A/N: There's something about birthdays that make me feel melancholic, especially if it's my own, I just came back from my birthday party and this popped up.

Just another day

From Fukuzawa Yumi's diary, on her birthday after Sachiko left…

Birthdays are that day when you are supposed to feel special. You get presents and have fun with your close ones but, what happens if the person you really want by your side is not there anymore?

Let's just say that it is actually a crappy feeling.

I'm Fukuzawa Yumi and today is my birthday number 'I don't remember'. Let's just say that I'm not in my twenties anymore and the clock glued to my back is ticking louder. I feel that I am in this weird race against time.

And I am fucking tired, tired of being without you.

I still remember the last birthday we spent together and it was awesome. During our first year at Lillian University and we had a lot of fun. First you served me breakfast in bed then, we took a bath together and you decided on washing my body and hair and even dared to dress me up, I felt extremely pampered and my blush didn't erase from my cheeks for the entire day.

Later, you walked me to class and after I was done, you were there waiting for me with a single Chinensis rose. We had lunch together in our favorite café and, due to the fact that we didn't have classes in the afternoon, we went to the movies and watched that anime you weren't very fond of but you wanted to please me.

I felt like the freaking Cinderella.

After that, we walked in the park and enjoyed the cool weather and the earthy smell. I did enjoy the falling leaves so much that we actually had a leaf fight and you looked so carefree that my heart skipped a beat just to seeing you this content.

We were so silly and in love, those were really good times.

Sigh.

What I didn't know was that you asked Rei-sama to teach you how to bake so I was really surprised when you decided on baking a triple layer chocolate cake.

I really thought that I was going to die by chocolate or your sweetness, actually maybe because of both. Oh, and don't get me started on what we did with the extra icing.

You might die of envy or arousal. Actually, mostly envy.

The gift you made me was also sweet and unexpected. You made a drawing of us sleeping while cuddling. The way you captured our peaceful smiles was so realistic, that I felt inside those blankets while you held me tight and the first signs of the morning filtered through the curtains of our room.

If you ask me the whole thing was just pure bliss.

But there's no such thing as perfection because that was the last birthday we spent after your father took you away from me. After that, all my birthdays turned to be just another day where my age count increased and my will to live lessened dramatically.

Today is just another day but the only difference is that when I see a triple layer chocolate cake, I sigh wishing it was you who baked it for me once more.

Every birthday I unconsciously wish you come back to me and make my soul whole and my heart beat for you. Wherever you are, I still hope that you remember our birthdays together and smile for the both of us because I can't fucking smile anymore.

I just hope that I could stop seeing my birthdays like just another day without you, Ogasawara Sachiko because I fucking miss you so much, my lost love.