"Hey…" Came Danny's soft voice as came out into the garden of the McGarrett household and stood next to his sister who was staring aimlessly at the ocean, arms wrapped tightly around herself . Shrugging his jacket off he moved it around her shoulders as the ocean breeze started to pick up. "Duke just got here…they got him. He'll be trialled and then probably get executed on the mainland." He whispered to her.
"It doesn't matter." Sam whispered keeping her eyes locked ahead of her. She was in her own little world. She felt…numb. Nothing made sense to her right now.
Danny frowned a little and looked to her. "Of course it matters Sam. We got the guy."
Sam looked to him blankly. "Not going to bring him back though is it?" She asked bluntly before looking ahead of herself once more and sighing. "Just go away Danny. I want to be on my own."
Danny looked to his sister and sighed. "Sam…please don't. I just want to help. Don't push me away."
"I don't want your help." She whispered.
"You might not want it Sam but you're going to need it." He told her firmly. "You're not the only one grieving Sam…we all are. We lost him too."
Sam looked to him, the tears burning her eyes. "But you weren't married to him Danny. You didn't love him like I did. He didn't die in your arms. You lost a friend. A partner. I lost the love of my life and my children lost their father. We buried him today and he's never coming back. Alfie and Lily are in there with all those people and they don't understand what is going on." She snapped as she looked to him and shook her head. "You haven't got to explain to them every day why daddy isn't going to be coming home anymore." Quickly wiping her eyes before the tears fell she looked to him. "Don't pretend you know how I'm feeling. Cause believe me when I say you don't." She whispered letting the tears roll down her cheeks.
As she got upset, Danny sighed as he pulled his baby sister into a tight embrace. "I'm not pretending Sam." He whispered keeping his arms tightly around her. "We didn't have the same bond as you guys but we loved him just as much." He kissed her head. "You're my baby sister and I'm going to help you through this." He promised as he looked to her and wiped a tear that rolled down her cheek with his thumb. "Whatever you and the kids need or want. Just let me know."
Sam looked to him. "I want Steve back." She blubbered as she just broke down; hiding her face into her brother's chest as she clung to him as if her life depended on it. And right now it did. She didn't have Steve. He was gone. All she had right now was her brother and no matter how many times she denied it she needed him now more than ever. She had tried so hard to stay strong for Alfie and Lily that now that she was on her own she was just breaking. Her heart hurt.
Hearing her Danny's heart just broke as he tightened his arms around her, gently resting his head on top of hers. "I wish I could Sam." He whispered to her as he gently rubbed her back. Steve's death had come to a shock to them all. It was the last thing they ever expected. Everyone had fought so hard to save him but it wasn't enough. He could still remember the look on Sam's face when the doctor came out of the O.R. before collapsing on the floor in floods of tears. Telling the children was even harder for Sam. Lily didn't understand and Alfie didn't fully understand either but he was sad. He wanted his daddy to come home.
"How am I supposed to go on without him?" She whispered as she clung to her brother's shirt.
He looked to her and let a sigh pass his lips. "It'll take time. But you will get there."
"I don't think I will." She whispered, wiping her eyes once more as she stepped away from him a little for some breathing space. "It's going to be too hard without him. He was my everything Danny. He kept me going through everything."
"I know it seems that way now…but Sam I promise you'll get through this. The kids will get through this."
Looking to him, the tears streamed down her face. "I'm pregnant Danny." She whispered, her bottom lip trembling. "And I didn't even get the chance to tell him." She whispered before she hid her face in her hands. She couldn't stop crying.
Hearing she was pregnant again, Danny sighed pulling her back to him and hugging her tightly. He knew they had been trying for another baby for a while and they had a lot of problems trying to conceive after the incident with Madison Grey, but now of all times? When Steve was gone? His heart broke even more for her.
Clinging onto her brother Sam just sobbed. The morning Steve was killed was the day she found out she was expecting. She was so excited to tell him after they had been trying for so long and then they got the call through on the radio. Those words forever sticking in her head. Officer down. They were two words no one ever wanted to hear but when she got to the scene and saw it was Steve…her whole world come crashing down there and then. She couldn't do this without him. It was him who got her through the last two pregnancies and Lily's birth. He needed to be here. How was she going to do this without him? How was she supposed to go on without him?