I don't own NCIS or NCIS Los Angles, or the character's there in. I only write about them.

The boat house was silent except for the gentle sound of the waves breaking on the pillars below.

"What's wrong?" asked Nate.

They had been there for over an hour in silence.

"Nothing, everything." Replied Kensi staring out across the water from the balcony of the boathouse. "Why is it that every man I come to trust leaves me normally by less than happy means."

"Deeks." Nate said to himself, this is why Hetty had called him back from his assignment in Afghanistan.

Four week ago Marty Deeks had gone missing; he had been on an undercover operation with LAPD when things went wrong, very wrong. Worse it had taken LAPD a full week to inform Hetty, which had burdened her with the job of telling his NCIS partner, Special Agent Kensi Blyth, that he was missing. Hetty suspected that LAPD wanted to recover him themselves so that they NCIS would believe them to be capable of doing their job but after a week they had nothing so they turned tail and asked for help. Deeks had already been on assignment for nearly a month when he had gone missing. Kensi was dealing with it professionally for the first couple of weeks and had been an active member of the team looking for him. Then fourteen days ago something had caused Kensi to break down. Everything about her had changed and this caused everyone to become very suspicious, which is when Hetty had called for Nate to return home. One of their own was hurting and she didn't trust just anyone with those on her team. It had taken far too long for him get home, he had hoped to do it in a couple of days but it had taken nearly a week.

Nate could see the physical toll on Kensi, her hair was unkept, no make up, and evidence of a lack of sleep. Something was tormenting her.

Kensi turned and looked at Nate, she was thinking. What did she have to lose now, she had thought about running but she worked for a highly connected government agency so she wouldn't be able to stay hidden for long. And as for staying on the job they would all figure it out sooner or later. She didn't even want to consider the other options. Hetty would be the first to notice that she no longer fit into the undercover outfits. Callen would be the first to notice any chance in diet or behavior, plus he had this sixth sense about things, actually she was fairly sure that they had both noticed something had changed about her already. Sam would notice when she stopped sparing with him for fear of doing more damage than good, or was that what she wanted.

"Nate," she said.

"Yes," he paused, waiting for her to continue. "Do have something you want to talk about?"

"I'm pregnant." She said simply and shyly.

There was no point in holding the secret in any longer, it was time to set the story straight. She had come this far.

"Deeks?"

She nodded.

Now everything fell into place. Everyone knew that they had grown close since the incident with Mateace and the Russians that nearly had them both blown up. Although no one was really sure how close they had grown, Nate had learned from Callen that Deeks and Kensi had been spending a lot of time together before he went on his undercover assignment. They insisted that they were just carpooling but he suspected there was more to it, and there was. The question that now dwindled in Nate's mind was, of the level of their relationship. Was this a case of a one night stand, partner's casually sleeping together because it was easier than dating or was this a serious relationship. And with Kensi each situation carried huge implications.

Kensi could no longer hold on to the image of the tuff girl, and she began to cry. Nate went to her and embraced her as she cried. Nate was happy to see Kensi expressing her emotions; he could only imagine how long she had kept it all in.

Nate handed Kensi a cup of tea, before sitting down next to her with a cup of his own.

"What do you know about Deek's assignment?" asked Nate.

"He was infiltrating a meth distribution ring based out of central LA." Said Kensi. "It was only scheduled to last three weeks, but Deeks said he should be in and out in about fourteen days."

"For the first couple of weeks he would leave me encoded text messages from a burn phone, but then they stopped. We were in the middle of the Jepperson case so I didn't really notice until it was too late."

"What happened to him?"

"Eighteen days into the assignment he called into dispatch, said his cover was blown and that he needed a rescue. LAPD when to the meeting spot and waited, he never showed. That was the last anyone heard from him, that was 43 days ago."

Kensi turned to Nate.

"He just loves undercover work," she paused. "He was good at it too."

"How far along are you?" asked Nate.

"Twelve weeks." She replied.

"Have you been to a doctor?" he asked, he didn't want to be too nosey but at this point he was worried that she wasn't taking care of herself due to the extreme emotional drain.

"Yes," she paused. "I go back again in a couple of weeks."

"I'm glad, I'm just worried about you, as we all are."

It hadn't taken more than a few weeks for people to figure out she was pregnant and they quickly figured out that Deeks was the father, but much to her surprise they did not chastise her for her behavior. Her coworkers showed support for her during a most difficult time. Sam and Callen were happy to see that she was finally able to find that special person after all she had been through in her life, and they understood how much it would hurt her if Deeks never came home. Hetty had put it best; by saving Deeks, we save Kensi and the twins she now carries. Everyone was worried about Kensi's mental state, she had lost her father when she was young, then she lost her fiancé, and she had given up dating all together because she believed that it was just too complicated. And as for partners, she just couldn't keep them as so few were people were cut out for undercover work. She had finally found that special person in Deeks, they all knew it, they had all seen it. Callen was fairly sure that Hetty had picked Deeks out just for Kensi just as she had picked so many other agents.