Run run and keep running and don't stop, please I know you. I know you want to get away as soon as possible.
I can't make the words come out of my mouth. But it doesn't matter .At this distance you'll never hear me even if I scream. My voice is not so loud but you know that you used to make fun of that.
Yes you have to keep running and you should never stop, you should get away, leave and never come back.
Do you remember that story? The one were you can't turn back otherwise people around you will become stone. Yes stone, as if medusa had looked you in the eye.
And that's what's going to happen if you turn back. I will become a rock and will never be real again.
But it doesn't matter I'm not more real now. An hour ago I was real, me and my secrets but now you know them.
I didn't want to tell you but I did. I wanted to shut up but when I saw you all the words started to flow. I discover then, that I had exploited. I haven't been able to keep it quiet anymore.
I think that my silly human mind make me think that maybe you will stay with me, that you wouldn't get away form me. I though that you would say, yes I'm sick of this too, I don't care if I never fit in I love you and that's all we need.
But you didn't, you run.
I can't see you anymore. Probably you haven't been in my sight for more than 20 minutes by now. I was so blinded by my stupid regrets that I didn't get to see you one last time.
I don't think I will ever see you again and if I see you, you wouldn't be you and I wouldn't be me. It wouldn't be us.
Everybody is always saying how is best to have a little than nothing at all. But I used to have nothing of something and now I have nothing of nothing.
It's better that you are away because if you see me, you would see that I an a rock even if you didn't come back.
So tell me Axel, how I keep it cool when my best friend is not going to be here? It's impossible you see, so I better just sleep and hope that this will be a nightmare.
I look myself at the mirror and I see nothing good.
He doesn't love you. Got I memorized? - I say
No I don't- someone says
A voice comes of nowhere and when I turn there you are.
Axel…- I breathe
A/N sorry about the English it's not really my thing but I I needed to get this out of my head
Should I continue?