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Just as I suspected he's waiting for me, sitting on
the sofa clutching his favourite book and smiling as I enter the
room. He stands up and walks over to me, his eyes confronting mine,
demanding answers.
"Where did you go?... Did you see him?"
he asks, and I can't lie, not to him. Those eyes of his know me
better than I know myself and they can see right through me, a trait
I have gathered he got from his father.
"Yeah I saw him..."
"Did he...?" he doesnt finish this
question and I know why, he already knows the answer and it breaks
his heart everytime he even so much as thinks it "... You miss
him don't you?"
"I miss him alot... but we can't... It didn't
work with us, it was just too hard" I tell him and I know that
his gaze can be unforgiving at times but right here in this moment,
talking about this subject I know he'll never forgive me for what I
did.
"Maybe if everything in life was so easy it
wouldn't be worth living..." These words shock me, coming form
his mouth as I realise that maybe they're not so different after
all, maybe I have tried to convince myself that they would be, that
it would be different with him. They certainly think alike. I
remember talking to Jack a few months ago and those words... those
exact words had come from his mouth.
Flashback
"I can't come back Jack... we can't... It
won't work..." I tell him watching as the tears fall freely
down his face echoing the movements upon my own.
"I can't do this without you... We can't... We
made a mistake, I made a mistake Kate... please, don't go again..."
"I have to... It's too hard..."
"Life is supposed to be hard Kate, if it were
easy... then maybe it wouldn't be worth living... stay... please"
" I have to go, He'll be wondering where I
am..."
End Flashback
It always ended this way with us, me telling him
that I had to leave, and him begging me not to go. I know he wanted
what I couldn't give him... they both did. They both wanted
something that I couldn't deliver, and the irony of it all was that
they both wanted the exact same thing. To be together.
I lower myself to my knees and open up my arms, as he
fills the space I have created. His shoulder length brown hair
brushes agaist my face, drying the tears I have shed whilst
remembering... and those intense brown eyes that he inherited from
his father look at me once more.
"When can I go home mommy... when can I see
daddy again?"
"When daddy gets better sweetie... I
promise..."
"I miss him...I really do..."
"I know baby... he misses you too..."
I clsoe my eyes and hold him to my chest and pray
that he realises what he is doing, I look out of the window and wish
upon that last star that shines in the night sky. The same wishes I
make everynight since we left. I wish that Jack realises what he's
missing out on, I wish that his son gets to know his father and I
wish that we could all go back... to when life was simpler, to when
he was mine.
