AuthorNote:I do not own any of the characters. This story and plot is mine.
Chapter 1: Desaparecer
Despair, anger, hurt, pain, hopelessness.
Those are the only feelings that I feel .How is it that things got so bad? We deserved our happily ever after in order to balance all that we had been through.
I was actually surprised at how effected I was. I had always known that I would hurt if something were to happen but I was never really prepared for this type of hurt. The type of hurt that radiated and came from the bones.
This soul drenching despair that clung to me like a shadow.
I still remember how it happened. One minute she was there and the next she was gone.
No warning.
She was just gone.
Added to all of this anguish is the guilt. If maybe I had voiced my concerns all of this could have been avoided. I had been watching her over the course of our quest and I knew the moment that I saw her that she was different. Both my heart and my brain acknowledged that she was dangerous to us but also that we were too weak to stop her.
That is why I accepted her invitation. I knew that I would forever be wondering about her if I walked away. It was at that exact moment that I also knew that she could never be mine for it was not destined to be. I resigned myself to making sure that I would always be there for her if she needed me.
As her confidant.
As her friend.
As part of her family.
I know that the rest hurt as well. I also know that He will never be the same. I can't help but to hate him for taking her away from us….me…. but I know that I also feel sorry for him. He doesn't deserve her; after all that he has put her through but she loves him and I know that he loves her as well.
I hope that we can make it through this. How long can we survive this pain, this loneliness that has settled in our hearts?
With this pain I am alone and not alone. I have a wonderful woman beside me. But it is hard to move on when the one that brought us together is gone. She will forever hold a piece of my heart and my love. It is because of her that I am determined to give the women by my side my complete attention and devotion.
I pray the Kami deem it fit to return her to us. We all need her. I need her.