Okay, so Lily and James are going to come in later in the story (they'll first appear in about the 5th or 6th chapter) and that's why they're the characters, this story will include their relationship straight out of Hogwarts and their marriage. Sorry if that confused you but I couldn't think of any other characters to have it as. Enjoy.

Becoming Existent- Chapter 1

There is nothing. I am lying in nothing, truth be told I can't be entirely sure if I'm lying at all, I could be sitting or standing, leaning or crouching etcetera etcetera. I don't even know if I'm actually here or if I'm just a lonely spirit wandering the lands hoping to come across something, anything that will help me get back to my former state. I don't know how I came to be here or how, if ever, I will escape this conscious yet unconscious state that I have found myself in. Have I just woken up? Or does my mind forget what I have thought prior every few seconds, minutes hours or days, like a reset button which I subconsciously press at a certain time interval. How long have I been here in this place so barren and full of nothingness? I try and open my eyes, to see if this place is just the darkness where the sun does not reach behind my eye lids. It is not. I realise that I cannot move, I attempt to twist and turn but it seems that something is holding me down; something is preventing me from the use of my limbs. My muscles are not under my control, they are not my own but rather like a television that's been put on stand by, still wanting to work but being forced not to.

Then, suddenly a excruciating pain infiltrates my system, it's pure agony like each of my muscles, my limbs anything attached in the slightest to my nerves system is being stabbed repetitively with white hot iron rods. Crude blunt weapons which don't slice cleanly but more tear a huge gaping hole in my very existence, I open my mouth in an attempt to scream, trying to rid my system of this pain but no sound emerges from my lips. The pain increasing and I see a light, not like the soft light at the end of the tunnel, nor the welcoming light into heaven, both of those I would have much rather endured, but this light, no, this light was screaming at me, making it's presence clear, I try to shut my eyes, to get some relief from this terrible demon but I can retrieve no such pleasure. It burns me, it's intruding into my mind, into that space in my head where no-one else has been and should ever go. The place that is all mine, my deepest darkest secrets, the one's that I've never told anyone. The light is taking over, I attempt to scream again, this time with more avail, a piercing sound comes from my mouth, one which I didn't even know that I was capable of creating. The light retreats, it seems to take me with it, but I don't want to leave, to go into the unknown however it's clear that I have little choice in the matter.

"I think that I just saw her move, I'm sure of it Tracey, did you see anything Dorcas?" An annoying voice with an American twang says quickly, I can hear but see nothing. "No Barbra, she didn't move, the sensors would have picked it up." Another voice, English accent I think, speaks up from my right.

To see if I can move I try to lift my arm, I manage to but simultaneously two things happen. One, pain shoots through my arm like electrical volts causing me to wince and squeeze my eyes shut and two, a sound like a car alarm goes off right above my head. Trying to ignore the pain I slowly lift my hands to cover my ears in a pathetic attempt to block out some of the invading noise.

"She's awake!" The annoying American to my left screams.

I can't stand the darkness any longer, my eyes snap open and I take in what I see before me.

I'm lying on a plain white bed which I recognise as one in a hospital, people in white coats are surrounding me, one of them reaches up and presses a button which turns off the alarm. They're all talking at once so I can't make out what any of them are saying. A women, quite plump with sandy brown hair makes her way towards my bed, she's dressed in normal clothes, a red hoodie and faded blue jeans. I'd say that she's about 48. She hugs me and I flinch away,

"Honey? What's wrong?" She asks beaming, I recognise her as the English one.

I don't reply, who is this woman?

"Jenny? Can you hear me?" One of the women in the white coats asks me. I nod.

"Great, okay honey, do you think that you can talk to us?" I shake my head.

"Okay that's fine, don't worry about it. Now, do you know who this woman is?"

"Of course she knows who I am I'm her-" The woman in normal clothes starts but when I shake my head she stops talking. "What?! But she's my baby! My Jen-Jen, why can't she remember? Why?!" The woman starts to scream and tears leak out of the corner of her eyes.

"I'm sorry Dorcas, she might take some time." The woman in white says.

Then I realise, I do not know who any of the people in this room are, I do not know where I am, but most importantly I do not know who I am, I search in my mind for something, anything that will give me some indication of me of who I am or who I once was. But there is nothing, my mind freezes, who am I if I cannot remember anything of my existence? What do I do?

I scream and the world once again goes black.

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