A/N: In Memory of Gregory Clay Conover (less commonly known as Gregory Jon Lobdell). Today, 7/1, marks the two year anniversary of his death. RIP cousin. Another tear jerker from me, guys. Ready?
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Good Bye My Friend
Bella was sitting in her room, planning out what she was going to do for the summer. Who was she going to hang out with? What was she going to do? Would this be the summer she finally got a job? Maybe her permit? So many things, so little time!
The phone rang downstairs and she heard
Charlie's rough voice answer on the third ring.
"Hello?...
Hey. ... What?... Is he okay?... Okay. Thanks for calling." She
then heard him coming up the stairs and knock on her door.
"Come
in." she said, not looking up from her notebook of plans.
"Bells, bad news." This caught her attention. She
looked up.
"What is it?"
"Jasper was in an
accident. He didn't make it." Her world came crashing down
around her. She began looking around frantically for her cell
phone.
"Edward, I have to call Edward."
"Bells,
you don't know who was in the car with him." That stopped her
dead in her tracks. Here she was, stranded, without knowing what was
going on outside the walls of her house, and not knowing who else
might be hurt, or worse, dead. Charlie walked out of the room and
Bella sat down on the bed, thinking. She got a text through on her
phone, and it vibrated in her hand. She flipped it open quickly and
looked at who it was from. Edward. She let out a gust of air in
relief.
From: Edward B, plz
tell me u r safe! ~E
She hit reply and began a text back to him.
E, I'm safe. thx 4 the worry. I'm glad ur safe 2. Evry1 else? ~B
And so it went for a few more minutes. Until finally, she got this text:
B, come 2 my place. We're all meeting. ~E
She
grabbed her coat, cell phone, and keys and rushed down the
stairs.
"Dad, everyone is okay. We're all meeting over at
Edward's place. I'll call you later."
"Okay, Bella. Be
safe. I love you."
"Love you too."
She ran out to her truck and started it. She pushed it to go as fast as it could so she could get to everyone sooner. Edward's house was only a fifteen minute drive away, but Bella wanted to get there as soon as possible.
As soon as she pulled up in his driveway, she cut
the engine and hopped out. Edward was outside by the door. He had
heard her coming. She rushed into his arms, and hugged him
tightly.
"Edward! I'm so glad you're safe."
"Come
on inside, Bella. Emmett and Alice are inside. Rose isn't
coming."
"Rose! I should call her! I mean, after all,
she is my family." Bella hit the speed dial number for Rosalie
and let it ring. Rose didn't answer. Bella let it go to
voicemail.
"Hey, Rose. It's just me. I just wanted to talk to
you and try to sort things out with this whole mess. I guess you
don't want to talk to anyone right now. I understand. Well, bye for
now, cousin. I love you."
Bella hung up her cell
phone, tucked it in her pocket, and followed Edward into the living
room where Edward's brother, Emmett, sister, Alice, and parents,
Carlisle and Esme, were all sitting. Bella smiled a tiny smile at
them and sat down on the couch. As she sat there in the dead silent
room, it began to sink in with her. Her cousin was dead. Gone
forever. Never coming back. Never again would he be there to comfort
her. Never again would he be there to help her with her small
insignificant problems. Never again would she hear his voice, or see
his face. Her breathing became more shallow and forced. Carlisle was
at her side instantly.
"Bella?" She had lost herself to
the real world. All she knew at the moment was Jasper was gone.
"She's going into shock. Emmett. Go get a brown bag, please.
She's going to start hyperventilating."
Emmett got up and
quickly went into the kitchen to grab a brown paper bag out of the
cabinet. Carlisle wadded it up properly and held it out for Bella to
take. She didn't take it. She didn't know it was there. All she knew
was,
"Carlisle..... can't...... breath..... Jasper.....
dead." She passed out. Carlisle caught her before she could
slump onto the floor. He leaned her against him with a calm look on
his face.
"She'll come around in a minute. She's okay.
Physically. Alice, why don't you go call Charlie. Tell him Bella will
be staying the night."
"Okay." Alice left the room,
and seconds later, Bella came around again.
"W-what
happened?" she asked, confused.
"You passed out, Bella.
It's okay." Carlisle comforted.
In the morning, Bella got a text from Rosalie.
From: Rose. B,
thx 4 the voicemail. ily. calling hrs. day after 2morro. funeral sat.
3, R.
She quickly text back,
R, u r welcome. thnx 4 update. ily
cuz. ~BShe showed the text to
Alice, whose room she was currently in. Alice nodded and took out her
phone. She typed something out and then put her phone away. Bella
gave her a questioning look.
"Letting Edward, Emmett, Mom and
Dad know."
Bella went home later that afternoon and went
straight to her room. She didn't come out again until friday morning
when it was nearly time to leave for the calling hours. She dressed
appropriately and made her way to the truck. She got in and started
driving when she realized.... she didn't know where she was going.
She picked up her cell and called the first person that came to her
mind.
"Hello?" came his voice.
"I don't know
where I'm going."
"Come over, Bella. You can ride with
us. Or, you can follow us. Whichever you prefer." Bella hung up
without another word and pushed the car to go faster to get to
Edward's house. She finally saw the driveway and went right into it
without slowing down. She cut the engine and climbed out of the
truck. She did not go inside, however. She made her way over to
Edward's volvo and climbed in the passenger's seat, closing the door
and waiting for everyone to come out of the house.
Finally, Edward came
out of the house and got in the volvo. He got into the driver's seat
and closed the door quietly.
"Everyone else will be out in
just a minute," he told her. She just nodded. "You okay?"
he asked her. She didn't answer. Was she okay? Not even she knew the
answer to that. "Bella, look at me." She hesitated for a
minute before looking up at him slightly. "You'll be okay. I
promise. You are my best friend. I won't let anything bad happen to
you."
"I miss him, Edward. I still can't believe he's
gone! He didn't deserve this."
"You're absolutely right.
He didn't deserve it."
"He was only 19. He was too young
for something this terrible to happen to him. He was too good of a
person."
"I know, Bella. But, life isn't fair. Sometimes
things like this happen. He was like a brother to me. I miss him
too." Bella fell silent again and stared out at her knees. She
pulled her feet up into the seat with her.
"Bella, come here." Edward said. She didn't move. He sighed, got out of the car and walked around to her side. He opened her door, gently pulled her from the car, and sat down in her seat, bringing her back down to sit in his lap. "Bella," he muttered gently into her ear, "It's okay to show when you are upset. You don't have to hide it." She put her face into the crook of his neck and tried to choke back everything she was feeling. She let one small sob escape her, and let a few tears roll down her face before she pushed everything away. She didn't want to deal with it right now. She wanted to be as strong as she could the next two days.
When they arrived at the funeral home, Edward and Bella walked in together, and Bella walked up to her slightly younger, other cousin, Rosalie. Rosalie was currently 13. Bella and Edward were 16.
They talked for a few
minutes before Bella and Edward walked into the room to see Jasper
for the last time. As Bella stood there, tears began pouring down her
face, against her will and her body shook. Edward wrapped his arms
around her and just held her there. Someone walked into the room, but
neither of them realized it until the person spoke.
"Edward,
you need to get her out of here. She needs to grieve in private. Take
her back to the house, and we'll be along in a while, okay?"
Carlisle spoke. Edward nodded and guided Bella out of the building
and back into the volvo.
They went back to the house and
Edward carried Bella inside the house and up three flights of stairs
to his room.
"Is there anything you need, Bella?" She
shook her head. "Okay. Do you want me to leave you alone?"
Again, Bella shook her head. She lay down on his bed and burried
herself under his blankets while hiding her face in his pillow. He
sat on the bed with her, not knowing what to do, and not wanting to
let himself grieve, for fear of hurting her further.
About an hour or two later, Bella fell asleep and Edward found it appropriate to let his emotions go. He curled up in the corner in his room and buried his head in his knees. It was just started to sink in fully since they had seen the body. His best friend, his brother, was dead. Shit.
He wasn't quite sure when he'd fallen asleep, but when he woke up in the morning, he was wrapped in a blanket with his head leaning against something hard, but soft. He looked down. Bella was laying against him, sleeping. He had wrapped his arms around her in his sleep and, she must have put the blanket around them. He didn't want to move. He was just closing his eyes to go back to sleep when his bedroom door was opened. Edward kept his eyes closed. He was silently willing for this to be a dream and for today not to happen. Whoever had walked in now put a hand on his cheek.
"Edward, it's time to
wake up. We have to get ready." Edward opened his eyes
unwillingly and sat up a little straighter. He then shook Bella
awake. She sat up groggily.
"Huh?" she asked.
"We
have to get up. We need to start getting ready soon." She nodded
solemnly and stood.
"I have to go see Alice. I have nothing
to wear." She left the room and Edward quickly got dressed.
The day flew quickly by and finally it was over! Bella spent the rest of the following week with the Cullens, and trying to recover from the serious blow she had been dealt. This would take a long time to heal. She didn't know how long, but she hoped not TOO long.
