hugger ran and hugged him.

"Do you know what you put my cousin through when you disappeared?" she slapped his chest.

"Yes, I am truly s-" he stopped himself while looking at Emily. There was a look of confusion on his face but then it was unreadable. "I…I have to go."

"Sam you just got here. Emily really wants that rematch." I was confused what had happened in the span of a few minutes that would make Sam want to leave?

"I know and I'm sorry but I have to go, something…something came up." it was a lie, I knew it was a lie he wouldn't have agreed to play had he had plans.

"Whatever. You're still coming to the house tonight right?" I was annoyed but I wasn't going to let him ruin my mood.

"Yes, I'll…I'll be there." he said kissing my head and leaving.

"Well that was weird." Emily turned to face me.

"Well that is Sam since he came back from wherever the hell he was. Always disappearing and canceling at the last minute. Something always comes up."

"Oh honey."

"It's whatever; hey I bet you I can still beat you even playing by myself." I said uncovering the flags that we left buried on the beach.

"You're on."

"I lost the game to those two 8 year olds." I know it was petty to whine but he left me to defend our honor and I absolutely sucked by myself. How in the hell was I suppose to keep two people from finding my flag while I guarded it? I looked up to see Sam leaning on the door frame of the kitchen. "The Spaghetti is almost ready."

"Smells really good." there was that confused look again.

"Is there something wrong? I mean you have been very distant since you came back, I tried giving you space and not bringing it up hoping that you would eventually confide in me what was wrong."

"Leah, can we just…not. We are supposed to be having dinner and watching movies. Why would you bring up something that is more than likely to annoy us both." he went from calm to furious in sixty seconds.

"You're right I'm sorry I just don't like seeing you this way. You look like your being left out. When I try to include you something always comes up." I was met with silence so I brushed by him headed toward the living room. If he didn't want to talk I wasn't going to force him "fine, forget I said anything. The spaghetti is d-"

"I want to break up."

"What?" I turned to look at his face but I knew this wasn't a joke. Something in my was telling me that it was only a matter of time. I had tried so hard and I didn't want to believe that he would leave me. "Why? Was it something I did?"

"I have to go Leah." he scooted passed me out of the kitchen. I followed him with my eyes not believing what I just heard.

"So you're just going to up and leave without even telling what I did wrong? Is there another woman? Did you meet someone when you left me? Did I nag too much, I mean I can back off…Sam please." following him out of the house, it was cold but I didn't care as much as I should. "Why are you walking away from me?" he never answered me, he just kept walking until he was out of sight. How could you just ignore the person that you claimed to have love? When I was alone I could hear the hiccups in my voice, I didn't even know I had started to cry but I wasn't ashamed of the tears. My boyfriend had just dumped me giving me absolutely no reason behind his decision. I had to run back into the house to turn the stove off but even now I wasn't in the mood to eat it. It was Sam's favorite food. I had mad it just for him hoping that he would open up with me. Instead he got angry and left, maybe he just lost his temper. That was probably it, he'll be back and we'll be stronger for this. Taking a loss on tonight's date I cleaned my mess and went to bed, it was early I know but there wasn't much else to do. It was Saturday night and there was still no word at all from Sam. I thought for sure he would be over to apologize for what happened last night. I didn't get mad though because sometimes it took a while to apologize. He probably wouldn't even say the words just make up for it with roses or a picnic or something equally gushy. I let Emily have the reigns for our girls night it wasn't that I was uninterested it was more the fact that focusing all my attention on Sam I would have had her feeling depressed. We talked about it of course but that was pretty much it. Sunday cam and went and there was still no sign of Sam and Emily was leaving that day so I had absolutely nothing to keep me from thinking about him. Well other than homework but I had finished it Sunday morning so that I would be free when Sam came to apologize. When Monday night came I was convinced that he wasn't coming back. He didn't want me anymore. The hope that I had for his return was starting to dwindle and it was then that I finally let myself mope about the loss of a boyfriend of Sam. By Wednesday I was devastated and by Friday I was furious, it had been a week and he still hadn't shown up. I told myself not to waste anytime on him but how could I not, he didn't even tell me why he was leaving me so I have absolutely no clue what I did wrong. I was lying in my bed watching TV when my phone rang. If I had known what I was going to hear on the other end I would have never picked up at all.

"Leah?" she sounded upset as well but I couldn't believe it. "He just showed up here and practically begged me to go on a date with him."

"You told him no right?"

"Of course what kind of family would I be if I started seeing Sam? What he did to you was inexcusable." I know that she was more than annoyed at the fact that I basically accused her of wanting my boyfriend…ex-boyfriend.

"I know I'm just…I'm just mad. How could he leave without a reason and then decide it was okay to ask out my Cousin?"

"Don't be mad Leah, I promise that I won't be with Sam. He's yours he just doesn't realize it yet." she was comforting me but I couldn't calm down. He left me for my cousin. It made sense, he was acting really strange…well stranger than usual when Emily came to visit and then he just disappears.

"Okay Emily," I wasn't in the mood for this anymore. "Thanks for telling me but I can't deal with this right now."

"I understand. I would never hurt you you're my best friend."

"Love you Em."

"You to leah."

Weeks passed and everyday or night Emily would call or text me information on Sam and his current plan to woo her. Some of them were actually quite hilarious. I knew it was wrong to make fun of anyone no matter what they did to you but I couldn't help but laugh at the fact that he honestly believed my best friend would want him after what he did to me. I know it was petty but I was counting on Emily, part of me didn't want to see anyone with Sam but me. Like I said I know it was petty. We would talk every day about Sam and then one day the phone calls stopped then the texts followed shortly after. Something wasn't sitting right with me but I held fast to the fact that she was my family and my best friend. If anything happened she would text me at least, no matter how bad it was. Two weeks more of no contact passed and I hoped that he would give up and come back to me. My hope bloomed when I saw him at my door one Saturday night. 3 months after he had dumped me.

"Hey" I said with a slight smile.

"We need to talk."

"Yes I know." I moved to the side to allow him entrance into the room. He looked troubled but that petty part of me was rather glad at that fact. "Come in."

"Um, I'd rather stay out here. It will only take a minute." he crossed his arms over his chest.

"Okay…so what do you have to say?" I didn't show it but I was really worried.

"I came back to ask you to stop counting on me."

"What?" I scrunched my face up trying to make out what he meant.

"I want you to give up on us. I don't want to be with you anymore." well that was to the point.

"That's it? You came back to tell me that you don't want to be with me? You should have just stayed away."

"If I stayed away you would still have this dream that we would get back together."

"Oh, well you achieved your goal. Congrats." I turned from him so that he wouldn't see me crying. "Are you ever going to tell me why you broke up with me in the first place?"

"It doesn't really matter. I just want you to move on."

"Emily told me that you asked her out."

"I figured that she would." he honestly didn't care that he was hurting me. "Have you talked to her lately?"

"No she hasn't called me. Why?"

"Hmm…I have to go." he left not even waiting for my response asshole. That gave me something to do now. I hadn't talked to Emily in a while I figured I would tell her what he said to me, maybe she could help.

"I'll call her after I take a shower." I was thinking out loud but it didn't matter much no one was here to call me crazy. Seth was with Brady and Colin, mom and dad were out rekindling their love.

My quick shower turned into a relaxing bath and a Mani Pedi. Of course I did this by myself but even still sometimes even the worst situations can be handled with a nail job. Works better if you have someone to talk to though. Grabbing my phone off of my dresser I pushed in Emily's number and put the phone up to my ear while I started my toenails.

"Leah." her tone was tired but I figure it was probably because I woke her up. It was midnight after all and Emily had to work on Sunday nights she had probably just got into bed.

"Did I wake you?"

"No I haven't been to sleep yet."

"Oh, you sound tired. You must have had a hard shift."

"Uh…yeah. Look I have been meaning to call you I just haven't had the time."

"That's alright; you will never guess what happened today."

"What?"

"Sam came by."

"Oh…really?"

"Yeah, and he told me to give up on us. Can you believe that?"

"Oh, well it has been three months Leah. If he was going to comeback to you he would have already." it wasn't so much of a biting comment but it still hurt.

"Wait what? Where is that coming from?"

"Well, you have just been so consumed with Sam I think it would be better if you started to focus on something else. It's not really healthy to dwell like you are."

"Uh…I called you so you could help me feel better not so that I could be psycho analyzed. You're my best friend the only one I have as a matter of fact. If I don't talk things through with you then who am I going to talk with?"

"I'm sorry Leah, it's just…Sam stopped asking me out."

"Oh, I'm sorry that you had to deal with that mess. I understand why you never called. There was nothing to tell"

"No that isn't what I mean, Sam stopped asking me out because I…I said yes to him."

"You what?" I asked. How could she, I didn't hear her right. I couldn't have she would never do that to me, ever. Right?

"I am seeing Sam, and before you get mad I want you to know that I never wanted to hurt you, neither did he for that matter but it just feels right with him. I asked him to talk to you so that you wouldn't keep hoping that he was coming back." she sounded sad but what about me. My best friend just stole my boyfriend.

"You sent him? He came back because you sent him?"

"I'm so sorry Leah, your like my sister I would do any-"

"Stop lying to me Emily! If you would truly do anything for me you would have never done what you are doing now."

"Can't you be happy for me?"

"Would you be happy for me if I ripped you heart out?" I practically screamed into the phone. "Have you guys been going at it behind my back? Was that the reason for your surprise visit?"

"It wasn't like that; I didn't steal him you weren't together."

"You promised me, you promised that you wouldn't be with him."

"It's a promise I regret breaking but there isn't much else I can do about it. Leah I love him."

"Yeah well so did I. we aren't sisters anymore, we aren't cousins and we aren't friends."

"Your throwing a tantrum will not change anything."

"Both of you can go to hell." I hung up; this wasn't like the other times when I would just get sad about him. My supposed best friend was dating him and she expected me to move on. I launched my phone across the room where it bang and broke against the mirror shattering it.

I can't really say that I was sorry for the mood I was in since I had talked to Emily. I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that my best friend betrayed me like she did. I had trouble believing that it hadn't been going one before he dumped me. It was a likelier reason than anything else I could come up with. He was gone for weeks came back distant and then Emily just shows up out of the blue, the very same night I was dumped. There were an awful lot of coincidences. She had called me a number of times but I had blocked her number I didn't want to hear from her at all. But it was as if fate had it in for me, because as time went on I became angrier and just when I thought it couldn't get any worse, mom told me that Emily and Sam were Moving back to la push. To put the icing on that nice pile of shit was the fact that I had to help her move. Mom believed that Emily was right and that if they were happy I should be happy for them. We hadn't been as happy with each other as we used to be. She sided with them so she that meant she didn't want to listen to me at all. Her forcing me to help them move into their nice happy looking home was proof.

"Leah, Sam and Emily are here." mom shouted from the living room.

"So" I said

"Stop being such a brat and come and say hello to your cousin." she was yelling with her back turned to me unpacking groceries so she didn't see me walk behind her. I was going to make a rather rude comment before I laid eyes on the two people I wished I could never see again. She was smiling and he looked like he used to with me. That made me want to cry but I wasn't that Leah anymore they don't get the pleasure of seeing me cry because of them anymore.

"I'm out here." I growled. "Can I leave now?"

"Is that anyway to talk to your favorite cousin." Emily asked running and throwing her arms around me. She was probably shocked when I pushed her arms off of me.

"I told you before over the phone but since you're here maybe it will sink in…Go to hell."

"Leah!" mom wore a look of pure fury but it didn't even scare me, I was way to angry to care about her punishments. "Apologize."

"No." I said walking towards the door Sam blocked my way though.

"Your mother is right you are being a spoiled brat."

"If that is suppose to make me apologize then you might want to try a new tactic." pushing his arm off of me I started towards the door again.

"Are you really going to hold this against me forever?" I heard Emily ask behind my back. "If so then you are being really petty. The Leah I knew, my little cousin would never hold a grudge she was to carefree to do that."

"Well the Emily I knew would have never done what you did."

"I said that I was sorry."

"I don't want you're sorry, I was counting on you and your promise to me. Of all the promise you could break you choose that one."

"I'm not sorry for loving him though, I'm sorry for how it happened. He doesn't want to be with you anymore and I'm not going to let you make me feel bad about being with him."

"Whatever, Emily. Are you done or are you going to continue to guilt trip me? It has never worked before so I'm not sure it'll work now."

"I hope that one day you'll understand."

"I thought that I was suppose to be helping the backstabbing cousin and her lying boyfriend move in not to be interrogated for being angry." I was asking mom but of course Sam had t open his mouth.

"If this is how it's going to be all day then I rather you not."

"Well it's no skin off my back." I said walking out the front door. They could have each other but I was still pissed at them, couldn't they have stayed away, I mean wasn't enough that they were together but they had to move back so they could flaunt it? Then they expected me to be happy for them? There was absolutely no way possible.

Okay i know that it is a little OOC but considering that Leah's cousin wound up with Sam right after they broke i figured her being this pissed was natural. i would be just as angry had it happened to me cousin or not. please review and tell me what you think.