Title: The Way You Treat Me
Author: Alyssa_Anime_Angel
Rating: R for Violence, Swearing and Abuse
Warnings: Do not read if you are offended by any of these things.
DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY VIOLENCE, SWEARING AND ABUSE.
Disclaimer: I don't own yugioh nor any of its characters however I do own this story and I would like to point out that I am not making any money off this fic, so don't sue!
Alyssa: Anything else to add…yes this is very angsty and I am the leader of the Ryou fangirls so in your reviews realize that I love Ryou more than any of you and I do not like hurting him but I decided to write this as it fits a lot in with the series and people seem to be sickly attracted to abusive fanfics. Me not so much but hey I am writing one so I cant complain.
Yami Bakura: And that's if you get any reviews.
Alyssa: Why you!!!!!! *steam pours out of ears*
A giggling is heard in the background.
Alyssa: It look like the other major part of my personality is getting it on with Ryou…Kindra has to be the nicest one doesn't she.
Yami Bakura: Well I like you being evil.
Alyssa: Oh Yami Baky you're so sweet.
Yami Bakura: *Kisses Alyssa*
Chapter 1
They didn't care about him. He was only there because his Yami had wanted him on the island. Even after he had saved them, he wasn't apart of their group. They didn't even call him by his first name, they were so impersonal with him that he cried himself to sleep at night because of the loneliness. He tried to put these feelings of doubt and hurt at the back of his mind but they wouldn't go away. He could feel the evil coming back, drawn from the graveyard by his pain and negative attitudes. The others didn't notice, how could they when he wasn't one of them. They didn't care…They Didn't CARE!!!
"Bakura? Are you all right?" asked Yugi after Joey's battle with Kaiba. He had lost terribly and Yugi hadn't noticed Ryou's quite demeanor as he had been focused on Joey's depression at the lose and humiliation.
"Yes I'm fine, I am just been really tired, I didn't sleep at all in the card, now I do but I haven't caught up with my rest."
"Oh okay…"
"Hey Yug, You had better get some rest," said Tristan from his sleeping position.
"We had better sleep, night Bakura." And with that Yugi layed down on the ground to sleep.
"Night Yugi," Ryou sighed as the small boy who was supposed to be his friend was already asleep.
Ryou dried the tears in his eyes and layed down to rest against an old tree. The blackness claiming him as soon as his head hit the pillow.
They hate you, all of them
No they don't, they're my friends, Ryou cried unconvincingly.
They do they hate you, they will turn on you and leave you, as has everyone in your life. Would they really care if you died, left them. They would be glad, glad that you would be gone, out of there way and not trying to fit into a group that doesn't want you. Nobody wants you…except me
Ryou shook his head trying to rid his head of the voice, You're wrong, You are
You don't sound so sure, maybe you need some convincing?
Ryou froze and the tears stopped, instead a haunted look came to his eyes for he knew what was coming. Pain exploded all through his body and he screamed trying to stop the pain. It was too much and he ran falling to the ground just as the pain subsided. He rolled over and looked up and saw something fall at impossible speeds towards him. He tried to move but he was frozen. The thing fell and impacted…
Ryou sat up to the light glaring in his eyes. His whole body ached and he crawled into a little ball trying to make the pain go away. He saw that the others were stirring so he forced himself to ignore the pain. He saw that Joey was waking and he pretended to be asleep.
"Everybody Wake Up."
Joey's yelling had gotten everyone up and Ryou tried to be sociable even though he wanted to sink down and die. He put on an inquisitive look, though he didn't know why he bothered.
"What's up Joey?"
"Oh nothin's wrong its just a brand new day of the tournament.
"Well ya don't have to yell about it," said Tristan.
"Hey guys what's all the commotion?" asked Tea who joined the group.
Ryou phased out thinking about his dream. The dream…the voice…so familiar…but is he right? He hurts me, or is me hurting myself.
Something flashed across his vision and he looked down at the page.
"Huh, hnnn."
Ryou realized it was from Mai when Tristan said, "Kiss those chips goodbye."
You're just the fifth wheel to them, why should they care about you?
?
You see the truth don't you, that I am the only one who needs you. Will they ever need you? No! How could they when you aren't even their friend. They don't speak to you much and only let you stay with them cause they feel pity for you. You are worthless in their eyes. I NEED you and I will do 'anything' to make you see that. You will beg me to take you back, you worthless piece of shit
Ryou had even realized that he had finished packing when the voice left. He hated the voice, for he felt that it was right.
"Okay then move out."
They started to walk and the voice came back.
They all hate you, can't you feel it, you invade into their little group, they hate that they cant tell you to get lost. They're like everyone else in your life, nobody wanted to be you friend, you mother left you and your father is always away cause he despises having to spend any time with you
It's not true…mummy…
Yes she left you, she died because she had had enough of you and your pathetic behaviour
Ryou snapped out of it when he saw they had entered the wood.
"I feel today is going to be a good day," said Joey.
Ryou knew he had to hide from them, though he really wanted their help, but what if the voice was right, he didn't want to burden them, so he put on his poker face and involved himself in the conversation, "I wonder how many duelists there are left on the island."
Joey replied, "They shipped a couple dozen home yesterday."
"And I bet even more have been eliminated by now."
Ryou phased out again.
Don't you think if they cared they would notice and try and help?
It doesn't matter, I need them
Stop being pathetic, you wimp and start to realize the only one who will ever have a mutual relationship with you is me
You hate me too
No, I just hate how pathetic you are. I could never harm you. It's your friends that harm you. By making you be worthless in their eyes you seek to injure yourself as you feel worthless, a nothing
They are nice
They hate you
No they don't
They hate you
They couldn't
They do
They do?
Yes how could they not hate you when they don't understand you, they have never forgiven you for capturing you
It wasn't me
They don't believe that sap story
They hate me
Yes, now you must play along and pretend to be normal, don't ever let them know, for they will think you will turn on them, be wary because they will hurt you if they find out and then you will hurt yourself
"Did you hear that, I think were being followed."
"I think you're getting a little paranoid Joey."
Pretend to be the same boy they never knew, they are too busy with their selfish desires to care about you
You will be there with me?
Of course but don't fail me
Ryou felt an immense pain in his head like his blood was on fire, he refused to show it on the outside though.
You hurt me
Never they do, its their hate that makes you feel pain
"To stalk them!"
Ryou came out of it and saw Joey run off.
They searched for a while and saw the others get worried about their friend.
See they worry about him when he goes missing for a while and they can't even sense your pain, now act normal
What would I do normally?
Ryou said, "Okay lets split up and try to find them."
Ryou got paired off with Tristan and they went on their way to find the group member.
He doesn't even want to interact with you, how could he, the great big bully
How could anyone
You're right, he hates you because of what you are like. I am the only one who understands you, surrender to my will and you will never be hurt again
No more pain?
No
But what if it's not worth it
You mean you would not give up everything to not feel pain again, perhaps you need a reminder
Pain soared through Ryou's body and he screamed in his head. His body bent over in the real world and Ryou couldn't take it but he managed to retain his consciousness.
"Hey Bakura you okay," Tristan asked coming back to check on him. It had taken him a while to realize Ryou wasn't following him.
"Yeah fine just need a breather," said a rather harsh and deeper than normal voice.
Ryou stood up properly and there was no sign of pain.
"Okay then?"
"Go ahead without me and I'll catch up."
"Okay."
Tristan didn't bother to inquire any more and went ahead.
Yami Bakura let Ryou take control back from him and settled into his soul room.
Go ahead and remember they will hurt you if you don't put up your barriers
Okay
Ryou took control and started to walk to catch up with Tristan.
Ryou finally caught up and saw Tea and Tristan looking at something. Yugi walked with him to meet them.
"Joey would never be careless enough to lose that, his sister means more to him than anything. This is starting to smell like foul play."
"Look over there."
Tea pointed to a dark and dank looking cave.
"A cave? I don't like the look of this," Tristan had to point out the obvious.
"Neither do I."
Ryou followed everyone as they entered the cave.
Don't let on! Don't let on! Don't let on!
I wont!
If you do pain will come
I know that I am worthless so I don't want to burden them with me, and I don't want pain. I won't tell
Good now act normal
"What is this place?"
Ryou saw the two coffins in front of them and walked up to them with Tea thinking that this is probably what he would do.
"Be careful could be some kind of trap."
He isn't really speaking to you, only his friend Tea, not to you, open it
"Whats up with these coffins?"
"Beats me, who'd leave em just standing here?"
"Yeah."
"I wouldn't touch those guys."
"Be careful."
"Don't be silly, its just a wooden…"
Ryou went to open the coffin but found it was already opening.
They creaked open and inside everyone saw the skeletons. The skeletons fell on Ryou and Tea and they ran around in a circle screaming. Ryou was terrified as he could see that this was probably his fate, to die alone.
Tristan punched the skeleton off of Ryou and Yugi did the same to the one on Tea.
"That Pegasus sure has a sick sense of humor."
"You said it Tristan. I think we should start to run now, I have a feeling Joey is in trouble."
"Okay then."
The group started to run but hadn't realized Ryou wasn't with them until they stopped for a breath.
They forgot about you again, how could they remember someone so pathetic, all you are is a burden
You don't have to keep on reminding me
Ryou sniffled and stood up against the wall where a skeleton fell on him. He screamed and started to run.
He ran the way the others had run and heard Tristan yell out, "Bakura this way."
"Ahhhhhhhhhh help me."
Everyone yelled when they saw him coming towards them.
"Help get this thing off of me."
They run from you, cant even try to help you do they
Finally the thing was off him and Tristan said, "From now on no picking up hitchhikers."
He's annoyed at you for being such a pathetic idiot
"You gave us all quite a scare Bakura."
Ryou felt so terrible so he apologized, "I'm sorry." Yugi didn't even notice the sadness in his voice.
Act normal, DON'T LET ON, DO YOU HERE ME!!!
Yes
You don't want anymore pain
"Which way do we go now?"
"Gee both ways look so inviting."
Ryou let out a fake laugh though nobody noticed how fake it was.
"Yeah well if Joey got invited down one of these tunnels, we need to figure out which one."
"Tristan's right we need to find Joey now," said Yugi.
"Yeah," said Tristan, Tea and Ryou.
Ryou was feeling the pain from before and he didn't look where he was putting his feet when he stood up.
"Ahhh Hey my foot?"
Everyone heard a strange sound echoing form one of the tunnels.
"What is that sound?"
"I stepped on a switch or something."
"Quiet now."
"Oh," said Ryou after being reprimanded.
"Listen now the sounds getting louder," said Tristan.
"I think it's coming this way."
"Yeah but what's coming this way?" said Yugi.
"uh…oh dear…uh?"
They saw the boulder careering for them and they screamed and ran.
"Do hurry."
"Why is that boulder chasing us?" demanded Tea.
"Cause we're down hill."
Ryou whimpered, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
Yes you should be sorry you worthless piece of shit. Now you are gonna pay for that
Ryou felt his leg freeze up and he fell to the ground. His friends just kept on running and he felt the 'boulder' run over him. He was shocked by everyone's actions. He just wanted to lay down and die.
After a while the others came and Tea bent down to him, "Are you okay Bakura."
He couldn't hear any concern in her voice though as he had put up barriers against any amotion towards him.
Ryou picked himself up and they finally made it to the arena where Joey was battling.
You please me, you have finally blocked off the pain they give you, now you are all mine
What do you mean?
We can protect each other
I want…that Ryou was almost crying, he felt as though this was the first time anyone wanted to protect him. Of course it wasn't true but Yami Bakura had purged his memory of all the kind moments in his life.
Yami Bakura finally materialized in Ryou's soul room. Ryou reeled from the figure and said, You
Ryou I want to protect you, just as you want to protect me
I do want to help you
And I you, we can protect each other and help each other attain each others goals
Ryou froze, What are your goals
Do not worry I do not want to hurt anyone, I just want to find out who I am
Ryou accepted this reason and Yami Bakura said, You had better return or they will think something is amiss.
Ryou nodded and disappeared not seeing the sadistic grin on Yami bakura's face.
"This duel is illegal anyway."
"Right Tea."
Ryou kept an eye on the duel but couldn't help but have doubts about his Yami. How could he trust him, yet he did for some reason unbeknownst to him. He thought about Yugi's group and truly realized without any doubt that they had not made him apart of their group and that he would probably never be accepted.
"Don't let him scare you Joey."
"Hang in there." He figured that is something he would say.
Yami you would never hurt me would you?
How could I hurt my…hikari
Ryou's face shone and he radiated light. Yami Bakura had never felt that kind of power before and realized he had his hands on a gold mine. All he had to do was control this weakling, which was no trouble. When Ryou had betrayed him last time, it was only a fluke.
I'll go back now
"Nice one Joey…"
Ryou, I need you to get us to the keeper of the millennium eye. Can you do that?
Of Course, but why?
Well the eye will help me to figure out who I am and the keeper is very evil so we must stop him
Okay
The battle ended with Joey as the victor.
"I admit you had us worried at first."
"But you came through this time," said Ryou.
"I got lucky…"
Pegasus is he dangerous?
We can stop him
But about Yugi and…
Yami Bakura grew angry and hissed, What should you care for them, they hate you, let them deal with their own troubles
But I still don't want anyone to get hurt Ryou cried.
Yes but I do not want you to get hurt over mortals who hate you
I understand, but
No buts, now return
Ryou had been walking with the group when they saw the light at the end of the tunnel.
They ran towards daylight but were stunned to see that it was being blocked out.
They ran to the huge boulder that blocked their exit and started to try and push it.
Ryou and Tea gave up after a while the others kept trying.
Use the ring to get out of here
Ryou felt the ring activate and followed it to another passageway.
Yes good go to the castle, let it take you there and act…kind and …helpful
"It seems my Millennium Ring is tugging me in this direction."
"Huh"
"Why?"
"Well Yugi and I think that my Millennium Eye can detect other millennium items and that its been honing in on Pegasus' Millennium Eye."
Good
Ryou walked away not listening to them. He was focusing all his will into the direction they were heading.
"So now what?"
"This way." And Ryou started to run the pull of the Millennium Ring becoming stronger. The others barely kept up and he said, "Follow me, the ring is pulling me this way."
The others caught up to Ryou as he was facing a blinding white light. He was just standing there and they heard the strange voices of the twins as soon as the light dimmed.
ALYSSA: SO hey how is it going. I didn't mean to make it so follow the story lines and it will get better. I just had to start it at the beginning. This will be a very long fanfic I think so keep in touch and review.
ALSO IF I HAVE COPYWRITED TO MUCH MATERIAL THEN PLEASE TELL ME. I HAVE HEARD OF STORIES THAT HAVE DONE THE SAME THING AS ME SO I APOLOGIZE. PLEASE CONTINUE TO READ AS IT WILL BECOME MORE INTERESTING AND ANGSTY AS RYOU IS TORTURED BY HIS YAMI AND EVEN DARKER FORCES. I REALLY DON'T THINK I CPIED VERY MUCH AT ALL.