Six years. It's been six long years since he broke my heart. Not that I haven't been happy or with another since then. Hell, call me a freakin' hooker; I've had that many one night stands.

But there were nights where I went too far, in my drunken or drugged haze. Nights I wish I could either forget, or go back and relive, just to change their endings and do them the right way.

I could list all those who I have been with, but we'd be here for hours. One thing I can say though, is that I have been with the whole pack – minus Seth, cause that's just wrong on so many levels – imprinted guys and all. Even Sam.

Embry, Collin, Brady... hell, even Quil were all understandable. They were all single and looking for fun. Quil just wanted a part of a body that was not his hand.

Paul and Jared... well, they were actually drunk threesomes, thanks to their girls. Rachel hit on me, not the other way around, and I soon received a thorough fucking from Paul, and Rachel... she was pretty damn talented too. Jared and Kim were a sweeter couple, but damn, they know their stuff!

Sam was a random occurrence. Phased back, saw each other naked and got caught up in the moment.

Jake... Jake was just a mistake, on both our parts. We were both so angry that day...

Flashback

"I get it Lee! He hurt you! But you know he couldn't help it." Jake grabbed me by my shoulders, looking into my eyes. "Move on, Leah."

I couldn't help the growl that built in my chest. "Don't fucking tell me what to do, Jacob Black!"

"Just get over it, Leah! Five years have passed already. Move. The fuck. On." We were staring so intently into each other's eyes, we were unaware that we were slowly moving closer and closer, until soon our breaths were hitting each other's faces.

"I don't... don't want to get over it," I stuttered as our noses brushed together.

"Lee," he groaned, and I think it was supposed to be a groan of exasperation, but I never found out as I crashed my lips against his. We began grabbing at each other's shoulders, trying to get closer, teeth, lips and tongues clashing together.

He growled into my mouth as I felt him lace his fingers into my hair, my arms wrapping around his neck and pulling him closer as I moaned loudly.

"Jake," I gasped out as I pulled back for air. I felt as he moved his hands, skimming them down my back, lightly cupping my ass.

"This is so wrong," I heard him murmur as he gripped me harder lifting me up and coaxing me to wrap my legs around his waist. I held onto him tight until I felt my balance return, before tucking my face into the crook of his neck, kissing and biting at his warm russet skin.

"I don't fucking care," I said, punctuating my sentence with a sharp bite to his neck. "You started this, so you're gonna end it."

He ground his hips aggressively into mine, and I could feel his hardening erection pressing against the spot between my legs – my skirt had ridden up as he lifted me.

"Do you see me stopping?" he growled into my ear, and I felt my panties soak with arousal. I rocked against him as our lips sought each other's again, kissing frantically and roughly as he backed me against the wall, my head falling back with a loud 'thump'.

"Fuck, Jake!" I bit into his shoulder hard as I tightened my legs around him, feeling his cock brushing my soaking core, only the thin layers of his cotton shorts and my panties separating us. He let out a loud growl and pulled back slightly, smirking as he reached beneath my skirt and ripped my panties away from me, his smirk growing when he heard my gasp.

Pressing me harder into the wall, I heard him drop his shorts to the ground, teasing my soaking lips with the tip of his erection as his lips found mine again, kissing me hard as he suddenly thrust into me, throbbing inside my drenched pussy. I all but screamed out his name in pleasure as he filled me to the hilt, stretching me in ways I had thought to be impossible.

"You think I didn't notice?" My nails dug into the skin of his back as his teeth tugged harshly on my lower lip.

"N...notice what?" Nails digging deeper as thrusts became harder and more precise.

"You fucking my whole pack." The packs merged back together not too long after the battle with the Italian leeches, and Jake was alpha of everyone – with me as his beta – which was a complete and total surprise, even to me.

"You are my beta; mine to control, mine to confer with; mine to dominate." His lips moved to my ear, whispering huskily. "Mine to fuck."

The moan that left my lips was huge, but not as huge as the almost earth-shattering orgasm which rocked my body, my juices squirting everywhere as I shook and shuddered in Jake's arms.

"These orgasms are mine!" I cried out loudly as his teeth sank into my neck, marking me as his. Stars and fireworks burst behind my eyelids, my legs tightening around Jake's waist as I clenched hard on his cock.

Jacob pulled back from my neck, looking deep into my eyes. His were full of lust and hunger; black with desire.

With every second spent looking into his orbs, his thrusts got harder and deeper as I grew wetter around him.

"I'm yours." His tip rammed against my spot, my legs beginning to quake once more. "I'm yours, Jacob Black."

Our lips connected as he moved one hard to my hair, fisting it tightly, as the other rested on my hip, his fingers digging into my skin.

"J-Jake." I shivered as a second orgasm rushed through my veins, my eyes rolling to the back of my head as I felt him tensing, before the sensation of his warm seed filling me overtook my body. I slackened against him, panting for breath as I pressed kisses all over his sweaty skin.

"Fuck, Leah." A growl rumbled through his chest as both his hands took hold of my ass, before walking us down to his room. He tossed me unceremoniously onto the bed, and watched as I bounced, his hand curled around his glistening cock as he pumped it hard.

I moved back onto the bed, resting my back against the head-board as I slowly removed the remainder of my clothes, enraptured by the sight of Jacob tugging and stroking himself. I don't know quite when came over me, but my hands made their way south, two fingers rubbing my pulsing clit hard as I thrust three in and out of me at a rapid pace.

"It's my hand you're imagining, isn't it?"

Jacob's eyes snapped from my dripping core to my face, a soft rumble echoing in his small bedroom as he growled.

"Always. It's always been your hand, your mouth, your perfect fucking body wrapped around me. I want to always pound into you. I want you, Leah."

His words helped the coil in my stomach grow tighter.

"I want to taste you," I blurted out as I curled my fingers, hitting my g-spot perfectly, the pleasure proving to be overwhelming as I squirted everywhere, soaking the sheets as my orgasm gushed forth, Jacob's name spilling from my lips.

"Fuck, get your ass over here then." I could see the muscles in his legs tensing as his hand moved faster over his impressive length.

I hurried to the end of the bed, my body still shaking from my powerful orgasm. I reached the foot of his bed, sitting on my knees as I rested one hand on his right thigh, my right hand joining his in pumping him as I closed my lips around his tip.

My hand tightened around him as our fingers laced together, my tongue running over his slit, tasting the leaking precum, moaning loudly. I felt as his other hand returned to my hair, removing our hands from his base as he gently pushed down on my head. I took him in deeper, moaning as he hit the back of my throat, growling low around his cock, coaxing him closer to the edge.

"Leah!" His own growl tore through the air as his warm essence filled my mouth. I pulled my lips back, swallowing deeply before cleaning his gorgeous cock off. Sitting up on my knees, I cupped the back of his neck, pulling his lips to mine, kissing him deeply, my other hand running over his chest, dragging my nails over his pecs and down his abs.

His tongue pressed between my lips, thrusting inside my mouth, tasting every corner. We both moaned into the kiss, our hands scrambling for any inch of skin we could touch, our chests crushing together.

I pulled back to breathe, feeling his lips moving to my neck, down to my breasts. I held his head to me as a million and one thoughts ran through my mind, becoming a messy jumble of feelings. His head lifted, his lips returning to mine as he sighed, whispering low.

"I love you, Lee."

I froze. My mouth agape, my eyes wide, my hands stilled in his hair, the strands still wrapped around my fingers. I could feel my heart pounding in my chest as I looked into his eyes, seeing nothing but pure, unadulterated love shining back at me.

"But... but you have Nessie." I had all but spat her name out, finding that the demon spawn was ruining my happiness yet again. He just looked back at me, the hurt clear in his eyes. I couldn't bear to look into his chocolate orbs any longer. I let go of him completely, biting my lip hard as I hurriedly dressed back into my clothes. Tasting blood from biting my lip so hard, I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand, before running out of the house, not letting the tears fall, never looking back.

That was four weeks ago, and things have been tense. Not just between Jacob and myself, but in the whole pack. It's like they knew something was wrong, but were too scared to ask it. Their being scared didn't deter them from openly staring at the both of us when they thought neither of us were looking. A couple of times I had even caught them whispering low while shooting surreptitious looks my way; I shut them up with a short, sharp slap to the back of their heads.

If by chance Jacob and I were in a room alone together, or we happened to find each other patrolling at the same time, I would run. It hurt to even acknowledge his presence.

It was my own fault, really. I let myself get caught up in the moment, caught up in the passion. I knew he had an imprint, yet I continued. I knew he wouldn't stay with me after we fucked, but yet I continued. But his confession of love came as a surprise; it was so unexpected and out there... I bet he just said it to try and make the situation sound better. I convinced myself of this every day. That it was all my fault for falling for Jake in the first place, for allowing myself to be so stupid.

It all came to a head today though. After running a routine patrol with Embry – admittedly flirting with him through the mind-link for most of the night – Jacob phased in for his run, a solo one, catching the tail end of my thoughts as Embry phased out.

Why couldn't it have been Embry?

Why couldn't what have been Embry? Jake's voice filled my mind, and my eyes broke from the figure of a now-human Embry walking into his house; the house where I should be joining him, sans clothes. I whipped my head around before growling at Jacob,

What's it to you? You used me, Black. You have a loving, adoring imprint back at leech-manor. Yet you fucked me, claim me to be yours and then don't even fight to get me back!

I have been fighting, Leah. You're just too blind and caught up in your hatred of me to notice.

And how do you suppose you've been fighting then? I phased back, quickly throwing the dress that was tied around my ankle on. I watched as he phased back too, pulling on the regulation cut-offs, before taking my hand in his, pulling my body flush against his.

"I fought, Leah," he whispered, kissing the side of my neck. I tried to pull back, remove myself from his arms and his touch, but he had caged me to him. "If you were paying a single ounce of attention, Lee, you would know that the imprint with Ness -"

"What, it just magically disappeared overnight? That she realized you had fucked me and no longer wanted -" My words were cut off as Jake roughly kissed me. His taste and presence was consuming me, encompassing me, and I could do nothing but stand there, stock-still. I wanted to kiss him back, but I wanted to hear the truth, hear it from his lips before I gave into his dominating ways; gave myself to him completely.

"The imprint with Ness," he tried again, breathing against my lips. "Never existed to begin with."

There will be a second part to this, just be patient. This is a piece I've been trying to write for months... I think I started it back in June. But here's the end result, and I hope you enjoy. Put this [or me] on alerts for the next part – I hope to have it up within the next couple of weeks.