An: I hope ya like it! My first Vampire Knight Fic! I am a Zero and Yuki fan! I hate Kaname. Please enjoy! My wonderful beta didn't look this one over so I hope it is decent…
Monster, how should I feel?
"Why would Zero do this to me? I trusted him…and he took advantage of that..."
For the umpteenth time I sobbed into my pillow. "How could he?! He was my best friend….."
Creatures lie here looking through the windows.
I turned to look at Kaname who was perched outside my window on a tree branch I told him to leave but he's still here.
All I can do is think….think about what he did to me…
Flashback
I had been reading a book at the time, 50 shades of gray, when Zero suddenly threw my door open.
I didn't have any time to react before he hit me over the head and dragged me off.
I woke up in a cage, alcohol bottles littered the floor.
That night he caged her bruised and broke her.
I observed my surroundings it appeared I was in a basement/torture room of some kind.
"Why would Zero bring me here?"
"I s-see your awake Y-Yuki." Zero came out of the shadows smiling widely. He hiccupped.
"Why am I here?" I ask him trying not to sound scared.
"Because…I have plans for you Cross. I won't let h-him have you." He sneered.
"What? Who are you talking about?" I was becoming more terrified by the moment.
"The blood sucker! Kaname! I won't let him take you away from me! Your mine! Mine!"
"Okay first of all Zero, Kaname doesn't own me. Second of all you don't either!" I spat.
How I managed to keep up my tough act was beyond me.
"You are mine." He staggered to the cage and unlocked it.
I thought I was home free, boy was I wrong…
For the second time that night he knocked me out unconscious.
I woke up naked and chained to a bed.
Violet wrists and then her ankles
Tears instantly found their way to my eyes when I saw the lust filled eyes of Zero scanning my body.
I had the urge to cover myself but I couldn't. "Zero please don't do this."
"If you won't let me have you, I will take you!"
He started to remove his clothes. "Yuki you will be mine!"
He climbed on top of me and stole a kiss.
My first kiss….
His little whispers "Love me, love me that's all I ask for
love me, love me."
"Yuki all I want, all I ever wanted was your affection. Can't I have that?!" He made a trail of kissed and bites down my neck.
"Please Zero! Stop this!" I implored. "I'll do anything just not this!"
"Yuki…This is all I want. Now and forever your innocence will be enough for me…"
He struggled closer then he stole her.
I cried in pain as he forced himself inside of me.
He thrusted violently with no remorse.
Silent Pain
I will no longer give him the satisfaction of knowing he broke me.
Then he slowly saw their nightmares were his dreams
He moaned my name when he came, his hot seed shooting deep inside me.
"I love you."
"I hate you!" I spat in his face.
He chuckled. "You don't mean that Yu-Chan."
"How dare he call me that after he robbed me of something so special it can never be replaced?!"
He battered his tiny fists to feel something wondered what it's like to touch and feel something
I banged on his chest with all my might "I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!"
"Love you too, Yu-Chan. Goodnight." He closed his eyes not even bothering to pull out of me.
"You are sick! I hope you die." I couldn't hold my eyes open anymore and the calming sensation of sleep over came me.
End flashback.
"Now….I'm-I'm pregnant with his child! How will I be able to look into his eyes, Zero's eyes and tell my son or daughter I love him or her? It's unfair to the child to be mistreated just because its father was a fucking psycho!"
I rubbed my growing stomach in smooth circular motions. "A piece of him is growing inside me and I can't even bring myself to kill it or give it away…..This poor child never even had a chance to have a fair life…."
I sniffled. "I don't want to relive it but the memories won't go away!"
I hated this. Feeling sorry for myself and wallowing in my own self-pity. How pathetic. The old Yuki would never do such a thing but I, I am nothing but a shell of what use to be me, Yuki Cross.
No. I will be strong for this baby! I will do everything for it and love her or him like a mother should! Yes. I won't let him rob my baby as well. If it is a boy I will make sure he will be more of a man then he ever will be, if it's a girl she will be smart and beautiful and undependent on men.
I may have loved Zero if he didn't do this to me….I had grown to love him….but, I don't know if those feelings are gone.
I know I shouldn't love him….Like him. Or even think of him…..I should hate him but, I don't know if I can…
Monster, how should I feel? Turn the sheets down
Murder ears with pillow lace. There's bath tubs full of glow flies. Bathe in kerosene. Their words tattooed in his veins, yeah!
An: Review and tell me what you thought! I kinda scrambled the lyrics a bit to fit my story sowy…..I don't own Vampire Knight if I did Kaname would be slaughtered. I also don't own this song if I did I wouldn't be broke…..Lol again REVIEW!