Trying to Survive

by Isnape24

Snape has three secrets. Can he keep these secrets for long? Will he get the help he needs for two of these secrets. Set during order of the pheniox, the begining will start out during the summer. Rated T because of language and of some latter on things.

1. Chapter 1

Trying to Survive

By: isnape24

1

Snape snuck into Grimauled Place at midnight. But he was not alone. With him he had two children. One looked to be about fifth teen or sixteen and the other, looked no less than five. The smaller child was asleep in Snape's arms while the older boy followed closely behind. They walked in silence through the house. When they had walked up what seemed like the endless flights of stairs, they reached Snape's bedroom which Sirius had reluctantly given to him. Once inside the bedroom, Snape placed the little boy carefully onto the bed trying not to wake him but the boy did not stir. The older boy however dropped down onto the couch that was in front of the fireplace. Snape walked over to the older boy and just stood there for a moment staring at him. 'Oh how he looks like a perfect cross between his mother and I.' Snape thought to himself

"Dad?" the older boy asked speaking for the first time to his father.

"Yes, son." Snape replied

"This sucks." Snape smirked and chuckled lightly at the very teenagerish reply.

"Yes son it does. But we will get through this together I promise."

"Promise?" asked the boy looking Snape directly in the eyes as if telling him to go ahead and try to lie.

"Promise. But you have to promise me something, okay?" Snape asked kneeling down so he could be at eye level with his son.

"Okay." The boy replied eyeing his father with curiosity

"Please protect your brother and yourself. I don't know what I would do with myself if I lost either of you." Snape was actually pleading with the boy.

"Of course."

"Okay good. Goodnight son." Said Snape starting to stand again

"Night Pops." Replied the teenager drowsily. Snape chuckled but was happy to see that his son was returning to his normal self.

He walked over to the bed and slid in next to his sleeping little boy. The boy seemed to sense his father and snuggled into his father's arms. Snape sighed and pulled the boy into his chest. He didn't know what he was going to do. He had a four year old and a sixteen year old. But another thought crossed his head. He realized that these two boys were the only reason that he was still here. He thanked God silently and slipped into the great black abyss of which we call sleep.

A/N: Hoped you guys liked it. Updates on these should be pretty regular as I have taken to writing them all out first instead of just typing and making them up as I go. Hope you enjoyed and thank you for reading.

-isnape24