Its bean a long time since I have right a story or up dated it. I so sorry I'm a little bit busy with my new life. I'm righting this story out of many idea that I got to up dated my other story but it didn't fit to the way that the story is going. So I'm righting a new one to fine new idea for my other story. I hope you enjoy it as much my other fic . OK

I don't own the charter and the story if I do; I would make Kaoru an assassin like Kenshin then to be only a kendo instructor.

Kenshin think that he is to taint to be love by his miss Kaoru but not in Kaoru eyes because she is more danger then Battosai will ever be but its was a secret that only her family knew . As time past by, little of her black memory gone from her memory until one of her brother come back home making Kaoru past become real once more.

Its hurt so much in my heart

Chapter 1

It's the ending of winter and in to spring, Kaoru favorite time of the year. But in the last few day of winter kaoru was like a different person she often space out and some time she was always in a bad mood.

For her its not just Kenshin that hate this time of year, it's the same for her. Kaoru have witness many cruel thing in her life more then Kenshin will ever bean in his life as a hitokiri.

Her friend just know her as an innocent little girl who live a life of love and happy around her but that all they think to her its just a mask to cover her pain full past that know one ever new but her brother .

Kaoru dally routine was to wake up, eat with Kenshin, Yahiko and Sano then teach Yahiko kendo. Some time go out to the market to buy some food and help Kenshin cook once a while. Kaoru know how to cook but she like the attention around Kenshin all to her self.

But today some thing do not seam right , in the morning the boy said the have some this to do at the market but when kaoru ask to tag along the boys said no to her saying it's a boy thing. Kaoru let it go and wave good by. Kaoru knew some thing was going too happened and she don't like it.

She just has to wait for the boys to come home for the surprise until that kaoru have the entire house to her self. Kaoru sit at the porch viewing the white snow covering the ground. Remembering how fun she has playing with her brother and father. Her father teaches all of his son and daughter to Procter then self because his family was different then other family.

Her father was very strict to all of them but most of all to her, he make her practice many hour of sword practice to make her the best then her other brother. Her mother has beautiful black hair and amber eyes and her father have blue eyes with silver hair.

Kaoru was the only daughter in the family and she has four brothers. Her oldest brother was Yukimura Kamiya, he have light blue eyes and a mix of silver and black hair. He loves to have fun, joke and take care most of us when mother and father have die. He has a habit that is to drink to much sake.

Second, Hotaru Kamiya. He have amber cat eyes and silver with light black hair, he always where a bandana on his forehead, a red one. He likes to stare in to the blue sky and lay around but when to practice him always the serious one. He helps me in much way to master my sword skill and he just like my diary. I tell him all my worry and they all despaired, I dint know where he got the wisdom but he always have many ways to solve my problems.

Third, Akira Kamiya. My favorite brother of them all. He was the coldest of my entire brother but to me he is the one who I'm stick like glue. He was my idol then Yukimura I like my big brother but not as much as I like Akira. He nice, kind and so worm hearted but he didn't like to show it to every body the only person he show he love is just me his little sister. People call him the Ice devil in the time of the Sekigahara way because he was so clod he kill any one to a child, enemy and innocent people he didn't care. The only thing he cares was me. Some time its scare me but that doesn't matter he is the brother that I love so much. He has dark blue eyes and silver hair.

The last and not least Sasuke Kamiya. He is like Yahiko to me. His idol was his big brother Yukimura and he sticks to him like glue like I did with Akira. He wants to be like Yukimura so he could protect me from any think that could hurt me in any way. He like to sleep with me, he was like my body guard where ever is Sasuke there is Kaoru. He loves my cooking then any one in the house. He has a cat like eye amber like Hotaru but with black short hair like Tsubame.

That all of my brother and right know they all are living in different places to find the one who kill our father and mother. In my heart I hope this year the all could come back to her , to see because she misses them very much with they joke how portative of them about her , talk long hours in the night , drink sake until full she miss all of them to much.

Its was winter time when kaoru father tell them that entire he was a member of the Shinsengumi , he was a spy for the Shinsengumi to fight the Ishin Ishin (is this correct). After that we all was proud of our father and all so our mother. We tried our best to help our parents in them jobs to end the era of Tokugawa and bring a new era.

We train hard to be the best until one day , father ask us to go to his friend house to deliver a letter and imported letter if it were to fall in to the hand of the Ishin Ishin it will be the end of us. All of us do our best to complete the mission.

its was a success, by the time we came home the only thing we saw was blood every our father was kill in a horrible way Akira close my eyes with hand and hug me as tight as he can but I still can smell the blood and Sasuke was close by Yukimura mean while Hotaru went in to the house to check it out but there was nothing left for un but a letter left by our parent. They left the letter in my sword. When we read the letter , in our heart was only revenge on the person who kill our parents and father send us to the capital of the Shinsengumi to serve as any ways as we can under Okita Shoji the first captain of the Shinsengumi.

We became best friend. Yukimura, Hotaru and Akira always help Okita in killing, hunting people and many more. Mean while me and Sasuke was always send to spy on the enemy to get information from them. Some time I take time to take care of they wound and serve the food and give them my love to keep they insane from the blood they kill from many people good or bad.

We all serve him until the day he had die and the Ishin Ishin declared the victor in this war. After we settle in the dojo for a couple of years and my brother when separated ways to find the killer of out parent and let me teach the Kamiya Kassin No Ryu to student because they think is there job to find the killer and they all promise when they find the killer id found they will get me, we will kill him together.

Until this day I bean waiting for they return with the good news. Then I heard some one calling me it was became louder and louder by the time then I realize that I was spacing out again.

Kenshin and the other have come back. I open the door to see my best friend Misao and Aoshi was with them and they have bought some food at Akabeko on they way home. I was so happy to see her. I great them to my home and have launce together , I could see in Misao eye there was so many think she want to tell me.

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