THIS IS A SERIES OF ONE-SHOTS AND THIS IS KATE'S PERSPECTIVE RIGHT AFTER HER MOTHER DIES I HOPE YOU LIKED IT!

SUMMERY- Kate after her mom dies is starting to give up hope and losing hope until fate steps in and makes her hold on and finds hope again.

-KATE'S PERSPECTIVE-

I didn't know life was going to be like this. I thought my mother was going to be with me for everything. The thought of her never being there never even

crossed my mind. I never thought she was going to miss out on my college graduation , wedding, meeting her grandchildren for the first time. Its not fair why?

why her? why not somebody else why dId she have to dIe I stIll need her. she dIed less than 24 hrs ago I don't know what to wIth my self. RIght now I just

feel numb. I feel lIke I can't functIon. sleep doesn't even seem possIble, I just feel so raw rIght now. God knows where my father Is he was a mess the last

time I seen him which was about 2 hours after the cops left. RIght after they told us my mother was dead . Johanna Beckett was dead. I don't

know what my life means anymore. It just seems all broken.

At that moment I just lost It and grabbed the nearest thing In my room which was a lamp and I threw It across the room ans screamed "WHY".

at that moment I just lost It. I was throwing everything In sight. from my brush to my desk chair then I ran over to my closet and started tearing clothes off the hangers and throwing It across the room until my whole entire closet was empty. Then I made It went to my desk and started throwing pens notebooks and then I picked up a picture frame and I was about to chuck It at the wall but then I caught a glimpse of the picture.

"mom" I whispered. I collapsed to the ground grasping the picture of my mom and I at the county fair when I was 10 years old we were sharing a thing of cotton candy. I just sobbed I thought I had no tears left but I guess I was wrong. I guess I was wrong about a lot of things.

I finally got the courage to get up off the floor onto my shaking legs. I just need to get out of here I just need to do something, I just feel like my word Is ending.

I finally get my self to the front door. The sun Is shining, but all I can see I gray clouds. Today Is not a nice day , I don't know If there will ever be a nice enjoyable day. I thought and I walk down the street. How can I ever enjoy life without her. How? How Is life supposed to gone on with out her. I keep walking , my walking starts turning Into a jog then It turned Into a full out run. Maybe I can runaway from my problems, my grief. I Thought I was going to cry again but I had no tears left. I stop running to catch my breath, right In front of a book store.

I see a line of people and i ask a women what is this line for and she shrieks " Richard Castle"

Richard Castle, where have i heard or seen that name before? Then it came to me, My Mother. Richard Castle is her favorite Author, he is a new young Mystery writer.

I don't know if this is a sign or some divine intervention or just a coincidence. I don't really know but i enter the store anyways. I guess you could say I felt compelled to go in there. I buy his latest Derick Storm book and stand in line. It felt like ages, but finally i was next.

It felt like I couldn't breath. I got up there , he didn't look at me right away but said "what is your name?"

I didn't answer right away and that is when he looked up. He looked right into my eyes, it felt like he could see through my soul.

He gave me a warm smile when i said "Kate" he gave me an even bigger smile. That smile i guess gave me hope. He then handed my book back and i quickly scrambled away. When i exited the book store i finally realized the breath I didn't realize I was holding. I opened the book and read the inscription and i couldn't believe it, my eyes just bugged out.

It read

Kate,

You might think I'm crazy but your eyes said it all, we all have our low times come but a

horizon is coming. You will be happy again , hope is still alive just hold on to small

hope and you will be alright again.

Have hope,

Richard Castle

That is the moment i realized it just might be okay again, Richard Castle gave me a small piece of hope. That is why after that day i kept going, when ever I felt like I was being eaten alive by grief i would pick up that book and read it from cover to cover. His words kept me alive.

Richard Castles words saved me, Kate Beckett. Richard Castle saved me,Kate Beckett.

THE END

THIS WAS A ONE SHOT! I HOPED YOU LIKED IT. THIS WAS A REALLY SAD STORY AND I HATE WRITING SAD STORIES BUT AT LEAST IT HAD A HAPPY ENDING! PLEASE READ AND REVIEW!