Hey fanfiction! Im back! I wanted to put out a new story idea and this is the first chapter and it WILL continue if y'all like it! It only took about two hours to finish this chapter so it may not be perfect. This takes place some time in New Moon hope you enjoy!

Bella's POV

I don't want to hurt myself anymore over a guy that hurt me. I was risking my life every day just to hear his voice. For what? Just the constant reminder that he wasn't there? Just to be reminded every stinking day that he left me and he didn't want me anymore. So I canceled my plans to cliff dive. He just wasn't worth all the attention that I was giving him. I think by hurting myself I was only showing him how much I needed him. Well I'm sick of needing him, I have Jake now I guess. If you consider the fact that Jake is out being Mr. Macho Wolf Man every day. I know that it seems selfish but I wish that he wasn't a werewolf. I wish that he could just be human. Just my friend Jake again. I think I really needed a friend now to distract me, from Edward. I flinched at the thought of the name. It had so much pain behind the name, it brought back so many unresolved feelings. If I could go to a shrink for all of this I would but what would I say to them? My vampire boyfriend left me saying that he didn't love me anymore? How crazy would that make me sound. If I said that they would probably make me get some major testing done.

I considered going back to Angela or Ben many times but I couldn't find it in my heart to do so. I didn't even know if they wanted me back. I was so cruel to them just abandoning them. I think I abandoned my friends when I most needed companionship. But I had to fix my life. I had to regain friends and stop being this freakizoid lifeless zombie. I needed friends even if they couldn't replace my old best friend. Alice Cullen . I missed Alice and every time I would pick up the phone and dial her number just to hear the operator say that the number was out of service. I know why they left but why couldn't at least Alice stay in contact? It seriously hurt me to hear that she didn't even give me the goodbye I deserved. I felt like trash that was just dumped on the side of the road to be carried away. I wish that it was Alice that was here to pick up the pieces. She always be the only one that would have the faintest idea of the pain her cruel boyfriend placed upon me. I guess I would have to settle with Angela. She was practical ad sensible and maybe we would have some fun. I guess.

I tried calling Jake on the hours that he didn't have patrol but he was sleeping. He was always sleeping or hanging out with the pack. I felt as if when he became a werewolf I was pushed to the side and sometimes even forgotten about. I didn't know if he was avoiding me or not because a part of me wanted to believe that he cared but another part of me didn't believe that. After Alice, Jake was my best friend and it kind of was like a stab in the back to know that everyone I loved was being taken away from me. Jake, Alice, Edward, Carlise, Esme, Jasper, Emmett and even Rosalie if she was in a good mood. I was broken out of my train of thought when Charlie burst into the kitchen.
" Bella your mom is on the phone do you want to talk to her?" He asked sadend. I nodded and took the phone out of his meaty hands.
" Hi Mom." I greeted her trying to fake bliss in my voice. For my mom I would try to make her happy.
" Hey Bella I need to ask you a question." She said her voice happier then normal.
" Shoot" I told her not at all interested.
" I know that you only stayed in Forks for Edward and since Edward has left I wanted you to consider coming to move back to Phoenix with me in a couple of weeks." She said rambling nervously.I looked at Charlie and he nodded his head as if he was letting me go by force.
" I guess I will mom." I sighed giving in to her

" Oh come on baby be happy. I think this will be good for you I can hear how unhappy you are." She said.
" OK mom goodbye I love you. " I told her hanging up. I walked up to my dad that now looked very depressed at my future departure. I hugged him.
" I'm sorry dad this is just something I have to do." I told him hugging him tighter.
" I know I just hate to see you go. I like having you around." He told me.
" I like being around. Can I spend the summer here?" I asked.
" Anytime Bells."

I was a little excited to go see my mom but the hard part was going to be telling Jake that I was planning to leave. That was if in fact he cared if I left at all. My dad had told me that I should tell Jake tonight at a big cookout in La Push that we were invited too. I felt a little uneasy going . I wasn't the packs favorite person and I wasn't sure that anyone even liked me down there. Not even Billy. But I guess the good part out of that was that no one would try to beg me to stay. I was leaving town in two weeks and that was that. Me and my dad made our way to the truck and I sat in the passenger seat as he took the wheel. He put the key in the ignition and started to drive.
" Bella how are you gonna tell Jake you are leaving?" He asked the dreaded question.
" I'm just going to flat out say it." I told him trying to avoid any details at all.
" Poor kid he's going to miss you so much." He said sympathetically.
" I wouldn't worry dad. Jake wont care that much." I told him as much as I wanted it to be a lie it wasn't.
" I'm sure he'll miss you a lot Bella" He said to me almost certain.
" He's grown apart from me dad. He has his new friends and I just don't fall under his category of most important people anymore." I whispered pained. My dad looked at me with a curious eye but did not speak anymore of it.

We reached the house and there were many cars parked in front of the Clearwaters back yard. I recognized some of the faces there but not many. There was Embry the guy who had a HUGE crush on me. Quil who had now turned. Jared the jokester standing next to the ferocious Paul. Then there was Jake who had a root-beer in one hand and was talking to Sam. I looked at him and suddenly had this huge flashback of the past. The days when he was human and we would make bikes together or I would chase him around threatening to brush that long hair of his. But that was all over now. He had important responsibilities complete and I was drafted out of his life. I was about to sit at a table with a bunch of girls my age when they gave me a nasty glare. I figured I wasn't welcome there so I sat in the corner of the yard that was barren. The corner of the yard had a huge Oak tree that had branches that you could climb all over. I climbed up to the fifth one and just sat there looking at everyone bellow me. The girls were gossiping, the guys were pulling pranks on each other and the old people were sitting back and recalling old times. Then there was me watching all these people. I wish that I was one of them. I wish that I could just fit in and be myself again. I wish that I had friends and I wish that Edward Cullen had never came into my life. Sure I loved him but I don't think I will ever be able to recover from the emotional damage he placed on me.

I sat on the tree for the rest of the party. It lasted about seven hours. I just sat there and watched Jake laugh with all his friends. I watched him smile. I suddenly wished that I was the one that was making him smile. That I could be part of his life again. But I knew that Arizona was the place for me to go. I needed to be with my mom and Phil and away from this place that brought back horrid memories. I saw my dad from far away and he motioned me to come to the car. Another sign for he was tierd, lazy and he wanted to go to sleep. I climbed down from the tree and walked over to my dad. I couldn't see Jake as I walked through the crowd. Maybe he left and was on patrol.
" Ready to go kiddo?" He asked me.
" Um sure." I responded to stuck in my own little world to care. As I hopped in the car I saw Jake leaning against his Rabbit and talking to Embry. As my dad started the car Jake's eyes connected with mine. He looked at me and smiled and when I didn't really smile back he frowned. My dad pulled out of the parking lot and my phone was buzzing like crazy.
BELLA YOU WERE AT THE COOKOUT? he text

YEAH I text back WHATS UP? He text.
NOTHING MUCH IM JUST GOING HOME TO START PACKING I told him wanting to make this as painless as humanly possible.
WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO STAY AT A FRIENDS OR SOMETHING? He asked

NO I'M MOVING IN TWO WEEKS I text. I waited and waited for a reply but got none. As we pulled into the parking lot I felt guilty like I had committed some crime. My dad looked at me.
" Whats wrong Bella?" He asked.
" Nothing. I just text Jake telling him that I was moving and he didn't reply." I told him.
" Why didnt you tell him at the party?" He asked concerned.
" I just couldn't do it dad. I couldn't tell him in person that I was moving. It hurt to much." I told him. He nodded sympathetically and helped me get out of the car like I was four again.

I went inside the house and prepared my dad some left over pizza that was sitting in our fridge. I tried watching TV but I felt like I was going to cry so I made my way slowly upstairs. I gasped as I walked in my room to find that Jake was sitting on my bed with his bare back facing me. I turned to walk away but he spoke.
" Why didnt you tell me sooner?" He asked still facing away from me.
" How could I Jake? Your always on patrol or sleeping or hanging out with your pack. I have been completely phased out of your life lately!" I told him now getting mad.
" Bella look Im sorry but when you think of it, it hasn't been so long since we've last talked. Its only been what a week?" He asked now turning me. He looked depressed but I was too infuriated to even care.
" Try a month Jake! Ive been phased out of your life. You don't have room for me anymore. I cared enough to call every day on your cell phone but do you know what? You never freakin cared enough to call back!" I yelled not caring what Charlie heard. Jake looked guilty and tried to hug me but I refused.
" What did you want Jake? Why did you even bother coming to talk to me?" I asked ticked off.
" I wanted to convince you to stay." He said in a tone that was unrecognizable it was almost hopeful but it was also sad.
" Jake there is no way I can stay. There's nothing for me in Forks anymore." I told him.
" Theres me!" He suggested convincingly.
" Yeah there's you. You want me here but you don't even pick up your phone to call me. You want me here but you never have time to see me. It seems like your so selfish that you only want me here to say just to be here." I told him. He hugged me and I tried to break away but I just couldn't find enough strength in my body to do so. I clutched on to him this time as he stroked my hair and I cried into his chest.
" I know that I haven't been there for you and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm the worst friend in the world. But I promise you that I will not leave you without saying goodbye." He told me. His voice was so convincing that I believed him on the spot. But only did I know that Jake was the least of my problems to come.

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