"I l…" Rose started. She swallowed, took a deep breath and continued, saying the words she'd been waiting ages to say, "I love you."
"Quite right too," a sad smile appeared on the Doctors face, "and I suppose, if there's one last chance to say it, Rose Tyler…"
His image disappeared. "I love you," He whispered, letting the words spill over his lips. A single tear ran down the side of his face. He let it drop, not caring that he was crying over something so moving. He banged his fist on the table and cried out in anger, because he was so sad to have finally lost her, and because of the pain rushing up his arm. However, that was nothing compared to the pain in his heart.
He wiped the ever pouring tears, now streaming down his cheeks, on his sleeve. He walked to Rose's bedroom door and his hand lingered on the door knob. He eventually plucked up the courage and twisted the door handle. The door opened to reveal her room. He stepped in side and stood in the middle staring all around him.
He had only been in her room a few times, but never long enough to appreciate all the pinkness. The walls were hot pink and the carpet was deep red with a pink rose in the middle. On one side of the room was her bed, a wooden frame with pink roses as bed knobs and a pink duvet cover with a red rose in the middle. Also on that side was a bedside table with a small pink lamp and hair and beauty products strewn all over it. On another side was a red door which he guessed led to a bathroom of some sort. A cupboard and a desk where on another side. On the desk were some papers and, as the Doctor walked towards it and got close enough to see, a pink fluffy diary. His hand hovered over it, but he took it away, knowing that it was private.
He left her room and went to his bathroom and had a cold shower. He stood shivering under it for over half an hour, just trying to get Rose's face out of his mind.
He didn't sleep at all that night. He was kept awake by Rose's distraught face and how lonely she looked. He was missing her like hell and he'd only been away from her for a few hours, it had been a whole year for her. He needed her next to him, her warmth. He loved her and there was nothing he could do about it, nothing!
The next morning he got up, made a cup of extra strong coffee, and sat in his usually place. Tears came to his eyes as he looked at where Rose used to sit. That was it, he needed to forget her and the only way to do that was to get rid of everything she owned.
The doctor knew that the TARDIS could get rid of al Rose's stuff in a second, but he wanted to do it himself, as a last goodbye, you could say. He got a big cardboard box and went to her room. He put her clothes in it (he kept her favourite jacket as a reminder of her). He walked over to her desk and put the papers in, stories from when they were travelling and she got bored, letters from her family and photos, one of Jackie and Pete on their wedding day all those years ago, one of Rose and the Doctor, a recent one of Jackie, another one of the doctor, and one of Mickey. Finally, her diary. He slowly picked it up and opened it to the first page.
Rose Tyler
2006 Diary
Keep Out!
He ignored the warning and opened it at a random page.
Dear Diary
I love him! I love him so much!
The words made the Doctor jump and he had to sit down on the bed to stop him from falling over.
I wish he would love me back. It's so difficult, especially living with him. When ever I see his sexy grin, or his ruffled hair, I just want to catch his lips in mine and pull him into a romantic kiss. Why is life so difficult? Whenever I touch him I feel sparks through my body and I want that all the time but more! I neeeeeeed him! Oh god, why can't I have him, my doctor. Right, that's it. I've decided to tell him!
Dear Diary
I couldn't do it. He was so sweet and happy and we were having such a good time and I didn't want to ruin the mood. I can't tell him. What if he sends me home because he doesn't love me and it's to akward? I couldn't deal with that! He hugged me once or twice and it was complete torture! I needed more. How can I tell him? I wish you could give me the answers but you're just a stupid book. God help me! I will tell him, sometime I'll tell him.
The doctor slammed the book shut. He angrily wiped away his tears and threw the book into the box. He was never going to look at it again. I brought too much pain. As he did that a piece of paper floated out. It was a photo of him, grinning at the camera. She had drawn a heart around his face in red felt tip and had written 'I love him' and 'Mrs Who' over and over again around his face. He ripped it in half and threw it in the bin. He had to forget her.
Suddenly the TARDIS jolted madly, throwing the doctor to the other side of the room, and landed. The Doctor steadied him self on Rose's desk and walked out of her room and towards the double doors of the TARDIS. He opened them and gasped.
A/N He he! A cliffhanger, I wonder where he could be? This is a two part fanfic, and I will hopefully be updating soon! Please R&R.