Heyloooo xD Here's something I thought of when I was reading Eclipse again. :P THIS IS FOR ALL YOU TEAM JACOB OR JACOB&BELLA FANS OUT THERE! :D Though I thought of this when I was reading Eclipse, this takes place in New Moon in Bella's POV :) (If you didn't get the summary, Bella decides against jumping off the cliff)

PS The first 2 lines of this 5shot, in this chappy, is LITERALLY from New Moon before Bella jumps. Go find it ;)

Disclaimer: I'm not Stephenie Meyer; she doesn't write with this much smileys xD

Well, why not? Why not quench it right now? Jacob promised me cliff diving, hadn't he? Just because he was unavailable, should I have to give up the distraction I needed so badly?…

No! the left over bits of my sanity screamed. Don't do it Bella, sanity shouted. Why not? I asked quietly. Think about Charlie, Renee and Jacob. Would they allow you to do this alone? sanity asked. But I want – no NEED – the distraction! I yelled in my head. Sanity tried to comfort me, Don't worry. When Jacob comes, you'll see – him – again…

As you can see sanity convinced me.

I sighed at myself since I let sanity win. I drove away from the road up the cliff before I really did something stupid. I drove up the Black's drive way and I could see Billy at the door anxious. Stopping the engine I got out and went over to him.

"What's wrong Billy?" I asked innocently.

He sighed, "Emily called me a few minutes ago with some sad news." My expression must have told him to go on. "It's Harry Clearwater. He had a heart attack." He sighed again. "I'm waiting for Em to drive me to the hospital."

Oh. My. God.

"Oh no! It'll be okay Billy," I tried to comfort him. It failed since he looked down with sad eyes. I sighed. "Would you like me to drop you off to Emily's place or the hospital?" I asked.

He looked up and shook his head with a small smile. "It's okay Bella; Emily's on her way. Thanks for the offer though…" he trailed off.

I waited with him for 5 minutes when Emily came down the road. Once she parked her minivan next to mine, I helped her put Billy in the van.

Once they were both in the van I looked through the windows and hoped, "He'll be okay. I hope so…"

Emily nodded with a smile and dismissed Billy and herself.

As they drove off sanity came inside my head once again. See? Aren't you glad that you didn't jump the cliff now? If you had, and something terrible happened, Charlie would be all alone… I shook my head. What? Now I have 2 voices in my head?! At least one voice was one I liked. This new sanity voice thing was annoying the hell outta me.

Instead of going back to the beach I stayed at the Blacks' place. It was quite. Super quiet since my delusions and sanity didn't bother me. I tried to watch TV to no avail. (All the shows were soaps about rich, snobby people's love lives…)

Walking over to the kitchen for food I stopped looking at the fridge. Tens, no, it seemed like hundreds of pictures were stacked upon each other. There was one of Jacob's sisters, Rachel and Rebecca when they were (probably around) 10. There was one of a cute little 5-year-old Jake Black. There was one of Billy when he was younger and not in his wheelchair. I sifted through a few pictures and felt something was missing though I couldn't be quite sure of it. I looked through more pictures of family meetings, photos of being with the rest of the tribe and of course candid captures. Underneath all the pictures though, there was 2 that caught my eye. The one on the left was one of the entire family: Billy, Rachel, Rebecca, Jake and his mom. The one beside it was just a solo of Mrs. Black. I wondered why these beautiful photos were underneath all the other ones. Once I asked myself that, I suddenly knew the answer. So this was what was missing. Mrs. Black died; I didn't know how or why, but she did. The others didn't want to acknowledge that by seeing these pictures.

Sighing again, I finally thanked my sanity for not letting me jump that stupid cliff. If I had, I would not only be hurting my parents but Jacob too. He was part of me and I was part of him. It would be terrible for him if something bad happened to me. I didn't want Jacob to hurt that way.

Sanity chuckled with pride to my annoyance. Then I heard the door creak open.

Who would come here now? I was sure Billy was still at the hospital. A thief? I wondered randomly. Startled, I looked for something to use as a defense. I grabbed the first thing I saw not even acknowledging what the heck I picked up. I tiptoed to the front with my unknown weapon high in the air. Soon as I saw Jake at the door and I dropped my hand an inch.

"Bella?" Jake asked.

I sighed in relief, "Oh. Hi Jake. Sorry, thought you were someone else." I giggled.

He laughed louder. "Uh Bella? What are you doing with a banana?" he asked eyeing my now known weapon.

After staring at the banana, I looked down and flushed with embarrassment. "Oh. So this is my weapon. Wonderful," I muttered.

"Weapon?" Jake chuckled again. He took a step towards me and took the banana out my hand. I saw his expression; he wondered why I had a banana.

Giggling again, I answered, "I heard the door open and I thought it was someone dangerous… I thought it was a thief so I grabbed something for defense… Apparently it was a banana," I confessed.

Jacob laughed at my theory. "Nice one Bells."

Soon he peeled open the banana and ate the fruit.

4 more chappies to go! :)

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