Prologue

By: gone.disappearing

A/N I do not own any of Stephanie Meyers characters or the book or anything. Tho I really wish did. Or even to meet Stephanie Meyer. That would be great. So hopefully this story will work out.

Summary/ a bit of A/N I was thinking what if BELLA blamed EDWARD for LEAVING. And was MAD because of it. She got changed. When she was changed her personality ALTERED. She became HATEFUL and UNCARING. Where did the loving Bella go? Will she ever re-surface?

Bellas POV

He had left again. Edward had gone. He left a week ago yesterday. I missed him, I was crying every night before I slept and every morning before school. Though never cried in front of Charlie. I assumed I had gone back to what I was like when Edward had left for the first time, empty and like the walking dead. (for what we humans would consider it, I already knew the real walking dead.) Charlie seemed worried again and had tried to encourage me to do a lot. Go see Jacob and so on, I already knew though that Jacob wouldn't see me. He was still mad that I had chose Edward and not him. Charlie didn't know about that.

I was always in my room and wandering out to My Meadow. ( I refused to call it Edwards Meadow any longer.) I couldn't manage to say his name any more. Whenever I heard his name I burst to tears. Renee tried to take me to Jacksonville but I wouldn't let her. I know Edward left for good, but maybe he would come back. Maybe he would feel bad, and come back. I hated him now, he had left me behind for 'my own good' I missed him but I hated him too. He broke my heart and I hated him for it. He broke a promise and I no longer trusted him either.

Flashback

"Bella we need to talk." He had said. For the second time in a long time Edward was parked in Charlie's space. Earlier that day he asked to come over to my house, but he refused to say why.

For the second time he lead me into the forest behind Charlies house. I felt worried. What happened? My head was filling with questions and when he stopped, he looked at me with a stare I had wished never to see again. My stomach did flip-flops.

I looked at him. My beautiful Edward. How could someone so beautiful be so cruel?

"Why?" I asked.

"It's time." He had answered. I was not content with this answer.

"Edward don't. Please don't. I cant live without you. At least take me with you if you wont change me." I burst to tears. No he couldn't I hadn't done anything. I swear I hadn't.

"Please Edward don't leave me again. I…love you Edward I love you soo much. You can t leave." I was holding his arms now. I was not about to let go.

"Oh Bella." He said his voice soothing. I looked up. He kissed me and it was the same type of kiss that he had given me when he left those times before.

"NO" I screamed as he let go of me and ran off. I ran after him knowing full well I wouldn't be able to catch up, that didn't stop me. I kept running until I was lost. He was gone, My beloved Edward was gone.

End of flashback

I started crying. I always cried.

School was out. It was a long weekend; we had Monday off it was 'family day'. I decided to go to My Meadow and spend some time alone. School had been horrible I kept looking for Edward even though I knew he wasn't there. In gym I had been partners with Mike and we were playing badminton again. I attempted to hit the birdie and at the same time so did Mike our rackets tangled and fell to the floor. Everyone had heard them and looked at us. Unfortunately Mike was on top of me and it looked like we had been making out. Which obviously we hadn't, Everyone was looking at us for the rest of class and my face kept its blush.

When school was over I was mad and got in the truck and drove to My Meadow.

I finally arrived. This time was a record. I had only lost my way one time. Usually it was three or four. I walked to my tree and sat down in the shade. The sun and all the walking I was sweating. I relaxed and just sat there that's when I heard a noise. It was a rustle and when I turned I was face to face with a red eyed vampire.

Victoria.

A/N ok so is this good so far. I mean this is only the Prologue and all but I will update as often as possible. I also have another story called A Happyish Ending. Its good too. So if you can review that would be wonderful. Thanks guys. 333333333 luv ya.