Dedicated to Brittany Leigh Lake
My bff and my sister
Deadly Pain
A pain so deep nobody can imagine
A pain so real it tears me up inside
A longing so confusing
I just don't know what to do
just don't know what to do.
A father who could care less
if I'm alive or dead
A mother who hates me
cause I'm a "screw up"
Siblings who it just wouldn't make a difference to
It just wouldn't make a difference.
So I struggle through another day of pain
so bitter sweet
Each night I lay my head down to sleep
Not really wanting to be alive
But not wanting to die so young
A painful past and a painful present
Can only guess what is to come
So tired of living, so tired of this pain
I just want to end it all and forget it all
It seems theres nothing left in this life to gain
I have this pain that is so very deep
This pain that is so real
I just hope someday that you all realize
What exactly you all fucking lead me to
I will always remember the hell this fucking family put me through
The tears, the fights, you fucking lies
Forever embedded in my head
I hope you're all happy
Now that I truly am not
You will never know the fucking hell
You people put me through
Yet you have the nerve to say you love me.
Please, who do you fucking think your kidding
Only yourselves.
So remember me for I will not be back
And remember I don't love you too.
Written for her on a night she didn't want to live on. I love my friend, no wait she's my sister. I just hope she gets the chance to read what I decided to write.
Love,
Felicia