In all my life I was optimistic. In all my life I have though that after some time he will understand my feelings, he will acknowledge me and maybe some day, some very happy for me day he will say that he cares about me. No, not love. Just care. Because his heart was broken long ago when he was just a kid. Now when I see him I understand that there isn't even a piece of his once broken heart and he don't care and he wouldn't. He liked his life just like how it is- cold, lonely, full with hatred. He don't want to care, he never did. For him I am just a weak girl with who he is stuck in one team. I always though that after the war he will stop think for me like that. But I was wrong. He didn't. Now actually is worse than before. He don't even talk with me, he even don't grunt in return of my "Good morning, Sasuke-kun" He don't even look at me. At the beginning Iwas thinking that is because he fell guilty, you know because he tried to kill me. Twice. But never mind. I just wanted to be that old team 7 again. I just cut my dreams about happy family with him. All I was wanting was my teammate again. So to break the ice with him I invited him for ramen. He didn't say nothing, but I knew that he heard me. I waited there two hours but he didn't came. When the next day I asked him why, he spoke to me after three years silent " I won't lose my time with you" and the went somewhere. In this moment , in this cold moment my heart broke apart. It hurt more than his rejections when I was twelve. More than his leaving, his betrayal. Because then I understood that for him I am no part of his life, no part of his team. But the most shocking day for me , the most painful was the day when I saw him with team Taka or Hebi or whatever it is. In that day I saw him to talk with that girl Karin. He was telling her something and she was absorbing every word. Then I saw me and Sasuke-kun at twelve. In this day I understood one more thing. I haven't lost my lover, because he never had one. I have lost more precious thing. I have lost my teammate. When Naruto asked me what is wrong I just told him "Nothing. I'm okey" and I put my most bright false smile. But when I went home in my room, where I was alone I cried for first time in five years. And I cried for my lost teammate. For my lost team.