Setting: new moon

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight...or Edward cullen....depressing i know!

EdwardPOV

She lay there with beauty, her wavy brunette hair was tangled from her rolling back and forth in her bed and I could smell her strawberry shampoo from her windowsill where I sat. The last time I saw my Bella was 9 months, 2 weeks and 4 days ago. It nearly killed me to say such things to her to make her understand I had to leave…without her. I returned to the airport several times just to double check she was okay after I left. However I always knew if I went back to her I would do more than just check up on her and I had to commit to my plan of staying away.

Yet here I was. I was in her room, watching her sleep at 6:30 in the morning. Charlie had already left for work and she would be waking soon so sadly I had to leave. Just before I left I grabbed her cotton blue jersey and took it with me. It was the jersey she wore on our first date. Mmmmm I thought as I inhaled her heavenly smell on the piece of clothing. I leaped on a tree vertically across from her house so I could still keep and eye on her. In literally 5 minutes she awoke and her heart beat fastened. Ah I thought to sound of her beat. The sound was better than I remembered if that's possible. She stretched opening her mud brown eyes which made my head dizzy. Seeing her face again made me feel so incredibly human it was just not funny. I was on the verge of jumping off the tree and holding her in my arms and kissing her to death but that would just scare her sadly.

She got out of her bed with a tired look in her eyes which was ever so attractive on her but behind the tiredness was a sad depressed Bella. My heart broke, she was sad most likely due my family and I. On one side of me I wanted her to be happy here. I wanted her to have friends and a healthy safe life, maybe even as it hurt to think this a new protective boyfriend to look after her. A growl escaped my lips. However the other side of me wanted her to still want me, need me and love me and for her to never love another man.

This is why I was here, because I couldn't bare another second away from my precious love. I observed her carefully as she ate her toast and honey showing off her amazing lips as I craved to touch them. She got dressed and shut the door of her house to go to her truck. She stumbled several times being a typical Bella a chuckle escaped lips. How adorable she was. Bella got her in noisy truck and drove off to school.

She parked her loud vehicle and stepped out in the school grounds male students from all around campus called her name in my mind. Though a few literally called Bella's name. Oh of coarse how could I forget it was Mike Newton, he just never grows old does he? Jessica, Lauren, Mike, Angela, Ben, Eric and a couple new students were calling her over like she was a princess. In my case to me she was more. I watched intensely to see if she had moved on to any new men. I actually had my fingers crossed hoping she hadn't.

"Do you want to explain why your fingers are crossed?" that squeaky voice in my ear piped. Alice. "Gee Alice stalker?" I questioned. "Well Edward I may not be in love with Bella but I do love her and have been struggling to not disobey you and come visit. However seeming as though you have broken your rules I thought I could too."

She was trying to be a smart ass again. "Fair enough" I responded. However we were both silenced as we saw a new guy to the school wrap his arm around Bella's warm waist. I growled and almost jumped out the tree we were watching from to take off his head but Alice had a firm grip on my arm and I knew I couldn't do that. I watched Bella blush and gently try to push his hand away as he lowered it to her hip. Thank goodness for that, she obviously wasn't interested. I couldn't help but smile.

"Don't get to excited lover boy" Alice murmured. I ignored her jibe and continued reading this perverts mind. His name was Josh; he was smart and loved music…and Bella. Grrrr. I was interrupted by Mike fantasies of Bella and him. I think I need a bucket.