Hi everyone! I am sorry for any confusion that this will bring, but I am having to repost this story. I have had issues with the website and my first attempt at posting this story was not actually posting to the website's new or updated story feed. So for those of you who are seeing this for the first time this story is the sequel to A Family Broken! I would recommend you read A Family Broken before reading this or you will be very confused on what's going on. In this story Fili and Kili will be a few years younger than in The Hobbit movie. I do not own the Hobbit or any of its lovely characters. This story is for entertainment purposes only. Enjoy!
Chapter One
Screams and battle-cries echoed through the destroyed forest, piercing the ears of the young injured dwarf. The dark-haired youth struggled to his feet as blood and sweat ran down his battered face, his body screaming with every movement. The many dead bodies of dwarves littered the bloodied ground; that once held happy memories of family picnics and better days.
Fire encased the battlefield creating an impossible heat, licking the flesh of the living and burning the bodies of the dead. Finally making it to his unsteady feet, Kili re-adjusted his grip on his older brother's sword, the only thing he could find of his missing kin. Blood was leaking down the young dwarf's arm, making his hand slick with blood. Though gravely injured Kili's determination did not waver and the only thought that occupied his mind was to find his Uncle and brother immediately.
Slowly he limped across the forest, stepping over the charred dead corpses of friends and loved ones. He moved with purpose towards the ever-growing darkness surrounded by flames. The closer Kili got to the darkness the louder the shrieks of goblins could be heard, making his skin crawl.
As he entered the dark the smoke from the flames encircled him, making it impossible to breathe. He panicked as the feeling of suffocation overcame him and the edges of his sight turned black. Kili dropped to his knees and yelled out in pain as he hit the ground. The darkness threatened to swallow the young dwarf, when a loud scream of agony rang through the night.
"FILI!" Kili's hoarse voice screamed in terror at the pained sound. The discomfort of his injuries and loss of breath forgotten, Kili stumbled to his feet and broke into a run towards his big brother's voice at full speed.
Kili ran and ran through the darkened forest searching for his lifeline, his partner in crime as their Mother used to say. Finally after what felt like ages he saw a clearing in the distance, sword held in a steady grip Kili slowed to a walk as he entered the dark clearing. The only light was coming from the full moon and the dim glow from the fire behind him.
After entering the clearing his eyes instantly landed on a broken figure laying on the ground with a pool of blood beneath it. Unwanted tears started welling in Kili's eyes as he approached the unmoving body with caution. Moving carefully his eyes never leaving his destination and when Kili was closer to the body, the light of the moon revealed an unwanted truth that Kili could not, would not accept.
In a daze he ran and dropped painfully to his knees beside his Uncle's body. "No…no…no…no…NO!" Kili frantically screamed in despair. Thorin's dead eyes stared endlessly into his youngest nephew's soul, searing this terrible moment into his mind forever. Kili dropped his head to his Uncle's still chest and cried.
Kili's moment of despair was interrupted by a quite pain-filled whisper behind him. "Kil…Kili."
The youngest of the Durin line whipped his heads in the direction of the voice he would know from anywhere, a voice he has heard since the day he was born and saw the limping stumbling silhouette of his older brother, slowly making his way towards him.
Kili leaped to his feet and ran to his injured brother's side, but before he could reach him Fili fell to the ground crying out in pain. Kili reached his brother in a heartbeat and could not stop the cry of despair that escaped his lips. Fili was bleeding heavily from many wounds that covered his body, but the worst of the blood came from a large gaping wound where his heart still fought for life. Kili gathered his dying brother into his arms and tried to comfort him in his finally moments.
"K…Kil…Kili" Fili shuttered out as he looked into the panicked brown eyes of his baby brother, From his place in Kili's lap Fili reached up with a shaking and unsteady hand to wipe a tear from his brother's bruised cheek.
"Don't….leave." Fili tried with all he had left to speak to his little brother, but had to gasp for dear breath between his words.
"Hang on brother, you're going to be fine, just hang on." Kili's voice broke as he tried to stop the bleeding from Fili chest.
Fili just continued to gasp for breath and clung to his brother's hand weakly.
Kili sobbed, tears flowing steadily down his face and his voice broke with every word he spoke. "Who did this to you Fili?"
Horrible coughs racked Fili's broken body and blood flew from his lips. "Ccc..Car…Carrek." Fili wheezed out painfully.
"No," Kili whispered in horror and looked at his dying brother, his protector with wide tear-filled eyes.
Suddenly Fili started shaking violently and mumbling frantically, "No…no…no, please don't!"
Kili looked at Fili in confusion, "Don't what Fili?" but his brother did not get the chance to answer as a strong hand gripped Kili by the back of the neck and lifted him off the ground, ripping him away from his dying sibling.
The touch burned with a white-hot pain and Kili screamed as his skin blistered and burned. With blurry unfocused eyes Kili saw the monster of his past pull him in close, so their faces were nearly touching.
"Hello little Kili. Did you miss me?" Carrek sneered and smiled that smile that has haunted the young dwarf for ages.
Kili bolted upright and struggled for breath, disoriented it took him a long while to realize he was safe in his bed, in the room he shared with Fili. Drenched with sweat Kili pulled a trembling hand through his equally drenched hair, fingers lingering on the scar at the lower back part of his neck. He turned his head to check on his brother to reassure himself that he was still alive, safe and undisturbed.
Kili squeezed his eyes shut and clenched his blanket in tight fists as he tried to quietly control his breathing. Painful images from his past flashed behind Kili's closed lids. Carrek walking up to him slowly, two large goblins holding him down, a small sniveling goblin standing next to Carrek with a blazing torch, Carrek heating his dagger and walking closer…closer…closer, Carrek circling behind him with the heated blade. Kili snapped his eyes open, almost feeling the agony all over again and let out a near silent shaky breath.
Finally after what felt like a lifetime Kili was able to get his breathing under control, but he couldn't stop the tremors that shook through his entire body. A few tears escaped the young dwarf's eyes while Kili silently fought to control his emotions. He hadn't had a nightmare like that in a long time and having one now scared the young dwarf more than he would admit. Slowly and with quiet care Kili got out of bed and tiptoed to the door. When he reached for the doorknob he threw a quick look over his shoulder to ensure Fili was still asleep. Satisfied that his brother was still undisturbed Kili slipped out of the bedroom and headed for the front door.
Once Kili was outside he finally allowed a solitary moment of grief to overcome him. He slid down the front door, leaned his head back closing his eyes as a few stray tears fell down the haunted dwarf's face. Carrek's scarred face flashed behind Kili's closed eyes again and he slowly stood on shaky feet.
He made his way to a stone bench in front of their home and sat down while looking out into the distance. They still lived in the Blue Mountains and sometimes when Kili looked around, even after so many years from that horrible day he could see the destruction like it was yesterday.
The sound of someone slamming their foot into a heavy object and a muttered curse had Kili smiling faintly, "We really need to work on your sneaking skills brother."
A heavy sigh made Kili turn to see his older brother making his way towards him. Fili looked tired and disheveled from just waking without much sleep, which made Kili feel incredibly guilty for being the reason for his brother's disturbed rest.
"What are you doing out of bed Fili? You look terrible." Kili asked in a scratchy tired voice, eyes never leaving his brothers progress towards him.
Fili loudly plopped down on the bench next to his younger brother, "Why thank you Kili, I always try to look my very best." Fili gave his brother a grin before continuing, "As for why I am currently missing my beauty sleep, well shouldn't I be asking you the same question? Though I suppose that would be unnecessary, seeing as we both know why you're not in bed."
Kili looked away from his brother's searching eyes and they sat in silence for a few moments. No longer being able let his baby brother suffer in silence Fili gently nudged Kili's shoulder with his own.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
Kili shook his head and took a deep breath before turning to face his brother with a spark in his watery eyes. "What, about your terrible stealth skills? I do have a few pointers for you if you're interested. I can tell you this brother, you walk like a Oliphaunt and Cave Troll combined when you're trying to be quiet."
Fili placed a fake hurt expression on his face and placed a hand above his heart. "Oh, how you wound me brother."
Kili laughed quietly with his brother, but when he saw Fili's hand above his heart he remembered his dream. Kili could almost feel the blood from his brother's wound seeping steadily through his fingers and he had to swallow the painful lump that formed in his throat.
"It was Carrek. I…I dreamt that he came back and he uh." Kili took a few deep breaths, trying to stop his tears from escaping. "He came back and…and killed Uncle Thorin and he…he hurt you Fili." Kili looked at his brother in desperation, tears in his eyes and didn't even try to stop his crying anymore. "You were dying Fili! Dying in my arms and there was nothing I could do to help you!"
Fili carefully pulled Kili into a tight embrace, "its' okay Kili, he cannot hurt you or me ever again. Uncle Thorin and Dwalin killed that monster long ago. You know this."
Kili pulled away from his brother just enough to look him in the eyes. "I know…I'm not sure what happened. I have not had a nightmare like this in a long time."
Fili noticed that while Kili was talking he had started to unconsciously trace the scar on his neck. Slowly, as to not startle Kili, Fili reached over and took his hand away from his neck and squeezed it.
"I will always be here for you, no matter what. If we have to deal with these nightmares again, we will…together."
Kili looked away sadly. "It's just cruel." He whispered so quietly that Fili almost missed his words.
"What is Kili?"
Kili looked back at Fili so incredibly broken and hollow, like a shell of his baby brother. It destroyed Fili to see him look so beaten, so full of sadness. That look should never be placed on one so young, let alone his normally joyful energetic brother Kili.
When Kili spoke his voice broke in sadness and pain. "It's cruel that I can remember every scar, every mark of that creature's face, but I can't remember what my own Mother looked like. It's not fair Fili, it's just not fair."
Kili was now crying, barely holding himself together and Fili was not far behind him. "Kili you were a child, we both were. You cannot blame yourself for being haunted by his face. Yes it is terrible and cruel, but you must know that Mother loved us both more than anything. She would understand Kili. She wouldn't want you to blame yourself for something you have no control over."
Kili nodded his head absently as he digested his brother's comforting words. He still looked troubled, but at least Fili had gotten him to stop shaking.
"Come on then, we will be useless tomorrow if we both don't get some sleep." Fili said, the tiredness of his voice coming through.
"You go ahead Fili. I don't think I could fall asleep just yet. I'll be there in a bit."
After his little brother's words Fili began to shift and fidget in his seat until he found a more comfortable position. "If you are not sleeping, then I am not sleeping." He said with a huff, arms crossed, staring intently at his sibling.
Kili gawked at his brother astounded, "Fili you are the one that needs help with his tracking skills tomorrow. Uncle will kill you if you're dead on your feet! Go to bed!"
Fili sat back up and took Kili's face in his hands, looking straight into his troubled eyes. "Kili I am not going to leave you alone to deal with a nightmare by yourself. You know me better than that. If you are not going to sleep, then I am not."
Kili dropped his head to connect his and Fili's foreheads. "If you don't tell Uncle about my nightmares being back, I will try to go back to sleep." Kili whispered softly and almost pleadingly.
Fili pulled back suddenly with the surprising request. "Uncle needs to know Kili! He might be able to help you, maybe get Oin to give you something."
As he was speaking Kili started to shake his head rapidly, "No Fili, I do not want to be seen as weak! I…I don't want to worry him, please."
Fili was quiet for a while, thinking about what he should do. He knew his brother was going to be stubborn about this issue, and if he told their Uncle Kili would just hide his nightmares better, content to suffer in silence. He also knew their Uncle should know that Kili's nightmares had returned, if they wanted to help him properly.
"Alright Kili, I will not tell Uncle Thorin, under one condition."
Kili looked at his brother in confusion and gave him a hesitant nod to continue.
"You have to promise me you will tell me if you have another nightmare. I don't care if I am asleep. You wake me up, deal?"
There was rare uneasy silence that settled between the brothers as Kili though about Fili's offer. "Deal,"
Fili clapped his hands together making a sharp cracking sound echo around the deserted living quarters, "Excellent! Let's get some sleep."
Fili offered his hand to Kili who took it without pause, as he always would and the brothers made their way back to bed.
Thank you to those who have reviewed the previous posted version of this story. I have kept that one up so your reviews will not be lost. I hope you guys can bear with me as I figure out the problems I am having posting this and hopefully reposting it will fix the issue. I would love to hear what everyone thought about the first chapter. As you can see Kili is still really suffering from the events of the previous story, and soon you will see that Fili is also very troubled by it. Let me know what you think! Reviews help me update faster, so review if you want more! Thanks for reading!
