The last time we kissed

Its been 2 years since you left and I still remember every little thing that you used to do.

We were just two teenagers that believed were in love. I remember the time you asked me to be your girlfriend. It was 1:58 AM and you were throwing pebbles at my window. I thought you were being crazy. You then climbed all the way to my window, while I yelled at you to get to get off before you broke something. But I still let you in. you took my hand and led me to my bed and took my hands in yours and lean down and whisper in my ear if I wanted to be your girlfriend, you didn't even give me a chance to answer when you started to whisper sweet little things. Why would you do that I asked myself when you already knew I would gladly say yes.

And know I ask myself what did I do wrong for you to forget your promise to me.

I remember the smell of the rain that July 9th that you came to pick me up at the airport when I went on summer break to visit my mother to Africa. I jumped out of the plane and straight into your arms. I could feel your beating heart through your wet shirt. I can still feel your arms hugging me tightly with the warmth I missed so much.

And know I'm sitting in the floor of my cold and lonely room wearing one of your old shirts. And I ask myself how could I be something you could miss.

I really never thought that we would ever have a last kiss. Never even imagined that we'd end like this. Your names is still and will always be the last name on my lips.

I still remember the swing in your step. You were always the life of the party, how in the world did a guy like you like a girl like me. Your were always showing off to your friends. Those football friend of your s that never really got why you dated a nerdy girl like me. I remember that time you begged me to go with you to one of your cool friend's party. And like I couldn't say no to your puppy dog face I ended going to the party that changed everything for us.

You were always a great dancer and you always liked to show off when you were around me. I wold always roll my eyes at you cause you were always so cocky and so sure of yourself. And you would pull me in to dance with you even when you knew that I did't like to dance. But for you I always did.

I absolutely loved the way you gave my father that strong and confident handshake the first time you met him. I loved the way you used to walk with your hands in your pockets. And how you kissed me when I was in the middle of saying something. Oh how I miss those rude interruptions.

And now I'm sitting in the floor of my cold and lonely room. Wearing that shirt that I always loved. I never thought we would ever have our last kiss and I ask myself how could I be something you missed. Your name forever the name on my lips.

Since you left I have watched your life through pictures like I used to watch to sleep when you would sneak into my room just to sleep. And I felt you forget about me like I used to feel you breathe. I still talk to Trish and Dez just to know how you are doing in your crazy popstar life. There's only so much a picture could tell you. And I really hope its nice wherever you are.

Wherever you are I hope that sun shines and that you have a beautiful day. And that something reminds you of me and makes you wished you had stayed. You can plan for a change in weather and time but I never planned on you changing your mind.

And now im sitting on the floor wearing your old clothes. And I don't know how to be something youll miss. I never thought we would have our last kiss or end like we did. Your name will forever be the name on my lips.