Disclaimer: No, I don't own Everwood. I know, big shock
Rating: PG for one bad word
Feedback: Appreciated, especially if you want me to go on.
Author's note: this takes place in the future, obviously. I'd say about 3 months from now.
Sorry
It was all a lie; it didn't mean anything. I wish you'd disappear; you should be the one dying
He's right in front of me, I look into his eyes but suddenly, I don't recognize him. Has he always been so distant? Was I just too blind to see it? I look at my feet, trying to process everything that has just happened. I need to sit down.
"You're going back to her?" I pray for a miracle; I'm very good at it.
"I'm sorry"
Why does it always end with an "I'm sorry"? Someone always has to be sorry. Why is that?
"Why?"
I know why. Deep down, I've always known, but you see, denial is like a second nature with me. He doesn't answer. I guess denial is something we're both guilty of.
"Just say it, dammit!"
"It's just the right thing to do. I can't leave her alone. She needs me."
"That's bullshit, Ephram, and you know it! She doesn't need you, if she did, she would have told you about the baby a long time ago."
"I'm sorry."
I want to shake him; shake him until he admits it. He wants this to be over quickly. Well, it's just too bad.
"I'm not leaving until you tell me why, Ephram."
He looks down; he knows how stubborn I am when I want to be. He sighs.
"I …I swear I didn't mean to hurt you, Amy. I care about you, I always will… But it's different with her. More real. We've decided we should give it another shot. For the baby's sake."
Have you ever felt like time had just stopped? This is the third time it's happened to me. Everything is frozen, you'd think you'd be frozen too, but no. You're still breathing, your heart is still beating. It feels like an eternity. And then you wake up.
"So it was all a lie."
He knows what I'm talking about, he always does. I don't know why I thought it meant something. He doesn't answer but I don't need him to. I was just a crush. A crush and a rebound. And he's sorry.