Chapter 1: Non-Entity

A/N: This was inspired by a series of Nine inch nails songs.

Alice POV

I sink my teeth into her neck, against the rough wall, outside the loud booming nightclub. I drink her sweet blood, drain her from everything she has. Her scent just intrigues me to drink faster and deepen my fangs. My grip on her arms, holding her in place. I wasn't planning to kill her tonight but this is driving me insane. I haven't fed on a human in years I should have known once I started I wouldn't be able to stop.

I needed this bad, I was sick and tired of dull deer blood. Once I feel her heartbeat stop I lick the rest of the remaining blood off her neck and let go of her arms she slides down and I watch. I can see my reflection from her dying eyes and I can see my eyes aren't golden brown anymore. They are back to newborn red. So I hurry and walk away from the mirror in her dead eyes.

I look up at sky and wonder where my life went.

The sky is not the same shade of blue

I left my love Jasper I left my brothers my sister my parents, my family and Bella. But I do remember why I left.

Every single thing I believe isn't true

It was jealousy that drove me away. Bella with her alluring scent and her pale skin that I beg to feel against my own. She found Edward instead of me she chose him instead of me. Jasper, made me happy but not as happy as I wanted to be. The kind of happy I felt with Bella is what I wanted and needed and she was the only one that could give it to me.

A month ago I met Bella she was in the front of the school in the bare parking lot. She was in her thin brown jacket, hugging herself to keep her own warmth. Her chattering teeth and shivering skin. I kept my distance, sitting in my cold car as I watched through my window. Edward, Jasper, Emmett, and Rosalie were already in school.

I finally got out of the car when she looked towards the school doors. I walked towards her with as much confidence as I could show. That's when it happened she fucking looked at me. Her chocolate brown eyes filled with curiosity. My golden brown eyes trying to find away to get closer.

"Your name?" I ask, losing half of my confidence that I started off before I spoke.

"Bella, you?" Her voice asked with just as much curiosity still in her eyes.

"Alice" I said with a side smile.

The next day I already found out that she was going out with my brother Edward. That's when the jealousy started.

Each day she would be over at my house just to see him but we became friends. When Edward always had to hunt with the boys. Bella hung out with me since Rosalie hated her. I never got why. I kissed Bella one night in my room. I remember being aroused by her scent filling the room. I remember pinning her hands against the wall. But I didn't remember ever being that violent with someone ever since I got over my newborn stage.

I kissed her and she kissed back I almost corrupted her but time has always been a issue. Edward had got back and I left just in time.

Missing in the maze of monochrome

I used hunting as a excuse of getting away. Bella always acted as if nothing ever happened. I always brought it up but she always acted dumb. So I got tired of it and left, left them permanently.

Now I am here walking away from the hundredth person I have drained ever since being gone from my home. I am free but sometimes I like to be held in place, Bella did just that. Jasper just lets me boss him around and I don't like that. I don't like having too much control. But now I have got used to it.

How did I get here, how can I go home

That one kiss that I got to steal from Bella could be my last. I want to steal Edward's place though I want to get through to her.

I lick the remaining blood away from my lips and walk towards somewhere unknown. Some people might say I have made a mess of myself. Some other people might dig this new attitude and look upon life. The only thing that matters is I have never felt so alive and strong.

The echoes in my eyes, of all they used to see
Burning down the world, the ashes and debris
And all that's left to me, non-entity

I walk because there is no use for a temporary home. I am a vampire I run free I don't listen to the authority. I have no fucking authority. I am my own I control myself. But sometimes I miss Bella's sexy flirty demands when I have to get on my knees and follow. And have her rub me in any place. Maybe it's just a fantasy. But I could have made it come true if I was given enough time.

I walk to some remote place with just the birds chirping to the rising sun. I just sit in a tree and watch my skin turns into crystals at the sight. Like Edward said its the skin of a killer.

Try to stand the line, try to obey
The ghost of what I was keep getting in the way
Staring at the sun, I'm blinded by the light
Now I'm afraid I'm fading out of sight

I will hunt when it turns night again but until then I will sit in this tree and wait for the sun to fade away. And fantasize about Bella's body against mine.

The echoes in my eyes, of all they used to see
Burning down the world, the ashes and debris
And all that's left of you, and all that's left of me
All have washed away, non-entity