Title: Maybe Someday
Category: TV Shows ยป Tomorrow People, 2013
Author: anonyreaderfan
Language: English, Rating: Rated: K
Genre: General
Published: 05-04-14, Updated: 05-04-14
Chapters: 1, Words: 638
Chapter 1: Chapter 1
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Disclaimer: The Tomorrow People is the property of the CW. No copyright infringement is intended.
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A huge missing piece in the Tomorrow People has been the lack of reaction to the stripping of John's powers. I've written reactions for Russell and John, but Stephen should have shown some emotion. This story is set during Episode 21. I'm not sure I can get Stephen right. I have the least empathy for him of all the characters so Stephen fans feel free to criticize. I never have a problem with someone disagreeing with me.
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What do I say?
I want to say I'm sorry. Wish he hadn't suffered. I practice speaking the words, trying different combinations, but it sounds so lame. Like when you go to a wake and say 'Sorry for your loss'. Everyone says the same crap, and it ends up meaning nothing. Cause when I think about it, it was a death of sorts, and we should have had a wake. We should have come to pay our respects to the part of him that died.
The really hard thing is that my family played such a big part in that loss. My family used him. I thought it was just my uncle. My bad Uncle Jedikiah. But it was my father too. My Father! His idol. Whatya say to someone when they've been used their entire life?
And what did my dad say? 'Sorry, John.' I wanted to speak up. Wanted to scream at him. That's all you can say? His life has been hell for six years, and you say sorry. My uncle and my father. They think the slate's wiped clean because John's no longer a murderer. That's it. He's okay now. I want to ask what's wrong with them, but there's more important things to do. A world to save. A war to win.
I can't drive a wedge between my father and myself. I have my mother to think about. Luca. I need to bury the anger, the disappointment down deep inside. We need to stay united, work together.
There's my guilt here too. I need to come to terms with it and right now I can't. He did it for my dad. He did it so my father wouldn't destroy millions of people. So Roger, the savior of our species, could fulfill the promise he represents. He did it to save his family . . . the Tomorrow People. And it's all my fault. I trusted Hilary. Like an idiot, I let her seduce me. Let her blind me. I should have known it was a trap. It should have been me that stepped up that day.
And I slept with his girlfriend. The love of his life. I drove a wedge between them. I tell myself I didn't really know him then. That I fell hard. Dazzled by her beauty. By her strength. By the connection we felt. I don't . . . I will never regret loving her, but I regret what our love did to him.
He got over it. Helped me all he could. I could never have gotten my father back without him. If I had a big brother, I'd want it to be him.
I can barely meet his eye. I avoid being alone with him. I try not to think about him, and what he's going through. It hurts too much.
Maybe, someday I can find the right words. Maybe, someday I can tell him that I appreciate what he did for us. For our people. Maybe, someday I can apologize for what me and my family did to him, and it can have meaning.
Maybe, someday. But not today. The words are just . . . words. So I say nothing.
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