Beautiful Chapter 1, a gilmore girls fanfic

Disclaimer: I don't own anything associated with Gilmore Girls or the song "beautiful disaster"

Jess had enough. He had promised her that he would be there, but he really didn't think he could take anymore. After all, how long could anyone expect him to sit at the wedding rehearsal of the girl he loved? When Luke sat back down beside him, he decided to make his exit.

"I'm leaving," he simply stated and began to gather his belongings.

Luke simply nodded, understanding that this whole thing was extremely difficult for Jess, even if he would never show it.

Of course, things are never that simple for the Gilmores. Seeing that he appeared to be leaving, a very nervous Rory Gilmore excused herself from the conversation that she was attempting to have with Honor Huntzberger, to follow him.

"Jess... wait... Jess where are you going?" They were in the lobby of the dining hall by the time he turned around.

"Sorry, I was going to say good bye, but it looked like you were busy."

"Please don't go yet.." Rory fidgeted with her hair and her dress. It had been obvious to everyone present just how nervous she really was.

"Rory, I have to work before the wedding. I have to get up pretty early tomorrow."

"Jess...please..just dance with me." The urgency in her voice was increasing, but he looked away.

"No Rory. I need to go."

"One dance, please, then I promise you can go." Her blue eyes were slowly filling with tears.

"Why Rory? Why is this so important to you?" He was starting to get upset now, didn't she know that this was killing him?

"I just ... I want... I need.." She couldn't find the right words. She was terrified and desperate, how could she make him understand that she had to be sure?

"You what, Rory? What do you want from me? One dance isn't going to change anything! You're still getting married tomorrow! It's not going to change this!" He lifted her left hand motioning to her engagement ring as he said the last part.

A tear began to run down her cheek. There was nothing more she could say so she simply looked back into his eyes silently asking him one more time.

Jess sighed. He had immediately regretted raising his voice. "One dance."

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Seeing the two of them walking back into the reception hall, Lane, who had been DJing the event (much to the Huntzbergers' dismay) immediately sprang into action.

As they walked to the floor, the first few notes of the piano version of Beautiful Disaster began to play.

*He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world would cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right *

Dancing as close as they were, it didn't take long before she felt he had a book tucked away in his jacket. She looked up at him and for the first time all night she had a sparkle in her eyes. "You brought a book." Jess smirked down at her, and for a moment, everything seemed alright. "Did you expect any less?"

*Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster*

She glanced up at him as he held her. "What book did you bring?"

Jess laughed a little. "It's just a book."

*He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
But do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Baby, hold on tight*

The urgency began to come back to her, as if something had just clicked in her mind. "Jess what book?" She asked the question completely serious this time.

"Howl," he whispered staring intently into her eyes.

*I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm searching for some kind of miracle
Waiting so long
I've waited so long

He's soft to the touch
But afraid at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still leaves more than I can take*

She didn't realize she had kissed him until after she heard the shocked noises from the guests. Suddenly she froze and he, knowing the realization would hit her, slowly let go of her.

He's beautiful
Lord he's so beautiful

He's beautiful….*

She was gone from the hall before the final notes of the song. Logan was being held back and calmed by his father, Lorelai and Lane had followed Rory and Jess was left standing alone in the middle of the dance floor.