"I-I…what?" I took a step back, shocked.
"Look, I'm sorry Tess, but this just isn't going to work. I don't like you. At all" Each word shot out of Ethan's mouth and hit me like a dagger in the gut.
"But...what about all those time we spent together? We had so much fun. Right?" I asked, not able to process the words he was speaking.
"I'm sorry, but it's over. Goodbye"
I stood there, completely and utterly shocked. I couldn't move, even though I longed to run after him and beg him to stay, but I knew that was stupid and childish. Maybe that's why he hated me. Because I was too young and immature for him. He needed someone older and smarter. Or maybe he just thought I was ugly. Whatever. It didn't really matter. I just wish he had done this months ago, instead of letting me think he really loved me for eight months.
And now he was gone. I probably wouldn't even see him again. I mean, he transferred to a different school just to get away from me! Well, technically he didn't say that exactly…but I know it's true. He just hates me that much.
The tears were flowing silently down my cheeks. I still stood absolutely still, which is a good thing because if I walked I'd probably fall because my vision was getting blurry.
He hates me. He really, truly hates me. He doesn't love me, he doesn't even like me. He hates me.
But I love him.
Suddenly there was a pain in my stomach so intense that I gasped in anguish and fell to the ground. It was the same pain I felt every time I thought about my parents, so I knew what to do. I curled up into a ball and tried to stop crying until eventually I got enough strength to stand back up. Thank god I was at the park where no one would see me.
I raced back to my house, running faster than I thought I could. The wind made my eyes burn, but I kept going. Two blocks, turn left, three blocks, turn right, up the pathway, unlock the door, up the stairs, down the hall, threw the door, arrive at bed and commence crying into my fluffy red pillow.
I must have fallen asleep, because the next thing I knew, I was squinting through the window at the setting sun. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. I went to the window to watch the sky, something I did every night. The night sky was just so beautiful. All the colors as the sun disappears, and then finally darkness and mysterious faraway stars.
After I had gazed out the window for about ten minutes, admiring the natural beauty, I sighed and began to turn around to go back to bed. I had only turned about two inches when…