Disclaimer: I do not own SaiYuki or anything about it….I do own almost all the dvd's…two more to complete the series! Oh, and this awesome poster of Hakkai that is taped to the ceiling right over where my head is, so every time I wake up I see his smiling sexy face and hot ass body! o

A/N: I got this story idea after reading a lot of SaiYuki stories with Gojyo/Hakkai pairing…. All of them had them love each other secretly, then one tells the other and they make love and all is happy…ALL OF THEM WHERE LIKE THAT! I read like 10 of them! I got bored while reading one of them and had this idea….I hope you all enjoy it and like it.

Also I hope it becomes a success! .

I swear I put this story up already, but I think I might of deleted it…Oh well..sigh Oh, maybe I only put this up on AFF…Maybe…Enjoy

A Pain in the Heart

Hakkai just sat there, staring at the sleeping form on the bed opposite of his. They had come to the town late at night and where lucky to of found this inn. The town was very small and he was surprised to even find a inn.

Though they had found the inn, there were only two available rooms, which was no worry for the group. They were use to bunking with each other. Hakkai was with Gojyo, Sanzo with Goku.

A soft sigh escaped the human turned demon as he laid down on the bed he occupied. His eyes couldn't astray from the half-breed for to long. This was the only time he could stare at him without being caught. He longed for the days were he could maybe look without fear of being paranoid if someone was watching him.

Running his long fingers through his brown locks he only smiled. He closed his eyes, hiding his emerald orbs, and slowly fell into a deep slumber.

It was around eight in the morning when Hakkai awoke to the banging at the door. Slowly sitting up he heard groaning from across the room.

"Come on you two! Get up! Sanzo isn't going to order anything without you two down stairs! Get off your asses and get down here!" a very annoyed and hungry monkey yelled from outside of the room. Hakkai only smiled, getting up from the bed.

"Yeah, yeah. God help us if we want a little more time to sleep you stupid monkey," Gojyo yelled back to Goku, who muttered something. He was obviously to hungry to fight back at this moment for they went to bed without supper last night.

Hakkai started to rummage in his pack, pulling out clean clothes to wear after a quick shower. As he headed for the attached bathroom, he looked Gojyo right in the eyes and smiled. As he shut the door, he set the clothes down and turned on the hot water and sighed.

A real smile forming across his face.

Gojyo quickly changed and headed for the door out of the room. He looked back at the door to the bathroom and tilted his head. He shrugged and slammed his hands in his pockets before leaving for the stairs, leaving the door wide open.

Down in the diner area, he saw Goku lying across the table drooling. A sweat drop formed on Gojyo's head as he took a spot next to the monk. Sanzo grunted as Gojyo let out a loud moan practically in his ear.

It wasn't until five minutes passed when Hakkai strode his way into the room, taking a seat between Sanzo and Goku. At this, Goku got off the table and cheered, yelling for the waitress.

"Sorry for making you wait long Goku, I guess I sort of over slept," Hakkai said calmly as Sanzo started to order for the group.

"Nah, it's okay Hakkai. You were driving non stop yesterday, I would of over slept to if I were in your position," Goku said as he saw the waitress go into the kitchen.

Hakkai smiled, and looked at the other two. Sanzo was reading the paper, which always confused him. He never cared for the world around him really, so why read the paper? Shrugging it off, he looked at Gojyo, who was leaning back in his chair, eyeing the waitress as she came from the kitchen and walked over to the table next to theirs.

Sighing, Hakkai frowned as he looked down at his folded hands resting on the table. Hakuryu came from out of nowhere practically and landed on Hakkai's shoulders, kuu-ing softly in his ear. The dragon seemed tired and out of it. "Why don't I take you back to our room to rest for a little longer. I bet you would like that wouldn't you." he said to his friend as he got up. "I'll be right back," he quietly added to his friends before heading for the room.

He laid the white dragon down on the made bed he slept on, watching it curl up and close it's eyes. He stoked its head before walking to the door of the room. He looked back one last time at the dragon before he left, closing the door behind him.

He took his time going to the others, and when he got there the food had just arrived. Putting on a smile, he sat down and watched as Goku and Gojyo started to fight over the food set down for the four. Curses were heard and people stared at the table, but the other three men didn't seem to notice, or even care at that.

Taking a fair portion of the food, Hakkai started to nibble on some eggs, but he didn't really feel like eating right now. His mind was set on his dream guy. He knew it wouldn't work out, though, but he still had to dream.

Though they seemed like opposites, he being calm, collective, caring, self-less, the other rude, selfish, messy, he couldn't help it. Opposites do attract.

By the time the table as filled with empty plates, and curses and food stopped flying everywhere, Hakkai had only managed to take one real bite full of his food. This caused Sanzo to raise an eyebrow. Though Hakkai was not known for being a big eater, he still ate a reasonable size meal each time they ate.

"You feeling all right Hakkai?" the monk asked, folding his paper down, looking at his green eyed companion. Hakkai looked up from his plate, smiled, and nodded. He didn't feel like talking a lot, so he excused himself and walked to the room.

Opening the door, he saw Hakuryu right where he had left him before, peacefully sleeping. He decided not to disturb his dragon, so he instead left and headed into town for a walk.

The town was smaller than he had thought it was when he pulled up into it last night. It was lifeless, but peace full none the less.

He sat down on a bench located near a small grassy section in the middle of the town. Not a lot of people where out and about, not that it was bothering. It had been awhile since they went into a small town like this one. Usually there were people scurrying about in other towns they were at by now.

Hakkai had no shopping needed to be done, which he was thankful for. From his little walk around he only found one food store, and it was closed until noon. Knowing Sanzo, they would be on the rode my ten.

As he looked aimlessly at the morning sky, Hakkai couldn't help but smile as he thought of, and imagined a smile of the face of Gojyo. His nicotine addicted friend was the only one he truly cared for, other than his dead sister. He thought he could never love again, that is until he was taken in by Gojyo that night.

He was just scared of one thing: being denied. Knowing far to well what would happen if he was pushed away. The thought of it happening made his eyes start to water, and his smile disappear.

"Yo," came a voice, breaking him away from his train of thoughts. Hakkai looked over to see his half-breed friend sit beside him.

"Hello," was all Hakkai could muster up, placing a small smile on his lips before looking down to the ground.

"You sure you are okay man? You barely touched your food," the concerned Gojyo asked, looked and the face of his friend.

"Yeah, I am fine. No need to worry about me. I am just not hungry this morning, that is all," Hakkai reassured, looking up.

Gojyo shrugged, grabbing a packet of smokes from his pocket and taking one out. Putting it between his lips he lit it and took a drag out of it. "Peace full town we came across. Not big, but still good." he muttered, blowing out smoke.

Hakkai silently agreed with him, his face calm as if he never thought of his friend as anything more but a friend.

The only true thing holding him back from telling his true feeling to Gojyo was the pain his heart would endure if Gojyo felt not of him the way he feels for him.

Taking in one last drag, Gojyo got up, pulling Hakkai up long with him. "Time to go. Sanzo sent me to find you. So, now that I got you, lets go," he said while dragging him down the street in the direction of the towns inn.

End of Chapter

Well, that's it for this chapter. I hope you like it, and I L-O-V-E love feedback! 0 Until next time! Good-bye!

Eww….While righting the end of this chapter I heard chewing sounds and squishes….Then I looked around to find my cat chewing on a dead bird she brought in from outside…. .