"Girlfriend"
By: megaman784/(Squall)
Note: I do not own Re: Zero.
Chapter I: Subaru~kyun!
"This story takes place in Crusch Karsten's manor when Subaru goes there to get healed"
*Subaru's bedroom*
Subaru: "I can't sleep…" said Subaru while sat on the bed's edge and rubbed his eyes.
Indeed, it's been days since the last time Subaru had a proper sleep.
He's had the same dream for several days, and that dream doesn't let him sleep.
Subaru: "Emilia… I… I can't do this to her. She's the reason I came here to get healed, I want to get stronger to be able to stand by Emilia's side as her knight, but… AGH! I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT ANYMORE! WHAT DOES THIS DREAM MEAN!?"
Subaru started screaming in frustration and confusion.
He had come to Crusch's manor to get healed and train to become a knight, just so he could be with Emilia.
But recently this dream started making him feel doubtful.
He started doubting about many things, his feelings for Emilia, his reasons to train and become stronger and, more importantly, his reason to… live.
Subaru had devoted himself and his life to Emilia.
He wanted more than anything else to protect her and to be with her, even if that meant he had to die over and over again just to see her smile once.
For Subaru, one of Emilia's smiles was worth a thousand painful and gruesome deaths.
But now, all those feelings and thoughts were in doubt thanks to this dream.
Subaru: "I can't take this anymore…"
Subaru started crying and covered his face with both his hands.
Subaru: "Come on, Subaru… now's not the time to cry." He said between sighs and groans.
He calmed down a little, dried his tears and tried to comfort himself.
Subaru: "Rem would surely kick my ass if she saw me crying like a baby like this. But this dream… it's just driving me crazy. I love Emilia, but also, it seems I'm in love with someone else… I'm so confused… These doubts have to stop… I need to talk to them right now." Subaru reassured himself and resolved to go talk to the person that had been the cause of his dreams.
Subaru left his room and walked down the hallway towards that person's bedroom.
He briefly considered if he should wake Rem up to ask for her advice before proceeding but quickly ditched those thoughts away.
He didn't want anyone but that person to know about this.
After walking for a little while, Subaru arrived at that person's bedroom door which he knocked.
?: "Mmm, who is it? It's late!"
Subaru: "Open the door please, it's important."
?: "Eh? Yawn, okay."
That person got up and opened the door letting the moonlight filtering through the windows illuminate them.
Ferris: "Huh? Subaru~kyun! Ferris pounced on Subaru and hugged him tightly happy to see him despite the late hour.
Subaru: "E-eh Ferris please stop" Subaru put Ferris back on the floor and looked him straight to his eyes.
Subaru: "Listen please, we need to talk"
Ferris: "About what?" Ferris felt Subaru's gaze on him and kept his joy under control to let him speak.
Subaru: "F-Ferris, I…" Subaru felt unsure for a moment.
Ferris: "What's wrong, Subaru~kyun?" Ferris asked tilting his head to one side.
Subaru took a deep breath.
Subaru: "Ferris, I… I've been dreaming about you lately."
To be continued.