Goodbye
Quite the shame, that it to be this way. It's not enough to say I'm sorry. It's not enough is it?
It's been five years since I've last seen you. I've moved on; I'm stronger now… I think.
I'm alive, but I've lost all of my drive. I can't do anything anymore. I thought I could go back but I couldn't. I tried, but failed. So now I'm quitting. For good.
Cause everything we've been through, and everything about you. Was it all a lie? It seems that way to me. I can't remember anything anymore. All I ever did was my best, and where did that get me? Here- a place in which I can't see anything. A place in which I can't hear anything. It's cold. It's dark. It's quiet. And it's not just the dirty, dusty room i'm in. It's the memories. I try to remember the good, but all I see is our memories.
Our memories… it's all a lie. A guiltless, twisted lie. It made me learn to hate you now. You brought me up to break me down.
I hate you.. or do I hate myself for letting you letting pass by?
All I can do now is look back on the lies.
Our lies. Our memories. And all I can say now is goodbye.
We're better off this way.
I said I'm stronger now right? I have good friends that will help me through. I don't need it anymore. And I don't need you anymore. You're nothing but a memory to me now. A lie to me.
I pause. I look around this room. It's still cold. It still remind me of you. I feel nothing. Yet this moisture is falling down.
Is it raining? That's impossible, we're indoors and yet it keeps falling down. I cover my face to prevent myself from getting more wet.
And yet it keeps pouring.
I'm sorry..
I'm sorry...
I'm sorry.
All I can say is sorry. Please come back to me. Please!
Tear it out. Take my pain away. Please…
I don't want to say goodbye. I want to see you again. I want to hear you again.
Tear out this pain. Tell me I was wrong.
Anything.
Silence. It's all I can hear and it's all I've been hearing since you left me. It's still raining.
It still hurts.
It's so quiet, now matter how hard I try to release my emotion.
It's so cold, just like the harsh winter we were having.
And there's nothing that will tear this pain out.
At least it's nearing the end of this cold season and the news forecasted that this year's spring will be warmer than last year's.
End.
Author's Note: This story isn't all that it seems to be. Try rereading it again if you don't get it the first time. Let me know in the reviews if you saw through me!
This is my first fanfiction that's not a PokeSpe one so I'm quite excited lol.
This is my small little practice run after a long hiatus so give me your best impressions on this guys!
I apologize for the spacing lol.
Many thanks to John Vesely and many thanks to Naoshi Arakawa.
Disclaimer: I do not own Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso/Your Lie in April.
For those of you that were lazy: Kousei didn't meet Kaori yet.