Hey eveyrone, my name is Jessi and this is my first fanfic story. I've been a member since 2008 but never submitted a story. im a total Channy fan and really want to keep them alive. So here it is for all you Channy lovers. Enjoy! ;)

Indulgences of a Blind Boy

Chapter One: King of Nothing

Chad's POV

I think I'm getting sick.

I looked around the commissary not really searching for anything. I took a step closer on the lunch line and promptly leaned back onto the counter.

My nose was stuffy and I could feel my face was flushed and trust, red is not complimenting on me.

I guess this is what I get for my whole dramatic stunt yesterday.

*Flashback*

Sonny stormed into the commissary with the ugliest look on her face.

"Chad Dylan Cooper!"

I turned from my steak and looked up at her' disgusted.

"That's my name. Don't wear it out."

"I don't understand you," she crossed her arms and scowled at me," how can you honestly believe that you can go around with your big ego and talk crap about me?"

She rested her pale hands on the table and leaned forward.

"Oh, she dropped the C word on you, Cooper," Portlyn whispered.

"Shut up, Portlyn," I hissed and shot up from my chair, "Look Monroe, can't you get a life and let me enjoy my steak in peace?"

I was practically in her face, leaning over the table like her. She picked up the tray and dropped it on the floor with a loud clank, "What steak?"

I felt myself losing control; a warm sensation took over my body as I flipped the table over.

"I have every right to say whatever about whomever to whomever!"

Sonny was on the floor, legs underneath the table I had thrown and looked up at me, her brown eyes unreadable.

"Get off your high horse, Chad. You're not King of anything," she said in a monotone voice.

The loud silence of the room and the piercing stares reminded me of where I was…what I had just done. They were all watching me, like when they watch Mackenzie Falls. They wondered my next move, my motive. The only difference was that this was reality.

Sonny struggled to get up, her leg bruised from the table. The audience was probably hoping that I would reach my hand out to her, which was what I was contemplating. They want everything to end in a happily ever after Chad, I thought, they want it to be perfect- like you. Before I could step closer to give Sonny a hand, Portlyn shuffled from my side and pushed past me to help Sonny.

The stares stung every part of my body…I knew what they were thinking. I could already imagine the title of next Tween Weekly's issue: Chad Dylan Cooper also shoves innocent girls.

As the thoughts flooded my pounding head, I muffled an apology and ran out of the building and into the rain. I kept running, hoping I could run away from all my problems – all the things I couldn't say.

"Chad!"

I turned and squinted through my wet lashes to see Portlyn running over to me. I couldn't tell whether or not she was angry or just disappointed. But the slap along my face was pretty clear: it was both.

"What the hell is your problem? That girl in there has nothing to do with your problems so stop tangling her in it! Sonny doesn't deserve it and frankly, neither do you."

Stunned, I watched Portlyn run back to the door, "Stay out here for all I care. I hope you get sick."

She shut the door on her way in and I just could manage to move my feet, not to go forward or backwards. I stood there in that moment forever.

*End of Flashback*

I snorted; I guess she got what she wanted.

"Chad," Brenda exclaimed with a hint of loathing, snapping me back into the present.

I gave her my award winning smile despite my despair, "So what's on the menu for me today?"

She took my tray with a scowl and mischeviously smiled causing me to smile. I guess it was something good.

"A whole lot of mush."

And with that she plopped a greenish brownish mush onto my plate and gagged.

I handed it to the person behind me and walked out the café with pace; I needed to leave ASAP.

So what did you guys think? don't worry the next chapter will have plenty of Channy. i think i'll update tomorrow so stick around. And please im begging you guys, please review about anything i just need some motivation lol.

Thanks a bunch, Peace out Suckhas

love ya all

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